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"Why couldn't I have fallen in love with you? At least I would've known I had no chance. "
"This Sesshomaru has grown rather... sympathetic for human emotions. So he would prefer that you miko Kagome fall in love with this one instead. I cannot promise you that your feelings will be returned. But this Sesshomaru wouldn't hurt you - not on purpose. "
She turned away from him and looked upward toward the top of the trees. "I don't understand why. I love them with all my heart, but tonight with you - even though I cried most of the time and you were just there listening - I felt so good, so happy. I know it is so selfish of me. But I can't help it." She sighed and turned back towards him.
"You could just leave if you wanted." Sesshomaru stated. He did like the idea of spending time alone with her. She wasn't exactly unpleasant to be around.
She laughed a bit. "As much as I'd like to. I know my obligations to the cause are more important than my own personal feelings. " She brushed off her skirt. "So I must go back." She walked over to him and put her arm in his. "Let's go, Lord Sesshomaru. "
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Chapter Two
The day passed quietly. Without the hayno the group was rather silent, it proved how the group truly was without the hayno to bicker with Kagome about any and everything while traveling on their journey. It wasn't unpleasant, it was more of a calm silence that settled after a warm conversation. It was peace, it was perfect.
The air was clear, flowing throughout with a wind that pushed aside hair and rustled clothing. The sky was blue and tinted with a very pale yet bright yellow from the warm rays of the risen sun. There were few clouds lingering within the sky, allowing the rays of golden light to cascade across pale and tanned flesh. The forestry around them was still, except the occasional scurrying of little animals looking for their next meals, no demons to fight, and no shards within miles - a rarity. Perfect.
They all decided after their breakfast earlier that they would continue on ahead after waiting until the sun was well above their heads for the hayno to return. It hurt Kagome to see that he had yet to come back - that he could just leave without so much of a thought about her, or his pack.
She knew that he was deeply in love with Kikyo but she had no idea, or fathomed the slightest thought that he would abandon them - his makeshift family - just for her. A twang of jealousy grew in Kagome's tattered heart, she was the one who was always there for him, and yet she still wasn't good enough. Kikyo was his number one, even after the events that told him that she was not to be trusted. He loved her without recuperation or even the slightest thought towards anyone or anything else.
Kagome wanted that kind of love from him, she needed that kind of love from him. She was always questioned when she did something slightly orthodox, or if she tried out any other type of clothing than her green sailor style uniform. He never complimented her, or held stars in his eyes as he looked at her the way he did with Kikyo. The best she would ever get from him was 'the ramen tasted okay' after lunch.
Kagome looked at the grass as she walked, watched it sway with the breeze. She knew her love was going to remain unrequited, she knew that she would never be more than an obligation to Inuyasha. She knew it all, and yet she still loved him. She still let him possess her mind, and her heart.
'this Sesshomaru wouldn't hurt you - not on purpose.'
She sighed as the memory of the previous night flashed across her mind. Sesshomaru, the man - youkai - who she once hated and thought was the bad guy. But, she was wrong, as she beginning to realize after the big disappointment that Inuyasha caused. He was a good guy, he tried to comfort her when all she wanted to do was crawl within herself and remain there for all eternity. He was so sweet to her - in his own way - and he offered her something that Inuyasha did not. A painless love.
Sure it was obviously going to be an unrequited love. Though he tolerated humans as of late, she doubted he would actually date one. But he was the safer bet, he was the better option. She knew that, she told herself so many times. But, she didn't know if she could do it all again.
'What if. . . I actually. . . fell in love with him?'
She stopped in her tracks as the thought crossed her mind. Hearing only the breeze that rustled the leaves on the trees, her mind went silent momentarily, processing the newly surfaced concern. She knew the point of turning her affections toward him was so her pain of her one-sided love with Inuyasha could be easied. But 'what if I fell deeply in love with him?' He didn't have any feelings - romantically - toward humans. He would want a youkai to spend his life with, not a weak human like her. She would be left alone. If it all ended up being a disaster for her already tattered heart, she could always hope for love back in her time.
She gulped at the thought, it was an involuntary reaction. Her time, she'd nearly forgotten. Once it was all over, she would go back and she would have to stay. Her use would be over, her journey would end. She paled, it was a thought she repressed for her happiness' sake, for he friends happiness' sake, for the sake of the world that would soon become in five hundred years. She never wanted to leave her friends behind, knowing that she would never see any of them again. Not even Sesshomaru. After the jewel was complete and Naraku defeated, she would be alone. She would then truly be heartbroken. Forced to spend the rest of her life wishing for the days that she held so dear to return once again, alone.
"Kagome."
She blinked and looked up, her eyes stung from the sudden rays of sun that breeched them. She squinted and saw the long silver hair that shone almost like white silk in the sun. He looked upon her with a stoic face, his usual face. The rest of the group stood with faces laced with confusion and worry.
"Hm?" She lefted a brow, confusion slowly creeping upon her delicate features of her face. She didn't know why he was calling her name. She didn't even know when they'd stopped.
Sesshomaru looked down at the young girl he towered over. He knew by the look of her she was lost in her thoughts, and her thoughts were beginning to take a turn that caused emotions upon her face that were foreign, and didn't belong there. He didn't know why it bothered him so much, he wasn't entirely certain he wanted to know. He approached her without so much of a thought. He knew he couldn't comfort her, not there. His pride wouldn't allow it. So instead he said her name.
"What ails you?" He asked, slightly raising a perfectly arched silver brow.
She smiled at his thoughtfulness, he was worried about her it seemed. She shook her head, "Nothing lord Sesshomaru." She lied, for their sake. They didn't need to know the truth.
"Hn." He knew she admitted a false truth, it was written in her eyes. They faded to a less brilliant blue when she lied. He spent many days trying to read her without her notice, from the moment he joined the pack. It was a tactic that he gained over his years of self training, and preservation. "Then let us continue on. There is a spring a few hours north. We will rest there." He turned and started walking. He wanted to know what was on her mind. He wanted to know what caused those nameless emotions to creep across her face and marr the happy smiles that usually remained there.
Kagome nodded at his back, somehow his words cured her of her negative thoughts, she began to walk, the sound of her shoes crushing the grass resounded in her ears. Her mind remained blank, as she interacted with the other pack members. Laughing with them, smiling with them. Was this happiness? An empty mind and joyful surroundings?
Was this what it was like to let go?
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The night encased them once again. The lack wind left the air quiet, and warm. Kagome sat next to the hot spring with her towel wrapped tightly around her, she looked up at the moon and stared at it. The light bled across her lightly tanned skin shining like a white ethereal glow that reflected into her bright blue eyes making them shine.
She reached up to caress her face, the shadow of her hand blocking the light from her scarless heart shaped face. She ran her finger down to her lips, silently tracing them. She wondered what it was like to be kissed by a man.
'Will I ever know?' She thought defeatedly as she dropped her hand to her shoulder, sighing as she looked toward the ground. She knew that she would one day find love, she was only sixteen. But she didn't want to wait, she wanted to feel the love that she longed for, that her body and soul ached for. She needed it, she knew she would self destruct if no one wanted her. She bit her lip before letting out a sigh and looking at them steaming hot spring that she had yet to divulge in.
But then the grass rustled near the way she entered the spring. She quickly turned her head in that direction, having her reiki ready for an attack.
Her defense lowered, with a sigh when she saw his silver hair shine in the moonlight. 'It's just sesshomaru' she thought. His eyes that were cold but hot like molten gold, met her relieved azure ones. She smiled at him slightly, and patted the area beside her, forgetting about her current state of dress, as he walked over and sat with one knee bent, his eyes giving her his full attention.
"Why do you sit during the night, in that manner of dress?" Sesshomaru asked with the slight arch of his brow. The cloth she wore hid some of her womanly parts, but it clung to them and made one want to take a peak. But he being the strong Inuyoukai that he was, he could resist such urges such as the curiosity that came with looking upon the young Miko's female anatomy. That did not mean others wouldn't have taken advantage of her loneliness. If it weren't for his arrival things could have turned sour.
Kagome looked down at her towel covered body, and gasped as she blushed and looked away, her hands and arms trying with no avail to hide her body. "I forgot that I was in my towel, I was about to bathe, before I got. . .distracted." She giggled nervously, one of her hands clutching the towel closer to her body and the other touched her face, it was hot - she was probably blushing as red as a tomato.
"Hn." He nodded, but made no move to leave. She wondered why he hadn't left yet until he spoke, "Is this distraction similar to the previous one?"
She sighed, and looked at him, shaking her head "No. It's not the same thoughts really. Well, kind of, but not exactly." She smiled nervously.
"Hn. And what are these 'thoughts' of yours pertaining?" He blinked, not showing how curious he truly was.
"Well, they were about what you said. And other things." She twirled her hair between her fingers nervously.
'So she has been considering my proposition.' "What are these other things? You have no need to hide, you have shared with me so openly previously." He internally sighed, she was frustrating at times.
She sighed, he was right. She could be open with him, it was easier than hiding. "I was thinking of. . .after. After all of this is over, I will have to return to my home. My adventure will be over. And my love will remain unrequited. Forever." She sighed and looked at the steam that arose from the spring. "I have never been kissed," she whispered softly, as if it were a forbidden secret. "I can't help but wonder if I will ever be kissed. If i will ever be loved as a woman, not just as a friend or motherly figure." she slowly looked over at him, taking in his glowing hair, and how his eyes watched her so intently.
Sesshomaru blinked as he processed her concerns. "Would you like this Sesshomaru to 'kiss' you?" it was a simple task that the simplest of creatures could grant her. If this was the source of her nameless emotions, then he would abolish it now.
Kagome's eyes widened in shock, before blinking them several times and pinching one of her revealed lower arms. He offered to kiss her. Lord Sesshomaru offer to kiss her. She wasn't certain she heard correctly, maybe her mind was playing with his words and twisting them into a fantasy as he spoke. Yes, that had to be it. Because Lord Sesshomaru, the strong, fearsome, human hating, Inuyoukai would never touch a human female let alone kiss one.
"Wha'?" She turned to face him, her knees rustling the grass as she kneeled, her face flushed with surprise. Her bright blue eyes bore into his molten ones.
He sighed mentally, he grew tired of having to explain himself so often. The girl was intriguing but thick skulled. It was not so surprising that he would kiss a human, after he revealed previously that he had now gained tolerance toward the human species. A kiss was of no significant stature to him, it was a mere touch of the lips that he had partaken on few occasions. "By the look upon your face, you understood this one completely, it is a simple yes or no that is required."
She gulped and clutched her towel tighter in her palms that began to sweat in her sudden nervousness. "But, why? Why would you offer to kiss me? A human. A Miko."
Sesshomaru couldn't refrain from rolling his eyes. "I offer, because you wish for something that I can give. As for your species and divinity, I have previously stated that I have gained a tolerance towards such things. You understood that as well. I also find you intriguing, yet you also seem to be mildly annoying." He mentally scoffed. She was incredibly thick skulled.
She narrowed her eyes, 'Annoying, ay?' She thought as she gritted her teeth. She sighed, and let her slight anger flow out, here he was being kind - in his own way - and she picked out the only negative that he'd said. She blinked once more, but slowly before looking at him.
"I would like you to kiss me, Sesshomaru."
The breeze suddenly started then, tossing raven locks into the air to gleam in the moonlight. Her blue eyes shone brightly. If he were anyone else, he would have ravished her right then, and tainted her ethereal glow. But being the person he was, he just simply recorded the scene in his mind, finding it odd that he found her breathtakingly beautiful at that moment.
Sesshomaru reached forward his hand caressed her cheek, silently petting it for a moment, taking in the softness of her skin that was just below the milk color tint. He looked into her eyes as he leaned closer, his hand sliding from her cheek to allow on finger to slightly tilt her chin and bring her closer. He watched as her eyes lowered slowly, as he came closer to her face, he lowered his as well giving into the moment slowly.
She felt his lips hovering over hers, felt his breath brushing her lips, it was warm as it ghosted over the slight pout of her lips.
Then their lips touched, ever so slowly, ever so soft. They remained still for a few seconds, before he moved his lips against hers, she instinctively leaned closer to him, one hand still clutching her towel, the other in a tightly curled fist pressed against the grass between them. She moved her lips with his finally gaining rhythm.
They lost themselves inside of the kiss, no sensation besides their lips moving were felt, their surroundings remained forgotten, their differences became nonexistent. The only thing that mattered was the sweet pressure of the molding lips, the feeling of fangs and dull canines biting down of lips, the sucking of lower and upper ones, the swipe of a tongue that begged for entrance, and the dance of the slick muscles wishing to gain dominance before one won.
The pure passion and longing was shared in a simple locking of lips.
They parted slowly, neither wish to lose such pleasure. As soon as they untangled from each other, they stared into the other's eyes. Looking for - something, anything that gave them a clue of what just happened. How a simple kiss could feel so. . .wonderful.
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A/N: It was really hard to figure out where I wanted to take this. So forgive my absence. I honestly need to start planning these stories out. xD
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