Hey!
Because my best friend wanted an update… here it is! (Thanks to her! *kiss*)
And I seriously love you all, I'm amazed how many people read this story O.o
After this there will only be an epilogue!
Love and Kisses,
Josy
Love, Kurt
Blaine whimpered. His heart hurt like someone took it and stabbed it. He couldn't see straight.
"Blaine? W-what does it say?" He sobbed.
"Blaine, please talk to me." Rachel reached for his hand.
"He… He d-did it because o-of me… Because I didn't l-love him, and-"
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry-"
"No, it's my fault, he-"
"Blaine, please, he is okay, he won't die-"
"You w-were right, he didn't eat a-and the vomit in your bathroom, it w-was all true and I said, you read t-too much into it-"
"Stop, Blaine, please stop." She squeezed his hand.
"He will be okay. You love him, he loves you. You'll be together forever. He'll be okay!" He gulped.
"Okay."
A few hours later Burt, Carole and Finn arrived. Blaine let them alone for awhile and sat in the waitingroom until Burt opened the door and took a seat next to him, looking at him questioning.
"Blaine… Rachel said, he left a letter for you and you knew… why he did … this."
"Y-yeah, I do. But… please don't be mad at me." Burt smiled weakly.
"I won't. You know, I'm busy being happy that my son is alive, there is no space left in my heart to be mad at you." Blaine nodded.
"Okay. So… he did it… because of m-me. Because he thought I didn't love him." Burt's eyes widened.
"Oh. But… wait, he thought? So you do love him?"
"Yeah. I do. But I didn't know he loved me." Burt grinned sadly.
"I knew."
"What?!" He shrugged.
"You must have been extremely oblivious if you didn't realize it. He is head over heels for you." Blaine felt the tear sting in his eyes.
"I didn't know. And I'm sorry. So sorry. And… he told me to tell you something."
"Good stuff or bad stuff?"
"Both. Do you want to-"
"Yes, please tell me, kid, I really need to know what happened to the usually so well working brain of my son to do this." Blaine giggled wetly.
"Well… He told me to tell Finn he's the best brother in the world and he loves him like hell. And Carole… that he would have loved to call her … m-mom." Blaine was crying again in this moment.
So was Burt. Silent tears were streaming down his face and he gripped Blaine's shoulder tightly.
"And… he told me to tell you he loved you to pieces and that he's sorry."
"What the hell for?!"
"For… not being as good as his mother." Burt whimpered right when the door swung open and a smiling Carole poked her head outside.
"He's awake!" Burt and Blaine hurried to Kurt's bed, only to see a pale Kurt lying between the sheets and smiling kind of ashamed. Burt hugged him tightly."
"Oh, kiddo…"
"I'm okay, dad, don't… I'm sorry."
"Don't be. And especially not for allegedly not being as good as your mother."
Kurt froze, turning his head to face Blaine who was crying again. Then he hissed sharply:
"Dad, Carole, Finn and Rachel? Would you please let Blaine and me alone for a moment?"
They all looked curious but go outside, closing the door gently behind them.
Blaine sat down next to Kurt and sighed. But Kurt just glared at him angrily.
"Why the hell did you read that letter?"
"I… I thought you wrote it for m-me?"
"I did, but I didn't want you to know."
"So… you didn't mean it?" Blaine was watching him anxiously until Kurt shook his head silently.
"No, I did mean it, but I didn't want you to know, while I'm alive, damn it! Why couldn't you have just let me die? Why couldn't you?"
Blaine froze and tried to suppress the sudden anger building up in his veins. Then he gulped.
"Stop. Please don't say anything more." Kurt looked at him confused.
"What the- Why?"
"Because it fucking hurts! Because it feels like you cut my freaking heart with every word you say, you stupid, stupid, wonderful person!" He reached for Kurt's hand and clutched at it tightly. Kurt's jaw dropped in shock.
"It… What?"
"Kurt, when you wrote that letter, you must have been hating me so much, because it killed me to read it. I killed me to read that you were hurting yourself by not eating and even vomiting, just because you thought stupid little me didn't love your kindness and caring and-"
"Wait." Kurt looked at him mischievous with wide eyes.
"What are you trying to say here?" Blaine took a deep breath.
"I'm trying to say that I love you since, like, ever, and I just realized it yesterday and when I came here to tell you, you were nearly dead, leaving me with just a letter, saying you loved me too and when you're finally awake, you say you just want to be dead!? Kurt, that's just… impossible, you just can't… you can't. I can't take that."
Kurt was crying too now, clutching at Blaine's hand like at a lifeline.
"You… You love me?" Blaine nodded blushing and stroked Kurt's hand with his thumb.
"I mean, I don't want to pressure you into anything, because you just tried to kill yourself because of me and you have every right to hate me, but-"
"Shut up and come here, Blaine."
"W-what?" Kurt smiled.
"The sleeping pills are still in my blood and I don't think I can sit up yet, so would you please come here?!" Blaine hesitated but finally scooted a little closer leaning in and looking at Kurt curiously. But Kurt just smiled weakly, cupped his cheek in one hand an pressed his lips on Blaine's.
The shorter boy froze but after two long seconds he took a sharp breath and kissed him back lovingly. Kurt sighed and pulled him closer, but when Blaine's hands touched Kurt's chest, he pulled back in shock.
"Oh my god, Kurt, you're so, so skinny!" The pale boy looked a little ashamed.
"Well, you were going on about how muscular and skinny he was and I just… freaked out, I guess… And it possibly was the right thing to do, wasn't it? I mean, you realized you were in love with me after I became so skinny, so…"
"Don't you dare think things like that ever again, Kurt!" Blaine looked at him furious.
"That I realized that am in love with you had nothing to do with your outward appearance! It was yesterday at Lima Bean, when I talked to Penny-" Kurt raised an eyebrow.
"The girl. Sam's girl."
"Oh."
"Yeah, well, she asked me about my friends and I told her about Tina and Artie and then I started talking about you! God, I couldn't stop! I just kept on rambling about how awesome you were and then she freaking asked me how long we were together!" Kurt smiled weakly.
"And I was all like, Oh, so I'm in love with Kurt? Why did nobody tell me that?! And then I came here and you… well, you know the rest."
"I… I do." Blaine sighed and rested his head on Kurt's chest.
"So…" Kurt gulped. And started stroking Blaine's head.
"What is…. This?" Blaine looks up at him and took his hand.
"You mean… us?"
"Yeah…?"
"Kurt, why are you looking this unsure? I love you, okay? If you want to be with me, you are!" Kurt snorted.
"Of course I want to be with you, what were you thinking? Love you too, by the way." Blaine smiled.
"Well, I'm glad then." Kurt smiled too and pulled him back in for a kiss.
"Hey guys, wha- Oh, um… Hi?" The door was opened and Sam stormed in, holding tightly on Penny's hand. Kurt and Blaine parted laughing.
"Hi to you too." Then Kurt raised an eyebrow at their joined hands.
"Wow, things are happening fast!" Sam blushed.
"Oh well… anyway, we just wanted to ,make sure, you're at least alive, Kurt." Kurt smiled and glanced at Blaine."
"I am. Now that Blaine and I - Oh my God, that was the cheesiest thing I ever dared saying!" Blaine laughed loudly.
"Well, I definitely don't mind."
"Hey, you owe me something, Blaine!" Penny grinned.
"But we'll go now and say hello to your parents, Kurt. Come on, Sam!"
"I'm coming!" Sam grinned at Blaine, giving him thumbs up and then following Penny through the door, closing it behind him.
Blaine sighed.
"I'm sorry, Kurt…"
"For what?" Kurt was literally confused.
"Well… for needing her advice to realize I'm in love with you. And-"
"Hey…" Kurt reached for Blaine's hand and kissed him lightly on the nose.
"At least you love me now." Blaine smiled.
"Yes, I do. So very much."
… Like me again? xD (Yuppieh, everything is great!)
So, now you can keep on waiting for the epilogue! *evil laugh*
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Love and Kisses,
Josy