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Here's part two, I hope you like it!

(Prepare you for the worst!)

Love and Kisses,

Josy

The same time outside the house

Blaine was nervous. There was no way he was going to survive this. The flowers he bought earlier, now lying on the street next to him, seem to laugh at him.

Why aren't you in there getting your boy instead of staring at us?

In this moment he hears sirens and an ambulance stopped in front of the house. Suddenly Rachel stormed out of the door, crying and shouting something to the paramedics.

"Second floor, the third door on the right, he's on the bed in the room with the door wide open, please hurry!"

"…Rachel?" She turned and looked at him in shock before wrapping her arms around him and sobbing into his shirt.

"Oh my God, Blaine! It's Kurt, he-"

"What is it, what happened-"

"H-he tried to kill h-himself w-with sleeping pills! I don't know w-what to do!"

He did what?

Blaine tried to wrap his mind about what Rachel said, but it's hard to focus on something when your world is crumbling down around you.

He was crying like hell when one of the paramedics shouted over:

"Miss and Mister? We are going now!" They hurried to sit in the ambulance next to Kurt.

When Blaine got to look at him, he gasped.

"R-rachel, he looks like … a ghost…" She nodded burying her face in Kurt's shirt.
"That's w-what I was talking a-about in that phonec-call…"

Blaine felt the guilt well up in him.

He should have known.

He should have helped.

He should have been there for him.

He should have… loved him.

Shuddering slightly he took Kurt's hand and kissed the cold knuckles.

"I'm s-so sorry, Kurt… Please stay with m-me… I need you… I l-love you." Rachel looked at him through her tears in shock.

"Y-you do?" Blaine nodded.

"Yeah, I do. I just… didn't r-realize it..:" She sobbed and hid her face in Kurt's shirt again.

Blaine just squeezed his hand looking at him with a desperate wish in his eyes.

Don't go, Kurt. I love you.

A few hours later Kurt was lying in a hospital bed looking as pale as before with Blaine and Rachel sitting next to him.

They were still crying.

But the fear was gone.

He was going to make it and that was all they wished for in this moment.

It had been a long fight since the low bodyweight had supported the effect of the sleeping pills, but now it was okay.

After a long hour of silence only broken by their quiet sobs, Rachel pulled out a sheet of paper, handing it to Blaine.

"I f-found this on his nights-stand, it says For Blaine on it, so…"

Blaine nodded taking the letter in his hands shakily and starting to read.

Dear Blaine,

Please don't be mad at me. Please don't. I had to do it.

Do you remember what you used to say?

Courage, Kurt, Courage. But I don't want to have courage anymore. It didn't help me and I'm giving up.

I tried; I tried so hard, Blaine.

But what am I writing here, I guess you don't know what I'm talking about, right?

So… remember when we first met? You took my hand and brought me to your performance of "Teenage dream". You've been it since then.

My sweet Teenage dream.

I love you, Blaine.

So much, it hurts sometimes. Well, always. And I know you love Sam and there is no way, you're ever going to love me back, but… I just yet realized that. All these Years I thought that sometimes you would get how much I love you and… love me back.

That's why I tried to… you know, look better. I didn't eat much, I guess, Rachel told you. And I… went to the bathroom often? I don't know how to tell you…

Remember when you said, everybody looked like nothing compared to Sam? That's when it all started. But don't feel guilty now, It's not your fault, it's mine.

I should have been prettier, sexier, more muscular, just… like him.

I'm sorry I didn't make it. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough.

Tell Finn he is the best brother in the world and I love him like hell.

Tell Rachel she's awesome.

Tell Carole I would have loved to call her mom.

Tell my dad I love him to pieces and that I'm sorry I was never as good as my mother.

Tell Mercy she's my boo.

And tell everybody else how much I love you all. You are my family.

And for you, Blaine:

I love you. Don't miss me.

Love,

Kurt

PS: You do know you're my best friend, right? Best friends forever Blaine, remember?

Hate me now? :(

There will be a part three and an epilogue, I promise!

Love,

Josy