When They Think of Me (They Think of You)

By: TheFifthCharmedOne

Disclaimer: I own nothing, Supernatural is just a show that made me catch feelings.

Summary: 1,460 days later and Cas still has feelings for Dean. He's tried to date other people, many others, but none of them have ever made him feel the way Dean did. When his sister convinces him to move back to Lawrence, he never expects to see Dean again. He is sorely mistaken. Contains UST (lots of it) and man-pain. Also, Sabriel, and Charlie/Anna.

Chapter Ten: Literal Flying Sparks

"Hey, Anna." Charlie bit her lip nervously. "Um, I know you're worried about your brother, but um…"

Anna smiled at Charlie, and the latter's stomach fluttered.

"I'm always worried about my brothers," Anna told her. "Comes with the territory. Cas will be fine though." Brazenly, Anna covered Charlie's hand with hers, and Charlie's breath caught. "Were you trying to ask me something?"

"Um, sort of." Charlie stumbled over her words, the deep brown of Anna's eyes unsettling. She couldn't remember the last time she'd been this attracted to someone, and it was killing her confidence. "Would you wanna…I dunno, go out some time? It doesn't have to be a date, I totally get if you don't swing that way, but-mmph!"

Charlie was cut off by the softest, most pillowy lips in the universe pressing against hers. She tasted like caramel and strawberries, and Charlie suddenly craved those two snacks more than anything else.

"Does that answer your question?" Anna smiled, and Charlie's already pink face reddened.

"Uh, yeah." Charlie stammered, and Anna's smile became a grin.

The next morning, Charlie woke up to the sound of furious tapping on her car window. Blearily, she sat up and met the angry face of Jo Harvelle.

Charlie's stomach dropped out of her like a weight.

After unlocking the door and climbing out, Jo cornered her against the side.

"I remember you now," Jo told her, not even bothering with a good morning or any other pleasantry. "You kissed me when we were twelve. It was a girls' only sleepover at my house."

Charlie refused to meet Jo's eyes, which served as confirmation. "Why did you leave?"

Her head shot up and met Jo's fierce gaze.

"You weren't exactly receptive to me, so I figured I'd made a big mistake. I called my mom and dad and um…" Her voice locked in her throat and she stared over Jo's shoulder. "They got in a car accident coming to get me. My dad died and my mom…she's on life support at a hospital in Wichita."

Charlie's story tumbled out, and Jo's anger faded as she began to understand.

"My mom didn't recognize you because you dyed your hair and changed your name," Jo said after a few minutes.

Charlie swallowed hard, not daring to mention that Ellen knew her real name and still hadn't recognized her. "So…you had a crush on me?" Jo finally asked, and Charlie's face burned.

"Uh, yeah. I was just figuring out that I'm gay – seems I have a thing for brown eyes."

Jo chuckled.

"Well, this'll certainly make things more interesting around here."

"What do you mean?" Charlie asked, fear lacing through her veins.

"I saw Anna kiss you. I'm not jealous or anything, I am bi but I tend to prefer men. Are you going to tell her you and I have history?"

Charlie let out a relieved laugh.

"I hardly think a prepubescent kiss counts as history," Charlie told her, and Jo smiled.

"Were you sleeping in your car?" Jo asked, and Charlie noticed that any awkwardness had faded away.

"Unfortunately," Charlie responded. "Paying my mom's medical bills doesn't exactly allow me to afford rent."

"Huh," Jo said thoughtfully. "Wanna be roomies?"

Charlie blinked a few times, unsure of how to respond. "I've been looking for a roommate for a while, and since Jess lives with Sam, and I don't want to live with a complete stranger…" she let the sentence hang, waiting for Charlie's answer.

"I mean um, that sounds great!" Charlie said, and she was surprised at how earnest she sounded. "Where do you live?"

"Right around the corner from Singer Auto," Jo said. "It's as far as my mom would let me go." She added as an explanation. "I'm possibly leaving for college in a few months too, so you'd have the apartment to yourself while I'm away."

"I don't throw crazy parties if that's what you're worried about," Charlie said, and Jo laughed outright.

"Oh no, that's not what I meant at all. I meant if you want eventual…you know…private time with Anna."

Oh.

Oh.

Charlie's face flooded with color.

"We'll cross that bridge when we get to it." she said around her mortification.

Jo slung an arm around Charlie's shoulder.

"I think this is the start of a beautiful friendship."

Dean methodically cleaned each of his tools, making sure there was no grime or dirt to be had. The Impala was coming along nicely, just a few more things to do and she would be ready.

A shadow fell over his cleaning, and Dean looked up. Charlie was grinning at him, looking eerily like a cat who'd just eaten a canary.

"I don't like that look on your face," Dean told her warily. "What's going on?"

"Oh, nothing. I just managed to get an apartment and a date with my dream girl." Charlie said casually. Dean brightened.

"That's great, kiddo!" Dean said, and he meant it. Jealousy at her happiness aside, he was excited to have her back.

"Butttt. I was hoping maybe we could make it a double date. Ya know, cancel out the awkwardness and stuff."

"Okay?" Dean said, not fully getting what she was implying.

"Come on Dean, you're smarter than that. I want to double date with you and Anna's brother Cas!"

Dean stood up abruptly and slammed his tool box closed with a little extra force. "Don't be such a drama queen." Charlie approached him, and the coiled muscles of his back and shoulders told her plenty. "The tension between you two was intense. I want info."

"There's not much to tell." Dean turned back to her and shrugged, playing nonchalant. It might have worked if he was talking to someone other than Charlie, Sam, or Mary. "We dated and it didn't work out. End of story."

"How stupid do you think I am, Dean Winchester?" Charlie asked. "If you don't tell me, I will hack into your porn collection and post it on the internet where your mother could find it."

Dean paled. "Pleaseeeeeeee?!"

"Why don't you double date with Sammy and Gabriel?" Dean ventured. "Sam's disgustingly happy with him and that still fills the little brother requirement."

"Because, bonehead, as your best friend, it's my job to make sure that you're happy, and I know that Cas would do that for you. I may not have been around when you were together, but I can tell by the way you look at him that you're still in love with him."

Dean sat back down and went back to cleaning his tools, not denying it.

Something dropped behind Charlie, and the two friends turned to see Cas, who's phone had hit the dirt road with a thump. His face was as white as flour and he looked like he was going to be sick.

"Cas, wait a second!" Dean shot up out of his seat, but Cas was already in his car driving away.

"Well, what are you waiting for, tough guy?" Charlie asked him as the car's engine faded. "Go after him!"

Dean looked indecisive for a moment, but then shouted, "Bobby!"

After hearing a gruff noise from the back office, Dean said, "I'll be back in a while, I got something I've gotta take care of!"

Dean didn't wait for approval for hopping onto Baby 2 and zooming away.

The Novak apartment was modest, and as Dean leaned Baby 2 against the wall, he told himself that this was the right thing to do, that despite his worries, Cas still cared. Still wanted him. Why else would he run if not from his own heart?

Dean knocked on the door before he could talk himself out of it.

A few moments passed, and Dean was about to knock again when the door opened to reveal a shirtless Gabriel. Faded gray sweatpants hung low on his hips and his messy hair indicated he'd just woken up.

"If it isn't my second favorite Winchester," Gabriel drawled with a yawn. "What can I do ya for?"

"I need to talk to Cas," Dean said. "Please."

Gabriel surveyed him.

"If you hurt him, I swear to you, I'll make your life a living hell." Gabriel threatened.

"I made that mistake once, Gabriel. I won't make it again." Dean promised.

Seemingly pacified, Gabriel let Dean into the duplex.

"Second door past the stairs," Gabriel answered Dean's unasked question. Dean toed off his shoes and walked barefoot to Cas's bedroom, heart hammering the whole way.

He gently knocked on the door.

"Go away Gabriel," Cas's voice said from inside, and Dean could hear the choked back tears.

Dean tried the door and thanked every deity he could think of when it was unlocked.

"I'm not Gabriel."

A/N: I know, I know. I'm evil and I'd better post chapter 11 soon. I promise I will!

If anyone's curious, this story was initially inspired by two things: the song "Think of You" by Chris Young (ft. Cassadee Pope) and Season 5, episode 5, "Fallen Idols".

The story playlist is as follows: Think of You by Chris Young (ft. Cassadee Pope), Time Bomb by All Time Low, Wish You Were Here by Avril Lavigne, Somebody Loves You by Betty Who, Two Is Better Than One by Boys Like Girls (ft. Taylor Swift), Can't Help Falling In Love (With You) by Elvis Presley, Heart of Stone by Britt Nicole, Need You Now by Lady Antebellum, Love Me Like You Do by Ellie Goulding, Not Over You by Gavin DeGraw, White Blank Page by Mumford and Sons, Photograph by Ed Sheeran, Entertain the Pain by My Favorite Highway, Feels Like Tonight by Daughtry, and Listen To Your Heart by DHT (the piano version).

Anyway, please comment/review/leave kudos!

-Charmy