A/N: Finally, to the letters! As always, I sadly do not own Bones. :(
The next day dawned, brining with it a great deal of apprehension for the partners. It was the day of their session with Dr. Sweets. They had poured their hearts out onto paper. It was time to face the music.
They met in the waiting room, but neither said a word. They both clung to the envelopes holding their hearts. Dr. Sweets came to bring them into the office, but his greeting died on his lips at the sight of the incredibly tense situation before him. He instead silently ushered them into the office, taking to proffered envelopes as the went.
He watched with curiosity at the normally boisterous people before him sitting in tense silence, as far away as the could be from one another. Understanding that small talk was not needed, he simply opened the letters and read them to himself before handing them to those whom they were addressed to. The partners shared one quick look between them, then quickly dove into their respective letters.
Dear Booth,
I have to say that I am truly confused as to why you are leaving when you have so much here. Above all, you should know how I would feel about you leaving Parker behind. But this is not the time or place to lecture you on parenting issues.
I know that it is irrational, but I feel sick when I think about you leaving. Our friendship has come to mean so much to me over these last few years. I'm honestly not sure how I will deal with losing you. Everyone I have ever loved has left me, and I thought that you would be the exception. But unfortunately that is not the case. Just like my parents and brother, you are leaving me on my own.
I am going to miss our late night work session, Thai food and all. The ones where we start to work, but never seem to get anything done, leaving us to spend hours at a time catching up on the left over paperwork. I will miss the way you work so hard to teach me about the pop culture references that are forever going over my head. I will miss everything about our friendship, even the constant bickering.
I spent a long time trying to put my feelings on this into words. I am feeling so much right now and I don't know how to explain it all. I'm sad and angry and confused and I feel as though my heart is breaking, even though I know that is a physical impossibility. It was only while writing you this letter that I truly realized how much you mean in my life. I discovered that I have a large number of irrational questions regarding your leaving.
When dealing with a number of problems at once, I find it helpful to simply list them out so that they can be worked on and answered more effectively.
How do I get through a night without you? I am so used to the midnight visits with food, the multiple times you come to check that I am ok during a case and to make sure I remembered to lock my door.
If I had to live without you, what kind of life would that be? I'd like to know who is going to teach me about the outside world as you call it. I know that Angela tries to get me out, but you are the only one who has every taken the time to show me everything that my life could be outside of my work. Honestly, without our friendship, I will have no life outside the lab, save for the occasional nights out with Angela.
How do I ever survive? Who is going to be the one to make sure I leave that lab at a decent hour? Or make sure I eat something? Or drink enough water? Or any of the other things you do to ensure my health and safety each day?
When my family left me, I was able to adapt to being alone, to rely only on myself. But you have changed that. I wasn't able to admit it even to myself until now, but i have come to depend on you in my life. It is hard to admit that I am not able to do everything for myself, that I actually need someone in my life. Now that my lifeline, as I've heard it called, is being taken away, I'm not sure how well I will be able to recover. I know that I will still be able to function, but I wonder if I will know how to truly live my life without you here.
I know that I have always said that I do not believe in the concept of love, but I cannot seem to find any other words to describe the way I feel about you. You are, or were, my partner and best friend and it is only now that you are leaving that I am able to see that there is so much more we could have been. Seeley Booth, I love you. I may be angry and hurt that you are leaving, but I know now that I will always love you. I wish that you would change your mind and remain here, but I know that if you are leaving it is important to you and I have to respect that.
So goodbye. I don't know what else I can say.
Love always,
Bones
A/N: Booth's letter is next! Please let me know what you think!
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