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Chapter 3:
Jude sat up in her bed. It was too early to even be awake, the sun wasn't even up yet, but she couldn't sleep. Everyday of the past week had been like this. Everyday Tommy heard a new song of hers. Everyday she got more scared that he was going to say something about her songs. So far he just mixed them, or if he needed to asked her to go into the studio and re-record it. So far they had been through 3 of her songs. She sighed, there were still 9 songs left. She liked working with Tommy again, sometimes it gave her a little hope before she remembered why she was doing this. She had called Tommy to put off the conversation that she didn't want to have. As long as he was focused on helping her with her album, he wouldn't even consider asking her for a divorce. She looked around the room and got herself together. She was up now, she might as well do something useful until it was time to take Mikayla to school. She got up and turned on her music on low in the kitchen and started cleaning. Cleaning the house always did pass time. Maybe it was because there was never enough time to clean her big house anymore. She tried , she really did but , it seemed to have gotten bigger since her husband left.
An hour later she had cleaned most of the rooms downstairs. She finally gave up from being tired and went to set on the couch and turned on the T.V. She watched for a little bit, but got bored instantly when the news was focused on her. "Jude Harrison Quincy, Is she still married? Anyway, her new album is underway, will it be anygood?" She heard the reporter ask. She rolled her eyes. She had been hearing about her own album for weeks. Everytime they mentioned her name they put in the harrison, they hadn't always done that, just since it leaked that Tommy had bought his own house, they weren't exactly sure on what to call her because neither her nor tommy would make a comment on the record about their marriage. Speculation was all the press could do, and they did enough of that.
She turned on the TV and decided to hop in the shower before Mikayla woke up.
Three hours later, Jude had done everything she could not to loose her mind. Sitting around the house with nothing to do. It was still another hour before mikayla was to get up. She sighed and picked up her phone trying to think of anyone that would be up already. She dialed a number and hoped someone would answer the phone. Nobody was answering, she had tried, sadie, Jamie, everyone that she knew. Then she sighed. She dialed the last number she could possibly think of and waited as the phone continued to ring.
"Are you nuts" she heard Tommy grunt through the phone.
"Hey Quincy," She said to him cheerfully trying to hide her obvious passion for his voice. "yeah, yeah, Jude what in the hell are you doing up this early, are you Crazy?" he said to her obviously annoyed.
"Nope , just awake, and bored and your the only one who picked up" she said honestly.
"Have you lost your mind Jude Qu..." She heard him trail off and she started to laugh but quickly covered her mouth. "What's so funny, you woke me up and now your laughing at me, alright girl, what do you want?" He asked. "Nothing, just bored, and I figured you'd answer, and I was right." She said still trying to hold back her excitement.
"alright JQ, Ive got to get off of here, I'll see you in a couple hours, cool? " He spoke. Jude stared at the phone for a moment before actually speaking. "uh huh" she uttered before hanging up the phone. She got up off the couch and started looking around for something to keep her busy, but she could bearly move. JQ... She thought to herself. First he almost called her Jude Quincy, which slighly amused her but knew it was only because he was so used to saying that when he was about to yell at her, and she did wake him up. Then He said JQ, he hadn't called her that in years. She sighed, this was not going to be a good day.
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As jude walked into GMajor, she looked around cautiously. She had so many emotions floating around her right now, if anyone seen her face they would know exactly what it was about.
She walked into her office expecting to get some work done before tommy showed but , but as she walked into her office, the chair spun around and there he was. Tommy was sitting at her computer working on something. He looked up at her and smiled.
"Hey girl, what's up?" he asked sweetly. She kept staring at him, watching him. She still hadn't said a word to him, instead of saying anything else, he handed her a peice of paper.
"Whats this?" she asked looking down. There it was. Her layout. Every title of her song aligned in a nice list. The photo's from the photo shoot were aranged perfectly. She looked up at him and back at the layout. "But I dont even have a title yet" She told him. " Look again JQ" He said smirking. She looked down to the layout and read the title. " Jude Quincy, Working through the Pain" She read aloud and her head snapped up and looked at him. " If you dont like it, You can change it, but from what ive heard so far, your songs are about pain, and as long as I've known you, working through pain to you is singing, so I thought it would fit." he said softly. It was at that second that she knew that even tho he would't say it, he knew exactly what and who her songs were about. She looked at him nervously. "No, its perfect" she whispered. He smiled hearing her perfectly.
They sat there looking over the cover before he got up and gave her seat back. She opened the file that he had been working on and starting making some minor changes to his almost perfect layout and then printed it out. " there now its perefect. He looked down. The only thing she had changed was the producers name. She had changed it from Jude Quincy to, Jude and Tommy Quincy. He stared at her for a moment and decided not to say anything. After that they both headed into the studio and started on the 4th song.
Here we are
What is left of a husband and a wife One good kid
Who has a
way of gettin on with her life
I'm not old but I'm getting a whole
lot older every day
It's too late to keep from goin' crazy
I
got to get away
Tommy listened to the song, he felt saddened. He had caused this. He had walked out the door, when he should of stayed. Now, everyday he listened to how much he had hurt her by walking away in the studio. The first song had broke his heart. Talking about how distant he had been. The second was talking about how broken she was. and the third, that they had just finished yesterday, was talking about fighting for their love, and now as this song started, he could already tell he wasnt going to like what it had to say.
The reasons
that I can't fight don't have a thing to do with being in love
And
I understand that lovin a girl shouldn't have to be this rough
You
ain't the only one Who feels like this world left you far behind
I
don't know why we gotta be Angry All The Time
Tommy sat still as the music played but tried to focus on the music more than the words. he looked at Jude who was anxiously awaiting a reply. "You up for recording today"he said softly, keeping his emotions out of it. It wasnt that the song needed it. He just needed her to sing this powerful song and look into her eyes. He needed to see the pain that he had caused. "Yeah sure" she sounded a little hurt. She knew as much as he did, that the song didn't need much work, but he didnt want to tell her that. If he did, she wouldnt sing it.
Our girl is
the spittin image of me when I was young
I hope someday
she can see past what we have become
I remember every time You
said you'd never leave
What I can't live with is memories of the
way you used to be
He watched Jude as she sang. He could see the tears forming in her eyes, it killed him but he didnt stop her. If he did, she would know exactly what he was thinking right now, and he couldnt let that happen.
The reasons
that You can't stay don't have a thing to do with being in love
And
I understand that lovin eachother shouldn't have to be this rough
You ain't the only one Who feels like this world left you far
behind
I don't know why we gotta be Angry All The Time
Three years
have came and went since You walked out of our door
I never quite
made it back to the one I was before
And God it hurts me to think
of you
For the love in your eyes was gone sometimes
I don't
know why this old world can't leave well enough alone
Jude finished the song and wiped the tears that were falling from her face. She waiting for Tommy to respond before she walked out. "That's good, I'll start mixing it. Thanks for singing it." he spoke into the studio. She nodded and walked out of the studio and back into the area where he was at. She sat next to him watching him make her song all that it could be. Every now and then He would ask for her opinion on something and she would give it. They spend all night working on the song. Not needing much work meant only one night on the song usually, but since he had asked her to re-sing it, it took much longer than it should of. During the process Jude had picked up Mikayla from school and took her to kaylie's house and came back and Tommy was still hard at work. At this time they were wrapping up the song, and nobody was left in the studio.
"Jude" tommy suddenly said after not speaking to her since she had sang the song. "yes?" she spoke lightly wishing that he wouldnt say anything about the song that he was adding finishing touches to. "About the song" He said knowing that she would try to avoid him talking about it. He had tried to avoid talking about her songs as well, because he knew how much pain was intertwined in the songs, but he couldnt hold it back anymore. He was nowhere close to being done producing her album, but he had to ask. He couldnt continue to listen to her songs without her knowing that they meant something to him too. "What?" She said sounding scared and annoyed at the same time. "It was a beautiful song..."he spoke trying his best to find the right words to say. "But?" she asked simply. He chuckled lightly. "But, I wanted to say, im sorry" He said so softly she almost didnt hear him. "Sorry?" She asked confussed. " Im sorry that I put you through all these things that inspired these songs. I see it in your eyes when I ask you to sing them, and I'm sorry that im the cause for that inspiration"He spoke trying fight back the tears that he knew would come if he didnt watch himself. "Tommy, It's not like I wrote this song today, okay, its okay. We havent been the us in these songs, in a long time okay. If these last couple of days has taught me anything, its that we are both completly different people that we were, so dont apoligise for it, Okay?" she asked him touching his shoulder lightly. he nodded at her, knowing not to push the subject any farther.
"So Mr.Quincy, what do you say about taking a break from the album tomarrow. I think we could both use the break after tonight" She asked. He looked at her with astonishment. She was willing to take a break. A break meant that this process lasted even longer. He wondered her intentions but let it go and answered with a slight nod. "Good, Let me lock up the place and then we can walk to the garage together, this place creeps me out at night" she said. He laughed a little at her suggestion. "I remember, yeah thats fine. Ill just wait outside for you." He said to her as he got his stuff together and started walking out of the building.
Jude got home and went into her house. It was empty, which is the way it usually was when Mikayla spent the night at her best friends house. Before she had called tommy to work on her album, she was always home in time to pick Mikayla up and they would both go to bed, but now with her and Tommy working late hours most of the time Mikayla was spending the night at kaylie's , not like her daughter minded. Not only did Mikayla love the fact that she got to spend as much time as possible with her best friend, she was extacic at the fact that her parents were working together. Jude looked around the house wishing that the silence wasnt so deffening. She looked for something on Tv, She looked around everywhere for something to do. She decided on just going upstairs and trying to sleep.
Tommy walked around his empty house looking for a quick fix for his insomnia, there was none. He couldnt sleep because all he could think of was Jude. The song that she sang and the pain in her eyes. He wanted to scream at himself. he did this , he walked out, back then he could of fixed it, the relationship then was unbearable but he could of fought and because he didnt, there was no chance of getting back what they once had, sure they had been getting along great in the past week, but that was only because they were hard at work, and there was no time for them to fight. He sighed as he sat down on his bed, looking around. "I just want to go home" he looked around again. "this is home you idiot" he said to himself. He thought about calling jude, but looked at the time, he had spend hours pacing around the house, she was sure to be asleep by now.
Jude looked at the clock for the millionth time. She kept thinking about tommy, He seemed so sincere earlier, apoligizing for leaving like he did. She had been thinking about it since she got home. It was the first time he admitted that he blamed himself for them being so out of touch with eachother. When in reality it wasnt his fault at all. It was both of them. They both stopped talking to eachother, He had left, but she didnt stop him, she didnt even attemp to. She sat raveling in her own memories. She picked up her phone, she had to talk to someone, anyone. She put the phone down realizing that nobody would even me close to being up at this time. If she called anyone, they would think she had lost her mind. So she stayed sitting there staring at her clock and waiting for morning. There was no way she was getting any sleep tonight. She stayed lying still until she couldnt take it anymore and at about 5am she got up and went to take a shower.
Tommy stared at his clock. 5:30am, Thankfully he didnt have to work that day, or jude and everyone else would know he hadnt slept all night. He got up and got into the shower, when he got out he sighed. This was going to suck. He looked at his phone and looked back at the clock. This was depressing. He didnt know what else to do. He had the day off, and there was nothing to do. He couldnt even remember how he had gotten through every day for 3 years without talking to jude. "oh yeah, because i avoided thinking of her" he spoke outloud to himself.
Jude got out of the shower and turned on the tv, looking for something to watch, of course there was nothing on worth watching. She sat alone in the silence. Afterall she had until Mikayla got out of school before she had anything to do. She picked up her phone and started dialing. Hoping for an answer.
Tommy was sitting in his living room trying to concentrate on anything but jude when his phone rang. and across it, it read Jude. He picked up cautiously. hello?" he said feeling some relief that she was obviously awake. "Hey, you up?" she asked silently. "I am now" he said lieing. "oh, sorry, Ill let you go then" she said. " no, Im awake, whats up?" he asked wondering why she was calling. "Im awake and bored"she said almost chuckling. " Ah, sounds like its a pattern" he said referring to the morning before, when she had woken him up. "Yeah, sorry about that, anyway, are you really tired" she spoke softly, but he could tell she was getting at something. "Tired, yes, sleepy? Nope, what did you have in mind?" He asked questionly. "well...If your up to it, i was thinking , we could hang out to pass the time, that is if you dont already have plans for your day off" she said waiting for a response. He thought of something to say, pondering a way not to sound to excited to pass the time. "Well, sounds good. Your place or mine" he asked misteviously. He heard her laugh on the other end. "Ill be there in a minute" she spoke to him.
After they hung up, Tommy looked around the house to see if there was anything he didnt want his wife to see. The downstairs was pretty empty, so he decided everything looked okay , so he turned on the tv and waited for her to show up. When he heard the doorbell he got up and answered it , letting her in. She looked amazing. Her hair was tassled lightly, and her outfit was astonishing. he looked her up and down hoping that she didnt notice. She walked in and smiled at him. "so this is it, your amazing house, that ive heard so much about." she looked at him smiling. "yeah, this is it." he said. She plopped down on his couch and looked around.
They sat for a while trying to find something to do. Until he saw judes eyes light up. "Tommy?" She asked in a sing songy voice. "what do you want?" he said looking at her. "What makes you think..." " You only say my name like that when you want something, so what is it?" he spoke back instantly. "Well, Mikayla said you have guitar Hero, wanna play?" she asked smiling widely. He made a mental note to talk to his daughter about her loud mouth, he was about to get his ass kicked by his wife, at guitar hero. He nodded and let her to the room where he had his games set up. She started giggling.
An hour later, as he expected he was sitting in the floor fake pouting as Jude was dancing around the room chanting. He waited until she was close enough to him and grabbed her legs out from under her and she started to fall. he caught her and started laughing. "TOMMY QUINCY!!!" she screamed at him. " what? Gloating annoys me, you know that." he said through his laughter. "still wasnt very nice to trip me like that" she whispered trying to catch her breath.
The rest of the afternoon, they played games and laughed. It was as if for one afternoon, there past was erased and there were stuck in a time where nothing had ever went wrong. They laughed and talked and did alot of nothing. Which for both of them was the perfect afternoon off. Mikayla had called when school got out and begged to go out with kaylie, and jude let her , telling her that she had to come home tonight. Mikayla reluctulantly agreed. Now Tommy and Jude were watching a movie and sitting on the couch.
Halfway through the movie, Jude and tommy fell asleep. They were both sprawled out on the couch. Jude's head leaned against Tommys shoulder and Tommys arm wrapped around her chest.
Song: angry all the time - tim mcgraw (modified to fit the story)
well there it is. Thats what i got for now. I hope you liked it. be sure to let me know what you think.
