Chapter 1: Seeing the Flowers
Previously: "So, do you want to go see the flowers?"
I thought for a minute. Then I nodded slowly.
He then did something surprising. He put out his hand for me to take. Of course I took it without hesitation. Then he smiled lightly, as if to reassure me. He guided me to the side of the house I saw him at yesterday and I began to cry on sight. The beautiful roses were clustered around a huge rock that read "Primrose Everdeen" with primroses painted on the stone. And there were millions of those breathtaking flowers. It reminded me of how I left Rue.
I didn't realize Peeta's eyes were on me until I noticed his one hand squeeze mine while the other brushed a tear from my check.
"Do you like it?"he asked softly. All I could do was nod slowly and let the tears fall. "Good. Because I did it for you." That only made me cry harder. But he did the one thing that only he could do for me, even now after he tried to kill me many times and after he has changed so much; he pulled me into his arms and held me.
After awhile he led me into my house, took me up the stairs, and laid me on my bed. The tears were now restricting my vision but I began to sense he was leaving so I reached out and grabbed him and begged, between sobs, for him to say.
As if on cue, as if nothing bad had happened to us since that one night, he responded, "always". And immediately I felt it click in his head. I didn't say anything more and neither did he. But I let him climb into my bed and stroke my hair, both of us knowing we were on the track back to each other. He was coming back to me. And I couldn't have felt more safe in that moment. So both of us, tired from many sleepless nights apart, we fell asleep. Calm. Happy. Together.
Peeta awoke first. Almost an entire day after we had fallen asleep. He knew he wasn't in his own room but he was a little fuzzy on the rest if the details until he looked over and saw me beside him. He immediately began to feel regret. He got up slowly, prepared to leave and never come back but just then I began to stir and arise.
"Peeta?" I muttered. "What are you doing?"
" I have to go" he said, as he left the room and eventually the house.
I walked around the house confused for the rest of the day. I thought it meant he remembered and that everything was fine and that we could... I don't know. Continue like we were during the Games? But wasn't that all for the cameras? Or was it? I don't know… Didn't I choose Gale? When I knew he would never be the same, I made the choice easy, I choose Gale... But Gale's gone and the choice isn't easy anymore...
I battled with myself all day but I came up more confused than Peeta had already left me. So I decided to bury those emotions and bring up the ones about my sister from yesterday and to finally call my doctor. He let me talk and cry for awhile but before he went he gave a coping method. A kind of memory book for everyone I love that I lost. I decided the boy with the bread would go in that book too because I knew he wasn't coming back.
I still had a slight hope that night before bed. I knew that I hadn't slept that good since the train to the Quarter Quell. And I was sure he hadn't either. But he never came so I just went in and out of nightmares. Prim, Peeta, Snow... Many appearances until the sun rose and there was a light knock at my door.
It was Peeta.
"Hi", I muttered.
"Hi", he said nervously." Look I'm sorry he began…"
"Don't." I said sharply.
"No, listen," he said. "Can I come in?"
What do you think? RxR!