Here it is, the last chapter of Soundtrack. Sorry it took so long (again), homework's been burying me alive. Hope you all like this!
Disclaimer: I still don't own Twilight. I also don't own Consider This by Anna Nalick.
I have to admit, I was not expecting the house to be as seemingly empty. I say seemingly because, only Carlisle and Esme said they had plans and all the cars were still here. Even Bella's truck. I bristled a bit at the thought, but shook it off. I needed to organize all my new shoes.
The various boxes and bags I carried all ended up on the floor. There was a small package on the bed; my curiosity was piqued. I unwrapped the object and found a CD with a note on top of it. I frowned a bit as I unfolded the note: either they had felt like returning the favor and giving me a random CD or they had figured me out and had picked one that fit me.
Rose,
This lovely music is a gift from the RSVOH…or, as Bella calls it, the RSB. Either way, we bought it. Enjoy.
-Edward, Emmett, Jasper, Alice, and Bella
Uh oh. I had no idea exactly what the…RSVOH or the RSB where, but the R probably stood for Revenge. Which meant they had put some thought into it. The little postscript that said to listen to track 11 only confirmed my suspicions. I sighed and put the CD into the player and skipped to the track.
I've tripped again and things are starting to get interesting
Don't give me choices cause I can't decide
My mind is soaked in words
I've come to terms with all my insecurities
And purity's no friend of mine
I frowned at the player. So they were seeking revenge. Everything I try not to think about was surfacing and flooding my mind.
All my insecurities: they're petty, I'll admit, but nonetheless…I still couldn't entirely understand Edward's preference for Bella. Not that I wanted him like that, I have Emmett. It's just that that's who I am. Who I've always been.
And dreaming doesn't do no good
Cause I don't wanna lie
That I'm okay and I'm alright
I'd rather take it and forget it
Consider this a warning
Cause I'll start another fight
And you'll say its all alright
I'll wait for the day when you find I'm too much for you, baby
So lay your hands over me
And feel what you only see
But don't bother wasting your time if you're trying to change me
Of all the things I loved about Emmett, one of my favorite things was that he accepted me, flawed as I was. He let me be me, self-centered, somewhat snobby (okay, a lot snobby), and insecure, in a way.
But the worst part is that I know that I'm like this. I know I'm pretty shallow, I know I value appearances more than anything, I know I'm not a wonderful person. I just can't change who I am. Edward's face, on the other hand, might not stay in the same condition. Well, if we weren't vampires, that is.
You're kinda cool but I know better than to break the rules
Of messin' with a lesson that I'll never learn
I'll go from bad to worse and later back to better
But I'll never better bridges that I'm bent to burn
Sometimes, I wish that I was different. I wish that I had learned how to be a better person. But with time, I just feel like I'm getting worse. Bella's not helping the matter either. She can have everything I've ever wanted and she wants to throw it all away. Even I can understand why she's being stupid. Heck, I know it better than everyone else.
And dreaming doesn't do no good
Cause I don't wanna lie
That I'm okay and I'm alright
I'd rather take it and forget it
Consider this a warning
Cause I'll start another fight
And you'll say its all alright
I'll wait for the day when you find I'm too much for you, baby
So lay your hands over me
And feel what you only see
But don't bother wasting your time if you're trying to change me
This is a warning
This is a warning
This is a warning
I need to change. I need to accept that things are what they are and make myself a better person. I don't want someone trying to make me change myself, but I can change of my own free will. The boxes of shoes on the floor behind me are staring at me, making me feel guilty. Maybe I'll donate some of them to charity or something. That's a start on the whole materialistic thing.
And dreaming doesn't do no good
Cause I don't wanna lie
That I'm okay and I'm alright
I'd rather take it and forget it
Consider this a warning
Cause I'll start another fight
And you'll say its all alright
I'll wait for the day when you find I'm too much for you, baby
So lay your hands over me
And feel what you only see
But don't bother wasting your time if you're trying to change me
If you're trying to change me
If you're trying to change me
One step at a time. I'll make my own changes, no one can force me. And maybe, just maybe, in the end I'll be a better person.
But I'm not starting those changes today. Today, I'm going to get them for this. I might be aiming to change in the long run, but they didn't need to make me think about all my flaws. And my revenge starts with the person who wrote the damn note.
"EDWARD!"
So, it's offically over folks. Reveiws are still much appreciated, but if I get any that say "update soon" or something of that sort, I may just scream.
However, you shouldn't be too long without anything from me. I have a future fic for Twilight in the works. It's going to be fun.
