Hey, we are almost at the end, I think the next chapter will be my last, but after that I'll publish another story. I'm also writing another one-shot, if you haven't read the first one I wrote you can check it out.
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ROCKY START. CHAPTER 8
"Maya... It's me again- please answer me. I need to explain... please... I need to hear your..."
"Maya, you have to stop listening to them." Riley said, opening the curtains of her room. I covered myself with her blankets, in the dark everything seemed like a bad dream, where I could wake up and all would be okay.
"Close them" I said. I could hear her sigh heavily and the mechanic sound of the rails. I poked my head out, she was standing in front of me with her hands on her hip, trying to look very serious.
"It's the third day you've spent in my bed, Peaches..."
"Riley" I cut her off, she was going to start a sermon on moving forward and I really didn't want to hear it. "I can't..." I was thinking of so many things to say to her, but they all got cut in my throat. I was going to cry again and all I could think about was him hugging me, telling me it was all going to be well, because that's what he always did when I cried.
Riley came close to me, but I turned around and closed my eyes. I wasn't being fair to her, she had gone above and beyond trying to comfort me, letting me stay with her and bringing me food, keeping me company, hugging me at nights, but she didn't understand that at the moment it wasn't her who I wanted, I wanted my boyfriend, I wanted the love of my life next to me. I'm sorry Riles, I hope you can forgive me for this, I promise I'll make it up to you.
"You've reached Maya Hart, if I didn't answer it's for a reason. Voice mail, again. I didn't know what to do, I had 30 unread messages from Farkle and 42 from Zay, plus all the calls I had ignored. I didn't want to talk to them, not right now, I just wanted to talk to Maya, maybe if I could explain to her. I was sitting in my car in front of her house, I had spent the night there. I was dialing again when someone tapped on my window. It was Maya's mom with a plate covered in foil and what appeared to be a mug of coffee. I rolled my window down.
"Ms. Hart, I'm sorry... I'm just waiting for Maya..." I said, looking down at the pedals.
"I know Lucas... you must be hungry" she said lifting the plate. "You've been here since last night and I don't think you've eaten anything."
I gave her a small smile and took the plate and placed the mug on my dashboard.
"Thank you Ms. Hart." I swallowed hard, trying to find something to say.
"I don't know what happened between you two, Lucas. It looks bad and I want to know if you can fix it."
"If I could just talk to her and explain my side of the story..."
She looked down at the pavement and then back at me.
"She hasn't come home." Oh, God. She's with Riley, I'm an idiot, of course she would be there, that's why Riley hasn't texted me anything. I closed my eyes, trying to think of what to do, I just needed to explain.
"How is she?" I could hear Farkle asking Riley outside of the room.
"She's sleeping now, thankfully, she didn't sleep anything for the first two days." Then some seconds of silence. "Do you know anything about Lucas?"
"Last time Zay spoke to him, he was heading to Maya's house."
"Do you know what happened?" Riley asked, whispering.
"She hasn't told you?" Farkle responded.
"No, she's too upset." I just couldn't bring myself to tell her what he had done.
"This one's bad" Farkle said.
"Yeah, I'm scared of what is going to happen."
"We just gotta be there for them." He paused. "I'm going to see Zay now, we are going to look for him."
"Okay, I'll call you later." A kiss sound that fell heavy on my chest, then I hear the knob twisting and I close my eyes.
I had parked my car and come down to my favorite bench in the water front, where I could see the ferry come and go. My phone kept ringing, it would die soon, I had drowned the battery trying to call her. I closed my eyes, I heard the horn on the ferry just leaving the terminal, the noise was comforting, I kept hearing her voice yelling "Leave!"
"Farkle! He's here!" I heard Zay call, I opened my eyes and saw him run towards me, a skinny tall guy a little behind him. "We've been looking for you everywhere man, why won't you answer the freaking phone? I mean, not even once! We were worried sick!"
"You just had to answer the phone and tell us you were alive!" Farkle said catching up with us. I kept looking at the boat, a knot in my throat.
"She's with Riley." Zay said, sitting by my side.
"I know." I said. "How is she?"
"I don't know, she was asleep when I went to see her." Farkle responded, sitting on the other side. "How are you?"
I couldn't answer that without crying, so I just looked down at the pavement. Zay patted my back.
"What happened between you?" He asked, searching my eyes.
"I fucked up."
He waited a moment before talking again. "Did you cheat on her?"
"No." I responded.
"I don't care about who's right, Riley!" I dropped my hands to my sides, exasperated. "I just need to know that you're on my side."
She closed her eyes for a second and then sat down next to me, she grabbed my hand and looked me in the eyes.
"Always."
I put my head on her shoulder and sighed softly.
"I'm tired, Riles." I said, tears prickling my eyes again.
"I know, Peaches."
"What do I do know?" I asked.
"You should talk to him." She said stroking my hair.
"What if I don't want to forgive him?"
"You should try and listen to what he has to say." She said.
"I'm not ready for that."
"He obviously feels terrible, Maya, maybe if you talked about what happened."
"I just feel so angry, at him, at myself for falling for his shit. I want to stop." I began crying again, the tears seemed never-ending, I had been crying for three days straight.
"Then we'll stop." She cleaned my face with her hands. "Are you sure?" She asked after a pause.
"I don't want to feel like this again..." Was all I could manage to say between sobs.
"You won't, I promise." She said firmly.
"Hello?"
"Oh God, Maya! You answered! Please just let me explain what happened, I—"
"Lucas! It's Riley..." She said on the other side. "Maya is taking a bath."
"Can I talk to her?" I asked in desperation.
"No." She said and hanged up.
Fuck, I dialed again and again Riley's voice received me.
"Lucas stop calling her and stop leaving her messages, it's doing no good for her."
"Riley I just need to fucking explain to her what happened." She hanged up again.
I was getting frustrated, angry, I felt like I wanted to hit a wall, but I dialed again.
"I'm sorry for getting mad." I said, the second she took the call. "It's just... I need to talk to her..."
"You lost that privilege when you lied to her." She said, I closed my eyes and clenched my jaw.
"Riley, I know you are on her side but don't you think you should understand my side too, before you make a decision on who is right?"
"This isn't about who is right, Lucas, you hurt her and you hurt her really bad, she's my best friend and if you hurt her that means you're hurting me too."
"I thought I was also your friend." I said.
"You are, but you know it's different than what Maya and I have."
"Riley, as your friend, I'm just asking you to let me talk to her."
"No, Lucas."
"Why not?" I asked desperately.
"Because..." She sighed heavily. "Because she cried herself to sleep and you did that." She hanged up, my heart caught in my throat. I grabbed one of the pillows next to me and started screaming, tears streaming down my face.
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Message 1: January 14th, 2016. 9:23 p.m.
"Hey Maya, it's me, call me when you get this."
Message 2: January 14th, 2016. 9:45 p.m.
"Okay, I know you're mad, but if we talked you could understand, call me."
The phone started to vibrate in my ear, when I checked the screen a picture of him smiling was looking at me, I had taken that one on my bed, he had just woken up. Something new fills me, it's anger, no—worse, it rage. I can hear everything he said that night and it just makes my blood boil. I throw my phone against the wall.
After a while I can see it from the bed, I stand up and reach for it, on of the corners of the screen is broken but I still turn it on again. He calls again, he just won't understand, I answer his call for the first time.
"Hello?" He says on the other side. "Riley?" I don't respond, trying to deny how much I missed his voice. "Maya?" He finally says.
"It's you, oh my God, Maya! It's really you!" I have the urge to hang up, but I'm curious of what he is going to say. "Maya, if you could let me explain to you... Nothing happened Maya!" And my heart beats fast, the blood running too my head in raged. I want to stop this.
"Don't call me again..." I say, almost in a whisper, though I'm sure he listened to me.
"Maya, please..." He's desperate.
"I hate you..." Once it slips my mouth, it's so easy to say it. "I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!" Each time my voice getting louder.
"Maya..."
"It's true, I hate you. You hear me?" I feel like a train that's going too fast to be stopped. "I fucking hate you! I just want you to leave."
"Please don't do this."
"Leave me alone, I don't want to hear you or talk to you, I don't even want to see you, ever again!" I screamed that last part, but I'm tired and it feels so good getting everything out of my chest.
"Let me explain." He says, his voice cracking, but I don't care anymore, I stopped listening to him.
"I'm serious, I don't want to see you again, just leave, I don't care, leave so I can get out of this room." I pause, taking a big breath in. "Lucas, if you care about me, leave..." I hang up.
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