Dream
A Microfic by Sarehptar
Theme Song: Silent Shout (The Knife)
Warnings: Implied Shounen-ai

You stand by and enlighten me

He chuckles without realizing he has made the noise, and waves an exasperated hand carelessly. The mouth in his palm opens and closes almost in time with his real lips, and he tells the story without noticing.

"And this is the best, un! I was going to get married—not even to a ninja." He smirks at the absurdity of it. "I was going to marry a civilian. A real pretty chick, un. An actress, or a model or something you know?" Sasori nods, a disinterested gesture that runs his autumn hair across their pillows and tangles it into impossible knots.

"And we were gonna have two kids, really cute kids, un. Two little blonde girls. And I was going to send one to the ninja academy, because every parent does that, right? But the other one, I thought maybe we could send her to a traditional school. I always wanted a poet in my family, un!" Deidara watches his partner's half-lidded eyes open and close slowly.

"And I wanted to be on the Hunter-nin force, un." He is outright laughing now, as if the thoughts are new to him and not the same story he'd been telling himself since academy. "You know, the whole 'mysterious hero coming home to a happy family' thing?" He stares at the ceiling and ignores Sasori pulling at the ends of his hair. The smaller man always pulls too hard, because he can't feel that sort of pain himself.

"Yeah." He sighs a strange mix of content and regret. "I was going to have a Happily Ever After and everything." As if it is infectious, Sasori chuckles, and Deidara holds back a shiver as cold air of the false-breath dances across his bare collar bone.

"What happened?" There is mockery and veiled curiosity in the Scorpion's question. In the darkness it is hard to tell, but the blond believes that Sasori is staring at him sharply now, a little bit bitter and a little bit welcoming. Deidara untangles the smaller man's fingers from his long hair with practiced ease.

"First there was art," he smiles wanly into the blackness, knowing that Sasori is smiling too, "and then there was you."

A cracked smile and a silent shout

Author's Notes: I don't know what to say about this one. I just wanted to write it, a lot. I wanted to write something kinda cute and fluffy, but I ended up messing it up again. Like everything I write it turned out sorta two-faced. I mean, YAY! Sasori/Deidara-ness... Which I'll apologize now for, for those of you who don't like that pairing. But under that, it came out angsty again. I just can't write Deidara happy. Maybe I can write something with Tobi in it! Cheap entertainment? (Sigh) Well, I'm sorry that I made you all wait so long and then this is what you get. Please don't judge it too harshly, I've been shockingly busy lately.

Review Responses:
To Citca: Wahh, I didn't even think about that being possible, that woman being the little girl's mother... So I guess she wasn't? But she couldn't. I wanted her to sorta be anonymous, like she could be any person he's even killed. Just another victim, ne? I hope I didn't totally ruin this story for you with this stupid addition. Thanks for reviewing!
To Naitachal666: It's so awesome to hear that readers connect with the stories I write, and I thought your poem was great. Do you write a lot? My poetry is awful. v.v Anyway, thanks so much for reviewing!
To Ione-girl: I just love it when I get reviews like yours. You always tell me exactly how you understand it, and that makes me so happy--because I know that you guys who read it are getting the same ideas and it's like wow! I know that doesn't make any sense, but yeah... I would like to read your story, even though I'm pretty much a devoted Sasori/Deidara fangirl. Expect a review from me soon, mmmkay? And thank you for reviewing my story!
To Smallpox Plum: Gah, I just love it everytime I hear from you! I agree with what you said about "Exhale". I have a habit of throwing so much detail in there that it becomes hard to see the whole scene. It's something I definitely need to work on. But I'm glad that my really extreme assumptions about the morning were on, I hate waking up before everyone! I always get the feeling I'm the last person that will ever wake up, or that I've woken up to a graveyard. I'm also glad that you like the last one, I like it too, in retrospect. I think Sei!Deidara and I are a lot alike. I want desperately to believe that we're all a part of something bigger, but I keep slamming myself back down by remembering that our lives aren't even eyeblinks in the course of the world. We're utterly insignificant, and I think that Deidara would feel that way too. (Sorry if I'm being super depressing...) I'm sorry to keep you waiting just for this silly little thing, but thank you very much for reviewing!
To Ms. Yamanaka Ino: Thank you very much for reviewing. Who is the woman he saw? Ha ha, I really don't know either. Just another victim. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this chapter just a little bit... But then, maybe not. I'm sorry?
To tidAL rabbiT: Yeah, who cares about English? Boring language! (kicks it) No, I'm just kidding. I think there's really a time and place for following rules, and just like Deidara, I want to break them sometimes. Anyway, thank you very much for reviewing, and I hope this stupid chapter didn't make you hate me! T.T