Chapter 4:

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Jude woke up looking around her unfamiliar surroundings. She wasn't in her own bed, in fact she wasn't even in a bed. She didn't recal exactly where she was until she seen the man lieing next to her, or rather under her, seeing as how she was leaned up against him. She jumped up suddenly waking him up out of a dead sleep. "Jude, god, what's wrong?" he asked her lightly. "what? oh nothing, it's just, I was supposed to pick up our daughter, and I fell asleep and..."she continued rambling. "Calm down...I called her last night after you fell asleep, you looked so tired, i didn't want to wake you, so she stayed with kaylie, and i guess I fell asleep too." he said trying to calm his frantic wife down. It was funny how more and more he thought of her as his wife, She went from the love of his life, to his wife, to the mother of his child, to someone he bearly knew, back to his friend recently, and now everyday he wanted more and more to make their marriage, a marriage again.

Jude now was breathing lighter and calming down until she looked at the clock, and jumped up again. "Its Noon, Tommy, we have to work today"she said. "Calm down JQ, we can go to work, but first, come with me" he said. She followed him confussed. He lead her into a bedroom. "what are we doing in here" she asked him raising her eyebrow. " I thought you might need a change of clothes, so here, wear this today. He handed her an outfit. " what is this" she asked him wondering if it belonged to another woman. " I'll explain that later, just put it on" he told her trying to avoid telling her, that he had bought it for her about a year ago. One of the many things that was meant for their aniversary that he never gave her. She stared but finally decided that she should change. Going to work in obviously slept in clothes wasn't like her. She went to shower and change and came out when she was done ready to go.

When they finally arrived at the studio, they were getting looks from everywhere. Jude thought she would have gotten used to it by now. They all had been looking at her like she was crazy since she asked tommy to help her with her project. She tried to ignore them but sometimes it was too much to bear. She walked into the studio with tommy and turned on her song not wanting to waiste any time. She watched him listen intently to her song without making much emotion or giving her a clue as to whether she would have to re-record it.

Tommy listened to her song, thinking about it. It was a nice slow and steady song, talking about love and relationships, but it wasn't right. Not for this album, but as he looked up at her hopefull face, waiting for his reply he sighed. "You want me to record today?" she asked. "No actually, I want..." He stopped wondering if he should say anything. he was here to produce but he was sure to be on her bad side if he asked her to get rid of the song. "what, you want to what Tommy?" she asked silently. "well..I like the song, I do, but I don't think it should be on this album" he said winching getting ready for the screaming. "WHAT?!? You want me to just get rid of a song. After all the work I've put into this album. I asked you to help me mix my songs, not tell me if they are good enough" she screamed at him standing up and starting to back away from him. " Listen Jude, I like the song, It doesn't go in with the rest. It's not you. It sounds like you wrote it, in 10 minutes" he said not backing down.

Jude stared at him. How dare he. She had spent hours on that song. It was true that it didn't really fit her or her album, but she had spent alot of time coming up with it, and he had no right to tell her that it wasn't good enough. " You know what, Tommy Quincy if you dont like my song, you can walk out right now, You can either start mixing my song, or you can get the hell out!!" She screamed in his face and started to walk out. He grabbed her arm and whirled her around, she was now two inches from his face, he looked deeply into her eyes. She was breathing heavily from anger and passion at the same time. She stared at him for a second. He leaned in as close as he could without their lips touching and whispered gently. "okay, ill mix the damn song, but I dont have to like it." He breathed her in still having ahold of her. His hands traveling up her sides roughly. She leaned her head back enjoying the moment. "I knew when I bought that shirt, it would look perfect on you" he said in a low sexy whisper before pulling away and sitting down to start working on the song.

Jude stood still in the same spot that she had been when Tommy had pulled her so close. She would bearly breathe and she deffinetly couldn't move.

Hours later when the song was done, he let her listen to it and she smiled at him. She went to take a break and tommy stayed behind. Tommy stared into space, still raveling from being so close to jude. He couldn't help himself, when he went to stop her from leaving, he felt the heat from being so close to her and couldn't stop himself from taking advantage of a moment. He sat still and started to play her next song.

Hey, Mr DJ, can I make a request?
Somebody I love just up and left.
An' if I know him, he'll drive all night alone,
An' he just might have his radio on.
Yeah, I pray he has his radio on.

Just in case he ain't that far from home,
Play somethin' that'll turn his car around.
An' send it out from a wife isn't ready to give up.
Hey, he just might have her radio on.
Yeah, I pray he has his radio on

Play somethin' that'll get him thinkin' 'bout me.
Let him know I really love him.
Somethin' that reaches out in the dark:
Weighs on his mind; tugs at his heart.

Well, I know you get this all the time:
Broken hearts lightin' up all the lines,
Beggin' you to play that special song,
Hey, but he just might have his radio on.
Yeah, I pray he has his radio on.

So play him somethin' that'll get him thinkin' 'bout us.
Let him know I'm really sorry.
Somethin' that reaches out in the dark:
Weighs on his mind an' tugs at his heart.

I need to make a dedication,
Before the chance has faded;
Before he drives away too far,
An' parks that damned old car.

Play him somethin' that'll get him thinkin' 'bout me.
Let him know I'm really sorry.
Somethin' that reaches out in the dark:
Weighs on his mind an' tugs at his heart.
Tears up his eyes; turns round the car.

Hey Mr DJ can I make a request?
Somebody I love just up and left.

Tommy sat in the silence not moving. The song he just heard broke his heart. He knew just what to do with it. He started mixing it and added a small country twang to the rock sound. He smiled as he continued working. He was so busy he didn't notice the figure standing behind him. "I thought you were done with the song" She said to him. "Oh I'm done with that one, I'm working on the next one actuallly. I was just going to listen to it, but after I heard it, i knew you didn't need to resing it, so I started working on it." he spoke excitedly. "oh..okay, well if it's okay, im going to head home to spend some time with Mikayla, I haven't been home alot, so unless you need anything else" she asked quietly. "Nope" he said looking at her. She placed the keys on the soundboard. "Here, Lock up, just drop the keys off at the house later, if im not awake, Ill come get them in the morning" She said staring at him before walking out the door.

Jude breathed as she walked out of the door. She couldn't be around him right now. After everything that had happened today she just couldn't be around him without making a fool out of herself. She picked up her daughter and Kaylie and brought them to the house. " Alright girls, What do you want for dinner" jude asked them as they walked in the door. "Don't care, mom" mikayla called as she walked up the stairs.

Tommy was sitting alone in the studio mixing judes song, and listening to peices of it over and over again. He was thinking back to when he walked out the door 3 years ago. He had packed his bags and walked slowly to his car, hoping and praying that Jude would yell after him not to go. That she would scream and yell at him. That she would stand in front of his car and refuse to let him give up. Instead she had just stood at the door watching him drive off , not saying a word. He had turned his car around 10 times that night going back and forth, almost going back home every time until he finally drove to his new house, deciding that it was best if he left. Now listening to the song where she was begging him to stay, or begging for something to make him stay, he felt like his world was crashing down around him all over again. He screamed and threw some loose papers across the room regretting ever leaving her. He glanced over at the papers and sighed and decided to pick them up. He laughed at the scribbling of jude's handwritting. Then something caught his eye on the paper, something he never expected.

Jude starting walking up the stairs to tell the girls that dinner was on the table, but stopped as she heard her daughter and her friend talking. " So your saying, that after all of this time, Your parents are back together" Kaylie said. "They aren't admitting it, but last night she spent the night at his house, she never goes in that house, before a couple of weeks ago, she would bearly look at him" Mikayla was gushing. Jude sighed, her daughter was getting her hopes up about her and tommy. Mikayla walked in and looked at her daughter who looked up and stopped speaking. "Dinners downstairs, Kaylie can I talk to my daughter" she spoke to the girl. Kaylie nodded and rushed down the stairs., "Mikayla, Honey. Me and your dad, we aren't getting back together" Jude said trying to make her daughter understand. Mikayla's face fell a little but didn't say a word. She just looked at her mother and sadly nodded, knowing better than to argue with her mother.

Mikayla stared at her mother across the table. She didn't believe her mother that there was no chance of her parents getting back together. They were talking, which was major progress as far as mikayla was concerned and that gave her hope. She didn't care how sure her parents were that they would never be together again. She herself knew better.

Tommy stared at the piece of paper that had a list of of songs on it. At first it had just looked like the list for the songs he had been listening to and mixing until he got down to song 5. It was crossed out and re-written over and over again. He looked at the crossed out song. Thats when I love you... He gasped. Thats why the song sounded so unlike jude, she had been trying to replace the song she wanted to put on the album. The perfect song. their song. The song that he sang every year in his room, the song that she had sang to him walking down the Aisle. The song that she had written after he proposed to her. The song that meant everything to him. He had figured it out, she got so defensive when he had insulted her song because she knew he was right. The song that was now in place of the single most perfect song, was just that. A replacement.

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The next morning Jude pulled her car into Tommy's driveway to pick up the keys to Gmajor and when she finally made it to the door she breathed before ringing the bell. When he came to the door, he was standing in front of her with a towel wrapped around his waiste and he was smiling at her. She stood looking at him breathlessly. "Hey, come on in, I'll be right back. He went into the back and slipped on some boxer shorts and walked back into the living room. She looked up at him. Of course he wouldn't have the decency to put on some clothes. She sighed. "Um, I just stopped by to pick up the keys. "right.. Hold on, he grabbed the keys off of the table and walked over to her. She started to get up and walk out the door before he stopped her. He lightly touched her shoulder, instanly feeling the chills cascading down her spine, she breathed heavily and turned towards him. "One more thing, I'd like you to explain this" he said showing her the peice of paper that he had found the night before.

Jude looked down at the piece of paper placed into her hand. Her eyes widened as she seen what he had circled. The song, the song that she had fought with herself about for months, decided on whether or not to record it. She looked up at him, shying away instantly. She turned her head. "It's nothing." She said as she started towards the door. He placed his body in her way, staring down at her. "Don't say that, please don't ever say that song is nothing." he said bowing his head down. She looked at him, he looked so sad. He looked broken.

"What do you want me to say tommy? I almost sang that song okay, but i changed my mind." She spoke once again trying to leave but he was standing in front of her. He lifted his hands to her face. "why? That song, It's the most beautiful song you've ever written, why wouldn't you want to share it with the world" he spoke softly caressing her cheak. He brought his hands down to her waiste and pulled her into him. "Listen, yesterday when I heard that song, I knew that something wasn't right and last night it all became clear when I seen this. That song was a replacement for this song." he spoke inching closer to her.

Jude started to back away. "Tommy, I can't sing that song. I just cant. That song was about when we were, us. I wrote that song for you. I wrote that song to tell you how much I loved you." She spoke softly putting her head down and backing herself up against the wall. "So what's so different about that, The rest of your songs are to me aren't they?" he asked with the deepest sincerety. Her eyes darted around the room looking for a quick escape. "I can't sing that song, I wont." she said still looking for an escape.

He was finally far enough away from the door that she could escape if she wanted to. She started towards the door, thinking of her excuse for dashing out the door. Before he could stop her she was gone.

He threw his hands up and collapsed against the floor. His anger and pain washed over him. He thought for a moment before going to get dressed and heading to the studio. When he finally arived he didn't know what to do. When he had seen that song on the list last night, it brought back his hope, his hope for his marriage, it all came back. Then today he had shot down his hopes. She said it was nothing. He kept replaying the conversation out in his head, trying to find a glimmer of hope. He had had enough. He walked into the studio where she was sitting. "Play me the next song jude" he said to her without trying to bring up the song that meant more than anything in the world to him. She nodded not even speaking and set up the next song.

Oooh... Oooh... Ohhh..
No matter what you say about love,
I keep coming back for more,
My head in the fire,
sooner or later I get what i'm asking for
No matter what you say about life,
I learn every time I bleed.
The truth is a stranger
My soul is in danger,
I gotta let my spirit be free to,
Admit that I was wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.

Tommy listened for a minute, and stopped the music. "Re-do it" he said with bearly any emotion. Jude nodded and walked into the studio.

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo,
Just like a tatto, I'll always have you.

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking ties.
When I look in the mirror,
Didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind.
Sorry but I gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one.
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo, I'll always have you.

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you.
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do.

I can't waste time so give me the moment
I realize nothing's broken
No need to worry about everything I've done
Lived every second like it was my last one
Don't look back got a new direction
Loved you once, needed protection.
You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart just like a tattoo.
Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you.

Jude could feel the tears welling up in her eyes. Tommy wasn't even looking at her. He was busy mixing her song already. He wouldn't even look up. She fell to her knees and started crying uncontrollably. Suddenly she felt someone pick her up. She looked up and there was tommy. "shh, baby, its okay" he was trying to soothe her. She started whispering, "why dont you care" she kept saying it over and over again.

Tommy rocked her and kissed her temple. " Is that what you think?"he asked her looking down at her. He carried her into the room and sat down on the couch. "well you don't, If you did, you wouldn't have left" she said through her crying. She instantly stopped as she felt him stiffen. She couldn't believe she had said that. He looked at her. "Jude, I didn't leave because I don't care, I don't want you to ever think that." he said as he felt his own tears starting to form in his own eyes. He couldn't take it anymore. The pain in her eyes, the pain he was feeling. He looked down her and picked her up and stood up. "It's time for that talk Jude." he said looking at her. She looked at him and started to shake. "No, not yet, i can't" she said starting to cry again. " I was going to wait until the album was over, but i can't wait anymore. Come on we're going to talk" She heard him speak and didn't argue she just let him carry her out of the studio and into his car. She cried the entire way to his house and finally felt him carry her into the house and up the stairs. Finally he layed her on the bed.

Tommy breathed, this was the hardest thing he knew he would ever have to say to her. He breathed and started to speak.

"I remember the first time I met you, I never would of thought that we would of fallen in love, and gotten married, but we did, and we have a beautiful daughter to prove it. I still remember the moment I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. You were standing outside your house and you were laughing at me for something that I had done, and then you looked at me and just kissed me with all of the passion that I knew you had in you." he paused breathing. "Do you really have to drag this out, I know what you're going to say, and I just want you to say it. You know what you dont have to I'll do it for you. If it's what you want, if you file, I'll sign the papers" she spoke catching him offguard. " what? You think im asking you for a divorce?" he asked looking at her hesitantly. "well, yeah. You've been trying for a while to ask, but i didn't..." he heard her trail off.

"Listen to me, the last thing I want is a divorce Jude, I brought you here to tell you, that Im sorry" he spoke softly. She stared at him in shock. He didn't want a divorce. "When we were fighting, I should of benable to fix us but I couldn't and the silence was my fault too. I wanted to give us a break. One day without fighting, so silence was the only answer I could come up with. One day turned into over a year and then when I left, I was looking for a fight. I thought you'd yell at me, and we could yell at eachother and we'd fight for us, but it didn't work out like that." he spoke, for the first time in three years telling her what was going on when he left.

" You wanted me to fight" she whispered. "but i didnt, I just let you go, and you walked away and now we're a mess Tommy. If you dont want a divorce from me, then what do you want" she asked. "I want you to sing that song." he said bringing up the song that meant the world to him. "I can't" she spoke the tears falling freely down her face. "Will you if I sing it with you?" he asked her looking deeply into her eyes. She stood staring at him. He walked into his closet and brought out his keyboard. "Do you remember this?" he asked. "yes" she said lightly. "I only bring this out once a year. Our anniversery. Do you know why?" he asked. "why?" "To sing that song, so when I say I want you to sing that, I know I want to sing it with you. That song means everything to me" he said to her.

"There's something Else" he spoke to her grabbing a box out of his top shelf. "This is for you" he spoke lightly. "In this box contains a letter I've written every year since we've been married. The first 6 or 7 you have at home. But the last 5, You haven't even read yet. I want you to have them." he said to her. She looked down up at him and down at the box he had placed in her hands. She started reading them one by one as he left the room to leave her alone.

Tommy sat downstairs wondering what she would say, what she would do. This night had been so emotional. He looked up as she started walking down the stairs. She backed him against the wall and looked at him. "Tommy..." she started to speak.

Okay so there it is.

The songs were : Just might have her radio on - trent tomilson

Tattoo - Jordan Sparks

I know this chapter is quite a bit longer than the other ones, but I just couldn't stop. When I get in that writing mode I just keep going. Well thats it for this one. Tell me what you think. I try to update as soon as I can, and this chapter took me awhile to write. I hope you like it. Please reply, let me know what you think.

Note: Alot changed as I wrote. Originally I was going to wait until the album was done for him to tell her, but i changed my mind. So let me know if it worked out like i hope it did.