Hello dear readers. Do I really have to say that I do not own the characters, nor the show? I mean we all know that, right?

So well whatever this story takes places a few years after the second season, but in my version, Alex and Marissa never broke up and their relationship has only grown stronger since then. So yea, read and judge.

- Summer and Jody? I don't know... I'm such a big fan of Summer and Seth... well I guess we'll see.

- Thanks for the reviews. !

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Chapter 8 - Confessions

Marissa slowly got closer, until she could hear Alex's heartbeat. They both remained silent, waiting for the other one to talk first. Alex put her hands on her jeep's door so they would stop shaking and looked straight in Marissa's questioning eyes, however, words wouldn't come out of her mouth. She felt a pressure on her leg and realised Marissa was pushing her body against hers and, without any notice, the brunette started kissing her. It started with a soft kiss, then it became more rough : she was practically attacking her lips with hunger. Confused, Alex let the brunette walk her hands all over her body, bringing her closer, touching every inch of her body...

- I, she said before kissing Alex again, was so... another kiss, worried... about you. Marissa let go of Alex's lips so she could face her girlfriend. Alex could clearly see tears in Marissa's green eyes.

- No phone call, no nothing, Marissa said again as she was running her fingers in the blonde's hair. And considering the way we ended things on friday...

- I know, Alex cut Marissa, I'm really sorry about that...

- And I ran into Jody today, Marissa added. Alex's face dropped.

- Jody? Where, here? She asked, trying not to sound so worried.

- Yea, at the club.

- What did she want? I mean... did she tell you anything? Alex was trying to control her voice rate. And her panic.

- Said she needed to see you, Marissa replied, not realising Alex's suspicious behaviour.

- Oh

- She told me that it was between you and her, the brunette added with a trusting smile. Alex felt a raindrop on her hand. Apparently, so did Marissa.

- Come on, she said, taking Alex's hand, let's get inside. The blonde let her girlfriend drag her inside their apartment, and in their bedroom.

- Did it sound important? Alex asked.

- Well, Marissa replied as she pinned Alex to the wall, she told me it could wait until tomorrow morning, and that you needed your girl tonight. She captured Alex's lips and, this time, Alex didn't fight, she didn't try to understand, she simply enjoyed the kiss. She put her own hands on Marissa's hips and brought her closer as she kissed her back. The kiss became more and more passionate. You got to tell her, Alex thought, you don't deserve this... Tears started falling from Alex's shut eyes as she kept kissing the one person that mattered the most to her, the same person she will soon have to hurt... because it was the right thing to do.

- Al what's wrong? Marissa asked. She didn't need to see the tears to feel them. That's how close they were. Alex tried to speak, but words wouldn't come out. Marissa started rubbing her waist, trying to make her feel more comfortable. But feeling Marissa's touch was hurting Alex more than anything else. She was cold, and feeling guilty, and shivering, and couldn't speak, and the tears wouldn't stop...

- Sweetie you're shaking, Marissa noticed. Shaking wasn't really the word. Alex's body was having huge convulsions. Marissa forced her to lay on the bed, and climbed on top of her, trying to appease her girlfriend's spasms with her body's weight.

- Shshh, she said, kissing away the tears. Stop crying, I'm here. Everything is going to be allright... She felt Alex's body calm down, and the tears stopped falling. Marissa smiled at Alex.

- So, you want to tell me what's going on? She asked. As Alex tried to speak, her body started to shake again. Marissa massed her shoulders, dropping kisses in her neck until the convulsions stopped again.

- I'm sorry, she whispered. You don't have to tell me, it's okay...

- I want to, Alex finally managed to say. She got up, forcing Marissa to get up as well. Alex pushed Marissa's hand and quit the bed.

- Marissa, she said, this is serious. As she got away from Marissa's touch, she re-gained control of herself.

- I noticed, Marissa replied as she sat back on the bed. Honey what's wrong?

- You remember Dean Ashmore?

- The attractive person over who we got into a fight last week? Marissa asked as she got up.

- ... yes, him, Alex said.

- What about him? Alex, don't tell me you saw him again... Marissa started.

- He's the owner of the school where I go, Alex replied, it's kind of obvious that I ran into him...

- Well I'm guessing you haven't just run into him. Alex avoided eye contact.

- Marissa... she said, this is really hard for me, could you please let me say it without any interruption? Marissa sighted loudly, but didn't reply.

- This week-end, Alex said, he invited me to eat sushi.

- You hate sushi, Marissa pointed out.

- Thanks for not interrupting. Marissa crossed her arms, waiting for Alex to continue.

- I figured it would be a great opportunity for me to thank him for everything's he's done for me... and to tell him that I did not want to attend to that school anymore.

- But Alex, Marissa started, why would you tell him that? This institution really helped your club...

- It's taking too much of my time, Alex replied, looking straight at Marissa. Time I would rather spend with you... She tried to get closer but Marissa backed off.

- I'm guessing that's not it, Marissa said, because you wouldn't be shaking like that if nothing else would have happened...

- No, Alex replied, you're right. She backed off as well.

- ... are you planning on telling me...

- We had a misunderstanding, Dean and I.

- Misunderstanding? Marissa asked. "I want to spend more time with my girlfriend" Sounds pretty clear to me.

- Well, Alex said, staring at Marissa's shoes, that's not exactly what I told him...

- What exactly have you told him? Alex remained silent.

- ... Does he know about me? At all? Alex looked up.

- Of course, she said. He knows you as... my co-manager.

- So you haven't told him a thing? Marissa screamed.

- I thought you already did! That time you saw him, I thought you told him everything so I assumed he knew and therefore, didn't tell him.

- Nice try, Marissa coldly said.

- You think?

- No actually it sucks. So what happened next?

- I told him I did not need his help anymore, and that he could use his abilities for something else... Alex was looking anywhere but at Marissa, and the brunette noticed it.

- And then? She asked, her arms still crossed.

- ... I.. we... Alex couldn't speak.

- ... You kissed, Marissa said as a statement. Alex felt the broken tone in Marissa's voice and immediately looked up.

- He kissed me, she said. Marissa sighted loudly and pushed Alex out of her way.

- Right because that changes everything.

- Yes, it does! Alex replied as she got in the doorway.

- Get out of my way, Marissa said.

- No.

- Alex, he wouldn't have kissed you if he knew we were together.

- Who knows? I'm hard to resist...

- You really think it's a good timing for jokes? Marissa replied as she turned around and started to pack a bag.

- Listen I'm sorry. I didn't want this to happen, I pushed him right away, I swear.

- That's your version of the facts.

- What is that suppose to mean? Alex asked.

- You want to know what I think? Marissa screamed, leaving her bag and looking straight at Alex.

- You got all my attention, Alex crossed her arms.

- I think... you... wanted him to kiss you.

- WHAT Marissa...

- Do NOT interrupt me... All these times you were going to L.A, I bet you had a couples of cup of coffee with him as well, ain't I right? And you showing up at his apartment, and him showing up at your club... No wonder you were so distant all the time!

- Marissa what are you trying to say... Alex started.

- All this time... you were cheating on me. Alex's face dropped.

- ... How can you say that.

- The evidences are against you. Oh and what is that guilty expression I see on your face?

- It's not guilt, Alex replied, it's disappointment. Because I cannot believe I'm hearing this.

- Oh please, stop your act.

- So you really think I was cheating on you all that time? You really think I'm that lame? Alex asked in a really low, broken voice.

- No, Marissa replied, shaking her head. You're not the lame one, I am. You see, all this time, I was trusting you... taking care of your club while you were gone, supporting everything. Damn it Alex I loved you! Marissa cried out.

- ...loved? Alex stayed speechless as Marissa finished packing her bag. She watched her leave the room without trying to let her stay... Marissa reached the front door and stopped.

- Jody knows about it, she simply said as a statement. Alex raised an eyebrow, and suddenly understood and ran after Marissa.

- What exactly did she tell you? She asked.

- Wrong, Marissa replied, heartbroken. The right answer was "there's nothing to know". Alex looked down.

- I guess it's over, Marissa said again as she opened the door. Outside, there rain had gotten stronger. Alex reached her wrist.

- Wait, she said as she took a look at the weather, where will you go? Marissa hand was shaking so bad that Alex could feel it by only holding the wrist. Marissa looked at her, holding her tears. Her whole body was shivering. If only she could...

- I don't know, she replied. Alex's arms seemed so warm and comfortable right now...

- Look deep in your heart, Alex said, her green eyes sparkling because of her tears, do you really think I'd be able to do it? After all we had... you truly believe I would have... A strong wind started blowing, making both girls shiver.

- I can't trust my heart anymore, Marissa replied. Alex let go of Marissa's wrist.

- Ok, she said. If that's all the trust we've built in five years, then I think you're right. Marissa gave her a confused look.

- You should go, she added, making it clear. Leave. Marissa nodded. She picked up her bag and left the door she heard Alex close behind her.

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Alex laid against the door and slid her body until she hit the floor. Holding her hands together, she tried to understand what had just happened. How come they came to that? All these years of love, trust and communication and now, a simple kiss has broken up their relationship. Alex wanted to believe that Jody had told something to Marissa, she wanted to be mad at the latina. But she couldn't. All that Alex could get out of this situation was that Marissa didn't trust her. Whatever Jody told her, Marissa should have known better. Alex's vision became blur as she stopped holding back the tears. Engulfing her face in her arms, she sobbed silently.

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Summer was laying on her bed, princess sparkle in her arms, waiting for Jody to speak. Being Marissa's best friend, Summer learned to be patient and wait for the person to give in and speak from himself. Pretending not to care, she was brushing her pony's hair and whistling.

- Are you playing with a pony? Jody asked as she laid on the bed, next to Summer.

- Oh, come closer, Summer said with sarcasm, make yourself comfortable.

- You're the one who invited me.

- I didn't have much choice, did I? Summer replied. Jody smiled.

- You're so cute, she said as she pinched her cheek.

- What the hell get your hands off me.

- Look at you, Jody said, you're trying so hard to help out Alex and Marissa, when the truth is, you don't know how screwed up their relationship is.

- Oh Jody, please, Summer said, Marissa and Summer are together for almost five years, they're the cutest couple I've ever seen. And they got an honest relationship. Jody raised an eyebrow.

- If you say so, she replied as she laid back in bed. Summer hit the pillow next to her.

- Okay fine, she said, spill it. What do you know?

- You don't want to know...

- Yes I do.

- No you don't. Summer pushed Jody who fell from the bed.

- Aïe, Jody screamed as she held her head, damn it what's wrong with you. Summer got up and help Jody.

- Oh I'm sorry. You should learn not to mess with me... Jody pushed Summer back, who hit the wall so hard a picture frame fell.

- Yea, she replied, you too.

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Marissa was driving for now an hour. She had no idea where she was heading, neither where she was. She couldn't see much of the road because of all that rain, however, the good new was that at 4am, there wasn't much traffic. Her soaked body was still shivering as she kept driving god knows where. She cried so much tears wouldn't fall anymore. Usually, when she was feeling that empty and broken, she would run in Alex's arms and everything would go away. The thought of it made her cry even more. What the hell was she doing? She needed Alex. She couldn't live without Alex. No matter how mad she was, deep down, she couldn't believe that Alex was guilty of an unfair. Making her decision, Marissa pushed the break and made a U-turn. They had to talk, she thought, they could fix this.

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- Okay this is obviously not working, Jody pointed out.

- What's that? Summer asked.

- Me, here, at your house.

- Oh, Summer said. I know...

- They're probably done talking, Jody said. I'll head over there.

- Hell no, Summer ran after Jody. They might be... you know... Jody smiled.

- I'll join, she replied with a wicked wink.

- Ah gross.

- Aren't you the one who said they were the cutest couple? Jody teased her.

- I didn't mean it that way! You know what, just go, Summer said. I'm not going to stop you.

- Like you could anyway, Jody replied before opening the door.

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Marissa's heart was racing. The simple thought of heading to her apartment was making her feel alive again. In a few minutes, she will be able to touch Alex again, to smell her perfume and, if she gets lucky, to kiss her... Then a thought crossed her mind : Alex asked her to leave. Simply showing up at Alex's door wouldn't fix anything. She really hurt her girlfriend... what if Alex didn't want her anymore? Marissa didn't realise the red light. She tried breaking but her speed was way too fast and the road were too wet, therefore, the brunette lost control of her car which spun on himself. Marissa screamed as strong as she could as her car was heading straight in the ocean. She reached the hand break and tried pushing it, but it was stuck. She was only a few feet away from the ocean... Marissa put all her weight on the hand break and finally got the car immobilised. That's when she heard honking. Everything happened so fast. Marissa started to panic as she couldn't remove the hand break. That truck was heading straight, she could see it even with all the rain, and the truck had way too much speed to break. Marissa tried, but she couldn't scream. Her whole body was paralysed by the white light which was getting closer and closer. Then nothing.

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... yep. They did it. They broke up... don't hate me.

- Ethereal123