Nessie knew that Jake was taking on more than he ever thought he would have too and she did feel guilty that he was having to keep his thoughts secret and put so much work on him to make sure his family didn't catch on. Each day that went on it would get harder to keep it up and she was sure that her family wouldn't be too pleased with Jake and she was sure that her family would take out some anger on him when they find out she was under him.

"Jake I am thankful for you but please don't go over to the main house I can see all the stress that you have put on yourself these last few months."

"Nessie I am glad you are here. With you being here it means that I know you are safe and yes I am lying but I want you safe with me."

Jake still liked Nessie more than friends and he still wasn't able to act upon it. Nessie was like his sister and he would love for her to be more but he knew that it would never happen.

"Maybe I should let them know I am here. That way they won't worry too much and know vampire will be allowed here."

"It has been five months now let's just keep this going." It was like Jake didn't want to give up having Nessie all to himself just yet. He got up and started to head out of his room.

"Come on let's go start cooking." Nessie started following him. She couldn't believe that they hit the five month mark this week. It had gone by fast but she was now starting to miss people and she wanted to be able to talk to them. The cooking dinner together started after the first month. It was something that bonded them together and even though she didn't always eat the food she was able to just do something to keep her mind busy.

Moving into the kitchen they started pulling out dishes and turning on the stove. Nessie had come up with a schedule for what meals would be when. It was easier to do it this way because then Jake would know what to buy and have there for that week. She finally got it so that there was food in the house at all times. Even with all the other wolves coming over the food seemed to stay in stock maybe it was because she was getting healthier food and they don't always do the healthy food. As they started to prep the food Nessie heard the door open.

"Hey Jake, Hey Nessie I thought you guys would be cooking." It was Paul walking through the door.

"Hey Paul let me guess you were hoping to eat too?" Nessie just shook her head and turned back towards the counter. She heard Jake walk over to his friend. The guys started to head towards the back of the house. Nessie continued to get the cooking done. It was only spaghetti and meatballs but she wanted a simple meal. It was towards the weekend and the guys usually started to show up for dinner around the end of the week from what she was starting to see.

Cooking was a great therapy for her. With Jake being gone with Paul it gave her more time to think and not have to deal with anyone else. She threw the pasta in and went outside to sit on the porch. It was getting close to the seasons turning and the weather becoming colder. She could hear others talking and children yelling down the road. This was such a close community and it could make anyone feel welcomed to be a part of this. She never fully understood how she was able to be the exception to the rule but she was glad that she was able to come and be a part of Jake's world and have a place to get away.

"Nessie there you are. I finished up dinner. Everything is ready now." She got up for the chair and made her way into the dining room. Paul was already sitting at the table when she got in there. She sat down in her usual spot and watched as Jake sat down next to her. The guys were laughing and talking all dinner. She had no desire to talk or participate in a conversation tonight. Her mind was elsewhere and she couldn't bring it to here and now.

"I am going to go out for a walk." She stood up from her seat and made her way to the door. She didn't wait for Jake to get up. She made her way to the woods. It was five months ago that she made her way to Jake's house to make sure everyone was safe. She made her way down that path again. She knew it would take her to her family home that she left once again. Moving fast she got to the edge of the woods in no time. She could see lights on inside the house. She didn't see anyone moving but she could sense them in there. The window that led to Alec's room was open and you could see a light on in his room.

"Alec I miss you." She looked up at the window hoping that he would walk by. Even if it was just for a second. You could see his shadow moving through the room but she wasn't able to see him in person yet.

"I wish I could change how things went but I was looking out for you." Nessie knew that she had to get going soon or she would never be able to leave. It was like Alec could hear her or if he knew that she wanted to see him but he walked past the window. Nessie caught her breath and was just glad that he had decided to stay with her family even though she wasn't there. She knew that her parents could protect him and if Aro did show up he wouldn't be alone.

Being able to see Alec was all she needed. She turned to leave and take off back towards Jake's house. She started to just do a slow walk. She wasn't in a hurry to go back. When she heard a stick break behind her she started taking off faster to get back to protected property. She was in a few strides of being safe again when her arm was jerked back and she was faced with the person who was behind her.