"She only wants to hurt you" "She's not really going to be your friend" "She hates you because you're gay" "You're a disgrace to humanity" "I'm under your bed, your only friend is me and I make marks on you so no one likes you"
Beca sat in her bed staring at the razors in front of her, tears running down her face. She picked up a razor and held it above her wrist for a while debating whether or not to cut again. She had been clean for exactly 2 weeks and 4 days and she wasn't sure she could take it anymore. The voices in her head were getting louder and louder by the minute and she wasn't sure how long she would last. She looked at her phone and went to her contacts found Chloe's number and as a last hope she texted the red-head.
Hey...
Hey, is this Beca?
Yea
You ok?
No... They're really loud tonight...
Oh honey, I'm on my way over to your house right now
You don't have to come over, I'm sure you have plans
I did, but you need someone and I want to be that someone
Really?
Yes Beca, this isn't some prank or a joke. I want to help you.
Okay... Thank you
Anytime sweetheart, I'm here.
Beca got up and went to the door and she was immediately pulled into a tight hug from Chloe. Beca clung to Chloe like her life depended on it, which at the moment, it did. Chloe didn't let go until Beca pulled away first. "Thank you I really needed that" "I could tell and again anytime Beca" "Do you want to come in and stay for a while?" "Yes of course" "My room is the second on the right, I'm going to the bathroom to clean up, to be honest I've been crying for about 3 hours" "Beca, I told you, you can text or call anytime, you're not a bother to me at all, I promise" "Okay, just let me clean my face up and I'll be there" "Okay sweetheart take your time" Beca went into the bathroom and splashed some cold water on her face to help her calm down. "Just take it easy Mitchell, she's gonna help you with this and you will overcome this" Beca left the bathroom before the voices came and told her otherwise.
Chloe was sitting on Beca's bed when Beca came into her room. Beca sat beside Chloe and noticed that she had closed the tin that contained the razors and put it on the floor as if they would trigger her as well and Chloe couldn't have that happen. Not when Beca needed her and not when she has been 3 months clean. "They still tease me" Chloe said and she was holding back tears. "Hey hey it's okay" Beca now being the comforter. "If you want you can spend the night and we can be like eachother's rock, only if you want" Beca offered. "That would be great Beca, thank you. God I feel so stupid, I came here to comfort you and I'm the one in tears" "No no no it's okay, from the looks of this, we both need this. Not just one of us, but both of us together need the other one" "Yea I think you're right" Chloe sniffed. Beca held out her arms for Chloe, "C'mere hun" Chloe moved over to Beca and gratefully accepted the embrace and Beca rubbed circles on Chloe's back assuring her it would be alright.
After a while of just sitting there and hugging, Beca decided to get ready for bed. "You can wear something of mine if you want" "Thank you" "No problem" Both girls got dressed for bed and got into Beca's bed. "Oh wait, the cat" Beca said as she got up and went to the door and the cat was sitting there waiting for Beca. "Comeon buddy" and the cat entered the room, jumped up onto the bed and froze as he saw Chloe. "Buddy this is Chloe, she's a friend of mine, be nice" Beca said as she petted him. "What's his name?" "He mostly responds to buddy or baby from me but his name is Simba" "Like in The Lion King?" "Yes, like Lion King" "That's adorable" "He is, I'm badass member?" "Of course you are, now c'mere" Beca got into bed and then Simba walked up on Beca and then looked at her and Chloe and decided to sleep between them. "That's not gonna work buddy" "Why not?" Chloe asked. "Because I wanna cuddle" "Beca Mitchell, a badass, yet a cuddler?" "Yes, now shush so I can cuddle you" Chloe giggled. "Okay ms badass" And with that Beca scooted over to Chloe and wrapped her arms around the red-head's stomach and nuzzled her face into Chloe's neck. Chloe hummed and wrapped her arms around Beca's shoulders and placed a kiss on the smaller girl's forehead. "Goodnight Beca" "Night Chlo" Chloe smiled at the nickname Beca gave her and gave her another kiss on the forehead. Beca kissed Chloe's neck in return, a small chaste kiss. Chloe again hummed and started to play with Beca's hair. "You know if you keep playing with my hair like that, I will most likely fall asleep and/or fall in love with you" "Oh you will?" "Yes, not even going to deny it" "Good" "Good to what?" "Falling in love with me" "Why is that good?" "I can take care of you and you can take care of me" "Okay, I'm all for it" "Really?" "Yea, I mean you're like the perfect person for me, you get what I'm going through like really get it and you dropped everything to come over to my house and comfort me when we just met today" "Well you and I need this, someone who understands what we're going through and to comfort and be comforted and this right here, you and me like this, in this position, speaks volumes about what you and I both need in a relationship" "Yes I agree." "Good" "So are we dating now? Cus I wana think we are when we're not and that will get in trouble and when I'm trouble, my mind and the voices won't shut up and they get louder and louder and-" Beca was cut off by Chloe kissing her on the lips. Beca was shocked at first but she melted into the kiss after a second and kissed the red-head back. Chloe pulled away and looked at Beca who still had her eyes closed and a smile on her face. "That answer your question?" "Yea" Beca said with a goofy grin platered onto her face. "Good, now go to sleep beautiful" Chloe said as she kissed Beca again, this time a short and sweet kiss. "Night Chlo" Beca said as she snuggled back into Chloe's arms and neck. 'Yea this is going to be a good thing, a good thing indeed' Beca thought as she drifted off to sleep. 'God this is crazy! What have I gotten myself into? I mean yea I like her like a lot but omg I just talked to her for the first time today! She's not running, she's not hiding, she's opening up to you Chloe. Take it and stay with her through it all.' Chloe's mind was on overdrive and Beca could feel it in her stiffness. "I'm not going to run away Chlo, you showed me what a true friend is like and I am not going to lose that by running away from you, but you gotta promise me that you're in this for the long hall okay?" "I am, and thank you." "Anytime, now let's get some sleep alright?" "Alright sweetie" "Night buddy" Simba moved a littlle and Chloe giggled. "Night Simba" She said before pulling Beca close and drifting off to sleep.