SORRY ITS BEEN SO LONG! ALMOST 1.5 YEARS! IM ASHAMED OF MYSELF! HERES A NICE LONG CHAPTER TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU! ENJOY 3
Deidara POV:
"HEEY THERE DEI! WE WHERE JUST LOOKING FOR YOU!" boomed Kisame as he leaped in between the incredibly awkward (well at least for me) staring competition that I had going with Sasori. I felt like slapping the blue fish in the face, if I got the little runt alone I could show him what a years' worth of hatred can do to a person.
"right….um hi Kisame" I said awkwardly
Kisame slapped me on the back, being the typical overbearing person that he was, and lead me (or dragged whatever) over to the place where Sasori stood.
He looked at me with the cocky expression that he always wore and (for the most that Sasori could manage) gave me a half smile "Been a while brat" he said in a casual, nonchalant voice that sent my blood boiling.
I wanted to clobber that dickhead in the face for everything that he had done to me and my family, but no, not here, if I got into trouble again I would be expelled for certain this time. My hands curled by my sides 'come on Deidara, control yourself' I repeated like a Mantra in my head. Only god knows that I have the ability, to some degree, to keep myself calm when I need to be, most people know me for my out of control, explosive temper and brashness. But Sasori was a special case, I would control myself for now, but as a result the release of that control would be even more explosive, which is what I called beautiful.
"Yah I guess so un" I said playing it cool looking around, but before I knew it, Kisame had up and vanished. Funny for someone so massive he could act so ninja and just sneak off like that. Bloody Hell now I was alone with him.
He stood there, not saying a word, as usual, He looked shorter then I remembered him, now I stood just over half a head taller. He wore a red and black plaid hoodie with black jeans and the usual wore skate shoes. He appeared to be frozen in time, had not aged or grown since the time that him and I used to be friends, almost as if looking into the past making it almost as if the arrogant redhead wasn't standing before me but acted as a mirage reflecting back to a past life. Although some things about him had changed, His hair was longer, a shaggy mess of red that fell around his ears and his pale skin, although still extremely fair, had tanned a few shades darker.
"What are you doing here?" I hissed in a low insidious voice
His chocolaty brown eyes lazily looked up at me and just shrugged "came to visit my friends?" he questioned "what happened to you?"
The question struck me "what do you mean?"
He turned away "you've changed" he bluntly said
A surge of fire burned through my veins. How dare he just barge back in here like nothing's changed and accuse me of changing. The lion raged inside my stomach filling me up with a hot boiling fluid that I couldn't swallow anymore.
I took off in a fast paced walk, slamming my body into the side of the shorter boys as I passed. I only had history after assembly today, nothing worth going to, so I charged out the front gates of school towards the massive park to the left. I went there to think and to get my rage out, I couldn't believe he had the nerve to show his face after practically disappearing off the map for over a year How could he think that just merely disappearing, without calling or even emailing, was the best thing, how could he not see how much Akita loved him, how torn she was when he left. How was it possible to just abandon his brother after everything we had gone through together and then show up out of the blue and expect everything to be alright.
I veered into the leafy foliage that engulfed the park into its own universe. The gravel pathway met my sneakers as they crunched with all the force of my footsteps. I usually came here to get some peace of mind, the park itself was like entering a new world all of its own, a world that nobody in my family knew, a green universe that blurred out the dreary, rainy backdrop of Amegakure and turned itself into whatever it wanted to be.
But for once the calming sounds of the birds whispering to each other amongst the overarching branches of willow, oak and pine trees didn't seem to help. Fury had soaked so deep within my mind that the memories of this place that I tried to suppress had come bubbling back to the surface. I saw it all again, the ground pressed up against my face as the familiar ratty skate shoes crashed behind Uchiha's neck.
"Why are you doing this?"
"I guess I'm just returning the favor"
I could still feel the knife tearing up my arm, the blood that coated Sasori's chin as it flowed from the sides of his mouth.
"Why would you do that for me?"
Hidan's sharp sinister violet eyes glaring down as I faded from consciousness that day, the same sadistic eyes that had been on the Amegakure Bridge that time walking home from school, The way Sasori had sobbed so violently in the kitchen that day, the scars that littered the soft underside of his arms still scabbed and healing the same cuts that I saw in the bathroom when he showed up drunk in the morning, the dread came flooding back to me as I realized my brother had been driven to the point of self-harm.
"Deidara, There was a reason I left Suna, I wouldn't have left if I wanted to go back"
A sharp scorching pain surged though my cheek, it took me a minute to realize that I had caused the pain, my hand burning with the same sting, a slap to break the horrible trance.
"I'm going crazy" I muttered to myself, hands sliding up into my hair knotting their way through the golden strands and pulling viciously. My eyes squeezed tight trying to get the images out of my mind, the ones I had shoved into the darkest corners to forget about.
I looked up slowly and stared at the sight in front of me, I hadn't realized I had come here, the old abandoned wedding deck that lay in a forlorn state. Ivy twisting up the sides of the rotting wooden supports that had once held up a canopied roof, although now supported a twisted blanket of foliage with tiny pinpricks of light beaming their way through the leaves. To me it was almost beautiful, but not quite. The structure that had rotted into the background of the park, lingering too long in this world, fading and forgotten, I sniggered to myself, what a waste of a masterpiece, some poor architects art, it was such a waste.
I slowly reached into my pocket, pulling out something that I was working on during math class today, a clay bird, one of my finest constructions just waiting to be completed. I tossed it towards the desolate structure, reaching quickly towards my watch which I had rigged to act as a detonator, pressing a button on the side before my artwork hit the floorboards.
Beauty. The heat of the ignition washed over me in pure ecstasy. The fiery explosion engulfed the entire structure climbing upwards to the heights of the canopy in the picture of pure art, the sound of snapping wood and destruction filled my head with bliss. The deck collapsed in on itself, lost forever, the perfect form of art.
A giggle escaped my lips as the explosion settled down, I tossed my head back and allowed the bubble of laughter to explode out of me. This place, gone in the truest form of art, that was beauty.
"Well that was stupid"
My body froze to ice as the familiar monotonous voice came out from behind me.
I peered around my shoulder. From the corner of my vision I could see the careless redhead lounging underneath a tree exuding a certain mannerism that made my blood boil.
"You" I stifled through clenched teeth still facing away from him "have a lot of fucking nerve following me here"
"And what exactly do you intend to do to me?" I heard him stand up "You know you can't beat me in a fight"
"A lot can change in a year un" I hissed bitterly, trying to control myself from springing forward and attempting to tear out his throat, I knew he was right but I would be damned before I admitted it to him.
"Evidentially"
"Why do you care all of a sudden!?" I spun around to face his dull eyes, lounging nonchalantly against the tree he had sat under earlier "you disappeared for god's sake! It took you over a fucking year to finally speak to me again hu? She got depressed you know, Akita. She always talked about you, about the countless times she tried to invite you to Christmas or her birthday or even to come down for a week" I hadn't planned on this, I was screaming on the inside for being so weak, but the verbal vomit wouldn't stop "But you apparently had dropped off the map, so she got depressed and Dad couldn't deal with her without relying on whiskey, so she left him and I had to deal with that stupid fucking sadistic abusive bastard breathing down my neck about how this was my fault!"
My breath was jagged, chest rising and falling uncontrollably, he stood there never changing his expression trying to seem unaffected, but I knew where to look, I knew Sasori well enough to know that it was his hands where he let his emotions out instead of his face, the same way he bit his index finger when in pain. His fingers knotted tightly into the sleeve of his jumper, the flesh on his knuckles had turned white from the amount of pressure he exerted onto the fabric.
I couldn't help chuckle, this was perfect.
Sasori kicked himself up off the tree and let his arms fall to his sides "well what are you waiting for"
My words where stuck in my throat from his unconventional answer, I managed after a few attempts to splutter out "What?"
"I can tell you want to so go on and hit-"
SMACK!
His feet never moved from where he stood, his head turned completely left, upper body tilting that way also. My fist had never hurt so much in my life; I swear his skin must be made of wood or something. I lowered my hand as Sasori straightened upright his hand cupping the side of his face next to his right eye where my fist had collided.
His face was still blank as usual although I knew what was going to happen next. Pain spread from my waist reaching out all across my abdomen as a round house kick was delivered into my side. I broke my footing, stumbling to the right a little from the force. Sasori straightened himself up as I caught myself and began lunging for him again. Using his height against him I threw myself over him colliding roughly with the ground feeling the gravel cut into my skin, All the pent up fury was released in an instant explosion, an anticlimax to the years' worth of rage.
SMACK!
I punched him hard in the face again as a smile split across his face, but this time it didn't make me angry as much as it probably should have. Sasori, the man of few words, never would give me a full explanation of his unexplained absence for the last year, but, I could tell, this was his own unique way of apologizing.
SMACK!
He was just lying there enduring the hits I threw, still smiling, he was a person who believed in self-punishment after all, and for me, that was enough, to know he felt the pain of my step mothers depression, SMACK, my father's alcoholism, SMACK, and my abuse was enough, he knew now, and I could tell he was remorseful, that was enough, I didn't need some elaborate excuse.
Finally a sharp force collided with my abdomen causing my stomach to tighten in a sickly clench, pain surging to every extremity of my body. I rolled over in pain, hands weaving their way around the impact point as the urge to throw up slowly subsided and faded into a dull aching. I lay there next to Sasori, his knee stretched out to lie flat on the ground retreating from his attack. He always won no doubt about it.
"Look" Sasori mumbled in a voice that sounded as if he was struggling to swallow his pride "Deidara I-"
"It's okay" I muttered, the rage had lifted off me like a weight being pulled off my chest, I didn't have to hate my best friend anymore "I get it"
In that moment I felt happier then I had ever felt in the last year, I didn't need to hate anymore, it was over. I looked up at the leafy blanket that blocked out 90% of the sky from view; beams of light punctured the canopy falling down to the ground, speckling the floor. For the first time in my life, I could understand why Sasori liked the idea of eternity so much, it meant this moment, the moment of relief, this moment of release from a miserable burden that had plagued the last year never had to end.
"Come on" Sasori said in his flat tone as he pulled himself upright, his face slightly purpling around the eye where I had landed my first punch on him "I should go see Akita"
Sorry this has been so long, I doubt any of my old followers still are reading this, I started this in year 9 and I just graduated year 12 XD Soory friends :P I hope to get chapters up more often now, I have finally reached the good part of this story I've been planning to write since forever! I'm still unsure of how to end this thou although I would love to hear what u all think about how it's going
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