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James sat uncomfortably close to the white rectangular hospital bed. His hand holding on tightly to a frail, porcelain hand. Everything was yelling at James that the love of his life was still alive, the beeping of the machines, the rise and fall of the other's chest, the breathing machine inhaling and exhaling; yet James couldn't see past Logan's last breath. No matter how much he tried to forget it, the image never left his mind. His white skin almost matched the small white blanket covering his lower half. Bandages wrapped around his right shoulder and torso. A large bruise ran from his top right temple to his cheek bone. His lips looked like a faded and dying rose. His body was littered in deep gashes and bruises.
''I should have known. I should have been there. I should have noticed. This is my fault, Logan almost died because I never took notice. He's laying here because of me. Maybe if I had followed him after we broke up. Maybe I should have pulled him back into my arms when he tried to get away.'' James thought this time and time again. A never ending cycle of blame.
"James?'' The tall brunette was pulled from his thoughts as someone called his name. He looked up to see Kendall and Carlos standing near the edge of the bed. Carlos took a hesitant step foreword. When he received no rejection from the other he gently laid his hand upon his shoulder.
"...James?'' Came Carlos' small voice.
"It's my fault.'' James mumbled, shrugging out of the Latino's hold.
"James stop-'' Kendall started, but was stopped when James stood up and help up his hand.
"No Kendall, it is my fault. I should have known something was up. He wasn't at school for almost a week and he never called or texted me. I should have done something!'' James seethed with anger. Not towards his friends, but at himself.
"James, we didn't know either. It's not your fault.'' Kendall tried to reason.
"But you didn't spend every day with him like I did.'' James spat, "I saw him everyday and I never noticed anything different. Why, why do I have to be so clueless.'' James was boiling with emotion.
"James, you couldn't have known-'' Carlos tried to say, but was cut of by the brunette.
"I"M THE REASON HE"S LAYING HERE.'' James didn't think his heart could shatter anymore, but apparently it could as he slid down the wall and hugged his legs sobbing loudly into his knees. He could feel his chest heaving as he sucking in oxygen. five minutes had gone by and James was still in that same position, crying loudly. He thought Kendall and Carlos had left until two pairs of arms wrapped around his body.
"It-it's m-my fa-fau-lt. L-Logie's he-he-re be-because of m-me.'' James sobbed. he felt a soft hand whip away his tears and lift his chin.
"Shh Jamie.'' Carlos spoke so soft and calmly, giving James a chance to even out his breath. "Logan would never blame you in a million years. Every time he looks at you, I see so much love and passion. He could never blame or hate you. You mean so much to him and he means so much to you. You've got to stop blaming yourself.'' Carlos said softly.
"Carlos is right James. What's important right now is that Logan is alive and breathing. We all need to be focused on him getting better and healing.'' Kendall agreed, pushing James bangs out of his eyes. James looked up at both of them, cracking a small smile.
"W-what did I-I do to h-have such g-great friends?'' James whispered.
"Being you.'' They both answered in unison.
James felt a small nudge to his arm. He blinking sleepily and looked up through his half-lidded eyes. His mother was smiling down sadly at her son.
"James, sweetie?'' She asks. James is up in an instant, hugging his mother tightly.
"Mom, when did you get here?'' He questioned.
"Jennifer called me and told me what happened. How is he?'' She turned and looked at the sleeping boy next to them.
"He's stable. The doctor said he's in a coma, but it's only temporary.'' James reached out and took Logan's limp hand in his. ''I want him to wake up so bad.'' James whimpered, trying to hid the tears in his voice. Brooke, though, could hear them plain as day and grabbed her son, hugging him tight. That's all James needed. He just needed his mother to hold him and tell him that it's okay.
"I'm so proud of you James.'' She said warmly as she stoked his hair. James looked up, very confused.
"Why?'' he squeaked.
"Because you're the only one who took the time to get to know Logan. You, Kendall, and Carlos. I love you so much baby.'' She said hugging him close.
"I love you too mom.'' He replied.
(one week later)
one week, one long week since James had found Logan. One week since Logan had his first dance. One week since he feel into a coma. James sat in the same spot everyday. not caring that school had let out for break. Everyday he was given a meal and mostly stayed by Logan, except for going to the restroom, but even then James would be back in a split second.
James traced his hand absentmindedly up and down Logan's arm, creating odd shapes and figures on his arm. He huffed as he looked up at the wall clock. "7:30'' he read aloud then looked back down at Logan. Small tears pricked his vision as he lifted the smaller boy's hand to his lips and kissed it. James got down on his knees, close to Logan's head and began running his hand through Logan's now flat hair.
''Please Logie, please wake up. I need you here. I need to tell you how much I love you...and how sorry I am. I want you back. I want to hold you again. I want to feel your lips on mine. I promise I will Never let him hurt you again. I swear on my life. please Logan I need you. I need you way more than you need me. I need to know you're okay. I want to feel you grip my hand back, where it fits perfectly-'' James stopped when he felt Logan's weak hand grip his. James shook his head and looked back at Logan. His eyes where still closed and his chest was still steadily rising. "I just imagined- wait.'' James felt another tug on his hands. He swore he saw Logan's eyes flutter a little. Instantly James was up and out the door.
"I need a doctor. Please!'' he yelled. Immediately a nurse was running passed James and into the room. James ran over to her and explained what happened.
"I felt him grab my hand.'' The nurse nodded and called for a doctor. The doctor that had been attending Logan ran into the room grabbing things he needed.
"Logan, Logan. If you can hear me I want you to squeeze my hand. A moment passed before he felt a weak squeeze to his hand. "That's good Logan. Can you open your eyes for me.'' two minutes and thirty-eight seconds passed before, ever so slowly Logan's big brown eyes fluttered open. "Good. James I need you to step out for a minute so we can take a better look at Logan.'' James' eyes grew wide. Two male nurses forcefully pulled James out of the room as he kicked and thrashed to see Logan.
"Sir, please let the doctor see him then you can go in.'' One of the nurses begged. James stopped and paced around the small hallway, calling his two friends and mother. twenty minutes later the doctor stepped out walking straight to James.
"You can go see him now.'' He said. James didn't hesitate to push past him and run into the room. Sitting up in the bed, looking much more awake was the only and only Logan. James speed full speed to Logan, almost taking him out of the bed.
"Logan, oh my god, Logan. You're, you're awake.'' James stammered.
"J-Jamie.'' James pulled back and looked at him, tears freely flowing down his face.
"Yes?'' he asked.
"I c-can't breath.'' James immediately loosened his grip, forgetting about the bandages.
"Logan.'' James breathed, holding him as close as possible without hurting him. "Logan...I-I.'' James stopped when he felt a finger cover his lip. James shushed and just held Logan, crying along with Logan. not Long after James sat back a little, starring straight into Logan's beautiful eyes. Ones he never wanted to see closed again.
"Logan, I'm so sorry. I wished I had known. I wish I could have been there for you. I wish I had never left you out there. I'm so, so, so sor-'' James was cut off when a pair of lips met his. This kiss was so much different from the others. It held so much more purpose, so much more love and passion. It's was absolutely perfect. Logan was the first to break it, still looking at James.
"I heard everything you said. And this time I know it's true.''
"Logan, I will make sure you never have to go through that ever again. I love you.'' James whispered the last part
"I love you too...''
"LOGAN!'' they both heard two familiar voiced yell, causing them to giggle
(Three days later)
''Alright Logan, you can take a seat there.'' Logan sat in an attorneys office, next to a taller brunette sat, holding tightly to his hand.
"Now Logan I want you to tell me everything. We need all we can get from you to use against your father and brothers.'' The middle aged man explained. Logan slowly nodded and looked over at James who game him an encouraging smile
"When I was younger,'' Logan began slowly, "My mother died. I was about eight at the time and at first my step-father just drank a lot and would stay out almost all night long. Me and my step-brothers would have to make sandwiches for dinner most night. for a year Robey would stay out drinking until one night when he came home he pushed me down the basement stairs and began punching and kicking me. If...If I screamed then the punishment would only last longer.'' Logan looked down and held back some tears.
"You can step out anytime Logan.'' the man reminded. Logan just shook his head an continued along.
"Soon Jett and Dak started doing the same thing to me when they were unhappy or upset. Every...Everyday I would go through the same thing. This continued for a few years until I was about thirteen. That's when...When...he-he.'' Logan couldn't go on as tears fell down his face and sobs began to rack his body. He felt as though he were back in that very room with Robey. the older male nodded his head toward James and stepped out for a second to give them some time.
James bent down next to Logan, rubbing his back soothingly and whispering comforting words into his ear. "Shh Logie, it's okay. it's okay.'' He soothed. ''You don't have to do this Logan, not if you don't want to.'' James reminded gently. Logan shook his head again.
"N-no I need to.'' Logan explained. James nodded and scooted his chair closer to Logan then motioned for the other man to come back in. Logan whipped away the tears and sniffled a bit before continuing.
"One day...he came b-back earlier t-than usual.'' Logan struggled to get out.'' Instead of p-pushing me d-down the stairs, he...he pu-pushed me on the couch. Then he t-took my c-cloths o-off...'' Logan was using all his strength to keep from sobbing again and pressed on. ''I-I tried ge-geting away b-but he hand cuffed m-me to the couch. he-he took o-off my b-boxers and t-touched me.'' James had enough and stopped there. That seemed to be all the attorney needed and stepped back out to talk with the police.
The pretty boy turned to Logan and engulfed him in a hug, kissing his temple lightly. ''Logan, I'm so sorry.'' James cradled Logan to his chest, letting the smart boy cry into his lucky white v-neck. Logan looked up and wiped some of the tears away. James brought up one hand and swiped his hand across Logan's pale cheek.
"I-It's okay. All t-that matters n-now it I-I'm back w-with you.'' Logan said nuzzling his face into the crook of James' neck.
"And you always will.'' James whispered, catching Logan in a simple, sweet kiss.
"Can we go home now.'' Logan squeaked and looked up at James. And God he looked just like a five-year-old asking for candy.''
"Yeah,'' James hadn't even realized they were on the floor until he was up and helping Logan to stand without putting to much pressure on his ribs. Just as they were making there way out the older man stopped them.
"The court date is January 3rd.'' they nodded and held each other's hands as they walked out.
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