Hey guys, I'm back! This chapter took me a while to write as I needed to sort things out, that's why I'm disappointed that I wasn't able to write at least two chapters in the winter holidays. I still have two days but I won't be able to post again in at least a week or more.

With that said, if you are waiting for Jack, then don't worry because he will appear in the next chapter. Thank you so much for the reviews, they mean a lot.

I hope you enjoy!

Desclaimer: If I owned Kickin it, I wouldn't be on here.

Kim's POV

I rolled over on the bed, trying to block the sunlight from shining on my face. I snuggled into the conforter even further, closing my eyes but not really wanting to go back to sleep. I just wanted to...relax. Actually I wasn't even sure of what I wanted to do. I had the urge to just lay in bed, all day preferably, and get up, all at the same time. I let out a groan, which came out muffled due to my face being buried in the pillows. It was ridiculous, all of this was. I felt like a freaking pregnant woman with crazy mood swings and I didn't like it one bit. It was like I had no control over my body. My mind and heart always battled and each forced their way to take the lead. There was no actual me...if any of that even made sense. The point is, I always let my emotions or brain control me before I even have the chance to actually think. The thing that I ended up doing was never what I wanted but I could do nothing about it.

But as if it wasn't already enough, my emotions fought among themsleves too, never giving me peace. I hate having mixed thoughts over something, just like now. Having seen that picture last night sparked something in me that had long ago faded. For the first time in a long while, last night I had cried. I had cried because I didn't know what else to do. 'Stupid Emotions' I thought angrily to myself. It's funny how for all these years I had managed to supress them and now, after one look at an old memory, BAM everything just bursts.

I had no idea of what to think, I had no idea of what to do. Part of me wanted me to forget it all and the other wanted me fix this...whatever it was anyway. Finally, I moved my head to the side and took a glance at the alarm clock. The green digital numbers read 10:37 am. Man, did it feel good to wake up on my own instead of the loud busy roads doing it.

The silence in the room got cut off by the -rather loud might I add- grumbling noise my stomach made, demading to be filled up immediatly. I slowly rose out of the bed, before stopping and thinking of how I even got in this room in the first place.

*Last Night*

Whilst absent-mindedly humming a tune, Natalie finally came back from the kitchen holding a tray of Kim's favourite chocolate chip cupcakes. She got held up with a phone call from her mother so she took longer than needed. She opened the door and stilled at the sight before her. Kim was leaning against the wall, knees up to her chest while clutching something tightly. With no emotion on her face, she was staring ahead, lost in her own world.

Natalie still didn't undrestand what happened. Was she really gone for that long? When she left, Kim seemed fine, with a tiny smile on her face even. She was happy to see her daughter finally letting lose, she thought it would be a new fresh start all over again, just with different out comes. Yet, after what? Like 20 or 25 minutes, here she is, her baby girl looking as if she just died.

When the thought struck her, Natalie put her tray down and rushed over to Kim, crouching down. For the first time since she entered the room, Natalie noticed the still fresh tear stains on Kim's cheeks and her eyes immediatly wandered to whatever Kim was still holding with a death girp. She pondered for a moment on whether or not to take a look at the object or try to make Kim talk first. She looked back up at Kim's face and and imidiatly embraced her into a loving hug.

"Kim...?" Natalie whispered, trying to get Kim to at least look at her. Kim however didn't shift her gaze from whatever she was looking at with distant yet seemingly curious eyes.

But Natalie didn't care, right now she only wanted Kim to say something, to tell her what happened that had her in this state. She watched in sorrow as a single tear escaped Kim's eye, slowly making it's way down her cheek 'tll it reached her jaw, Natalie's eyes never leaving it. The tear drop lingered on her jawline and hung there, painfully slowly becomg heavier. The drop started to slip before it fell on the object in Kim's arms and that's when Natalie went to grab it. She grabbed Kim's cold and suprisingly limp arms and took hold of the object, which she now identifided as a piece of paper She was surprised that Kim let it go that easily, but then again, with her arms feeling like that, Natalie felt relieved that she could see her breathing. It was the only sign showing that Kim was even alive, considering she was barely even blinking.

Once Natalie was sure that Kim wouldn't throw a fit because of her taking the picture away, she got a good look at it and all the air left her lungs, leaving her gaping away at the picture.

She hadn't seen Jerry's face in seven years and honestly, she didn't think she ever would again, no matter how much it pained her, it was the truth. The cold truth. But the fact that she still had concrete memories of him, didn't seem to cross her mind and rigth now, she couldn't regret more sending Kim down here, to dig into the depths of the place. She knew how Kim got after the Whole incident, that's why the family moved to New York, hoping to start fresh, but still, their past Always seemed to find them again, haunting them in worst ways ever.

After regaining her breath, Natalie threw her arms around Kim, pressing her daughter's cold body against her, not expecting her to respond. And she didn't. Natale rested her chin on Kim's head, closing her eyes after feeing them watering.

"Oh dear Lord, why? Why my kids, why?" she whispered, asking the now overly-used question, but they didn't care, they just wanted their well-deserved answers. Answers to that question. Jerry had Always been like another son to her, so the pain was shared.

Natalie never thought it would ever happen again, but apparently getting into trouble runs in their blood. Although, last time, it was only a very close one. She still remembered the-

"Mom?" Kim's small voice snapped Natalie out of her thoughts and she quickly took Kim's face in her hands, wiping away the stiil fresh tear stains.

"Kim, honey, I-I...I'm sorry sweetheart, I should h-have known" Natalie stuttered out, gulping in between.

Kim just shook her head, to deny her or to clear out her thoughts, Natalie didn't know but she knew one thing for sure. She has to get Kim out of here. With that, Natalie gently pulled Kim up, her gaze still directed in the same way as it has been for past 10 minutes and more.

Kim was still in a daze and she almost didn't feel the grip her mother had on her arms as she pulled her out of the room. Still, Kim didn't stop staring at the same spot until her eyes met door. Natalie dragged Kim away, the cupcake tray long forgotten.

Once they reached Kim's room, she walked over to her bed by herself and once she hit the matress, she was out like a light, leaving her mother staring at her from the doorway with a look of distress.

I sighed as I looked at myself in the mirror in the bathroom. Memories of last night were blurred, I didn't remember the detalis, I just knew why I was so disthrought...because of that picture. Until now I've had nothing to do with my past, all this time I've run further away from all the memories, the now painful memories. It's what I did 7 years ago and it was what I've continued to do. I couldn't bare the loss, I've Always thought of myself as a though one, someone who didn't take shit from anyone, yet I got repressed by my own feelings, that obligated me to change. I never wanted to be like this, a heartless bitch but how can you have feelings if you never stop pushing them away? It was the only way for me to avoid my world to crash down on me again.

My head began spinning and throbbing, as I wasn't used to all my feelings swirling in me. It's been a long while since I let any of them to pop up but seeing Jerry's face again sent me into a wirlwind. It had taken me forever to get my life back on track after I moved to New York, because seeing Jerry everywhere I went, whenever I did something, didn't help at all with me still battling with myself. I was desperate, I missed Jerry like crazy because I was Always with him and there wasn't a single thing I did without him.

Eventually, after much struggle, I finally learned how to live without my other half, my twin, but the new world that had managed to buld up wasn't the paradise and peaceful shelter that I hoped it'd be. Oh what a fool I was, I realized only now that there no paradise without the person who meant the most to you in the world.

But nontheless, I accepted it, at least I had something to hold onto instead of being in open waters. I thought that hiding away from my own heart would have been the best choice, but now, after this, I'm positive that I can't go anywhere else. Everything has already been blown away and I'm tired of running away. I've reached my limits and no, I won't dare to push myself farther.

Maybe that's why I suddenly want to run back, pick up that piece of leather I had dropped along the way and...go all the way back to Seaford.


Natalie was roaming around in the kitchen, Jace had gone out to his friends' house a while ago while her husband left for work. She had no intentions of getting out of bed today but she had to for Jace and Chase. She knows they can take care of themselves but she still wants to Always be there for them, especially in the morning.

It's fair to say that she didn't get any sleep last night. All she had been doing was tossing and turning and even though she was afraid that Chase might wake up, she couldn't stop. She was tired Yesterday but it all melted away when she saw Kim like that. Natalie rubbed her temples once more, considering the option of going back to bed when the phone rang. Sighing, she walked over to it, taking her time.

She cleared her throath before picking up, "Hello?"

"Natalie?" the voice on the other end immediatly said. Natalie froze, her grip on the phone tightened.

"...Cecelia?" she finally answered after several moments of unbarable silence. A sigh of relief was heard from the other side, while Natalie still didn't let lose.

"Yes Natalie, it's me, I-I...Oh my God, it's just...it's just so good to talk to you again" Cecelia said, the exitment in her voice was evident, it was clear she was trying to conceal her squeals too. This made Natalie break into a smile. And not just any smile, a full and happy smile. It felt nice to smile again after all the drama that occured last night.

"Cece, y-you..how-why...what?" Natalie asked breathlessly. She was ecstatic to finally talk with Cece again. They had been the best of friends, long before Kim and Jerry were born and she honestly thought that she had lost her forever after what happened in Seaford. The urge to ask how her, Ricardo and Andrè were doing was great but that also meant bringing up something else. Something she didn't want to bring up at all if she wanted to continue the chat with a happy mood. But the almost unbarable desire to ask how Ricardo was doing, was eating her alive. Her and Ricky had been best friends for as long as they can remember, Cece and Chase came along later on. Natalie loved Ricky like a Brother, she still did beacuse she never stopped. Chase knew that not talking to him was slowly Killing her inside. It was scary how much Natalie, Ricky, Kim and Jerry looked alike. They were the same in so -no- too many ways. Kim and Jerry were just like the younger versions of Natalie and Ricky, feelings included.

A laugh from Cece brought Natalie back to reality, "I know, I know. It's all so sudden but-" Cece got cut off by Natalie speaking exitedly in the phone,

"Og God, Cece I'm so happy that you called. I though...I thought I would never hear from you again..." Natalie trailed off, knowing Cece would catch on. She thought Cece would drop this subject but she was surprised when she still went on.

"Yeah I know, so much time has passed, I..." a sigh could be heard as she went on, "I honestly didn't even think I'd call" Cece knew Natalie wouldn't get mad at this, and she didn't. Natalie knew all-too-well the feeling. She too never thought of calling Cece, in fear of sparking something, of breaking the balance there was. True, she missed the Martinez family dearly and it was clear they did too, but the situation called for family priorities. She needed to watch out for Kim and to do so, she needed to leave Seaford behind. All of the memories, the people...Both the families needed their space.

"Don't worry, I know. So...what made you call?" Even with the mutual feelings on what happened, Natalie still hoped she wasn't rude for asking that question. But all her worry went away as Cece responded,

"You see..." And with that, all the happiness melted away, as Natalie dropped on the nearest couch, with a lump in her throat.


"Kim?" Natalie called out to her daughter. She had just finished her conversation with Cece and was currently rushing around, trying to shake off some nervousness and anxiety.

She stood near the staircase, waiting for Kim to get down but was shocked to see her coming from downstairs. Where the basement was. She really didn't think Kim would go down there again, but she guessed she should stop presuming things, as until now, everything she thought wouldn't happen, was actually happening before her very eyes.

"Yes mom?" Kim asked once she was infornt of her mother. Natalie looked at Kim for head to toe, when her eyes fell onto her left wrist. A leather bracelet was wrapped around it. Kim followed her gaze and whe she saw the bracelet, she began fiddling around with it, giving Natalie a perfect view of the 'JK' on it.

Kim didn't notice but Natalie stiffened, still eyeing the bracelet. "Kim?" Kim's head snapped up, her full attention on her mother now, "Please come to the living room and take a seat" Natalie lead the way before motiong to Kim to sit down. With a questiong look on her face, Kim complied, before Natalie bagan to speak.

"So, Cece called" Natalie started off with a casual tone, but didn't miss Kim's widening eyes.

"Cece?" kim breathed out after some hesitation. Her mother nodded before continuing, "Yes, and she called to tell something rather interesting"

In all honesty, Kim didn't like her mother's tone and expression at all, maybe because they were unreadable, also mixing with the fact that she was constantly directing her gaze at her wrist. Still, Kim nodded at her to continue.

Natalie took a deep breath before breaking the ice, "She told that somebody found, um, t-they found..." she trailed off, afraid of Kim's reaction though she was a little pleased to already find her with something. It ressured her that her daughter wouldn't exactly have a meltdown.

By this point, Kim was on the edge of her seat, wanting her mother to finish already. Just as she was about to say something, Natalie stopped her by saying, "Kim they found Jerry identical bracelet"

Kim's heart stopped, her eyes widened and her jaw dropped to the ground as she blurted out incoherent stuff. "What-how-when-...he-who..."

Instead of screaming out, like Natalie thought she would, Kim shut her mouth and slowly rose up from the couch, never breaking eye contact with Natalie. Natalie stared at her daughter with utter confusion, contrasting the determination on Kim's face. She didn't have enough time to question it though, as Kim spoke up, loud and clear,

"Mom, I'm going back to Seaford"

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