Someone to talk to

Meredith drove around and killed time for the remainder of the day. She loved Delia, but something was wrong. She needed some alone time to sort through this. She couldn't be a good wife, and now she had failed as a mother. Maybe she wasn't cut out for this. She needed Derek. She couldn't do this without him.

Meredith's favorite thing to do was to ride the ferry when she was upset. She had time to be alone and think about everything without interruption. She walked up to the deck and sat on a bench and stared out at the water. Ferries reminded her of Derek.

Meredith sat on the bench and felt the cool breeze on her face. Maybe things would work out for Derek and her. Sure, she had found out about the kiss with Rose, but he promised her it was a one-time thing. She had to have faith. She had to try and trust him.

She was waiting on him. She closed her eyes and relaxed. The Ferry calmed her. Soon she felt a pair of hands run down her arms and a pair of lips kiss her neck.

"Hey baby!" she squealed. She missed him.

"Hey Mer. I was looking for you, I'm sorry it took me so long." Derek replied.

"Its ok baby."

"Mer, I need to talk to you." Derek said, sounding unsure. Meredith could tell when Derek was nervous or anxious. It showed in his voice.

"Is everything ok, Derek?" she asked, her eyes wide with anticipation. She knew something was up. Is he leaving her? Is he not in love with her anymore?

Derek walked around and leaned down in front of her. "Meredith Grey, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to marry you, and have bunches of kids. Please do me the honor? Marry me?" he said lifting a small black velvet box.

Meredith sat speechless. A crowd had gathered, awaiting her answer. She had never expected this so soon. Is it too soon?

"Ok, yes Derek! I will marry you." She exclaimed. The crowd clapped and congratulated the newly engaged couple. He slipped the ring on her finger and twirled her around in circles. He was in love.

She couldn't do this anymore. She grabbed her purse and headed back to her car. As soon as the Ferry docked she drove towards Joe's. She was a grown woman and she couldn't even drink in her own home anymore without being questioned. She pulled into the parking lot and walked in the front door. It had been so long since she had been here. She hadn't seen Joe since he stopped by right after Delia was born.

"Hey Joe" said Meredith.

"Hey Meredith! Long time no see! How is Delia? I bet she's getting so big!" Replied Joe.

"Yeah. She's beautiful. She's looking more like her father everyday."Meredith looked away feeling awkward that she mentioned Derek.

"Where is the peanut now?" he asked, trying to change the subject.

"Lexie's watching her to give me some time to myself today. I really needed it." Meredith said.

"I understand Meredith. I hope things get better. Here's a shot on the house." He said with a smile on his face. He set a glass in front of her and helped another customer.

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Derek gathered the rest of his clothes and put them in his car. He took one last look around and headed out the door. He was a mess. He needed to talk to someone. He pulled out his cell phone.

"Hey Derek" said Mark.

"Hey Mark, are you busy tonight? I need someone to talk to." Replied Derek.

"Well, I have a few more things to finish up at the hospital, but I can meet you at Joe's in a bit." Mark suggested.

"Sounds like a plan. I'll see you in a bit." Derek said. He put his phone is his pocket. He dropped off his stuff at his hotel room and headed over to Joe's.

Derek noticed Meredith's car in the parking lot. His heart skipped a beat. He walked in the bar and quickly looked around in search of the blonde-haired woman. Nowhere to be found.

Maybe it just looked like her car. He walked over to the bar and sat down. "Scotch, just the way I like it Joe." Derek said. He looked around, still not convinced that she wasn't there.

"Hey Derek. Here ya go. Are you two ever gonna work things out? I've never seen two people more miserable than Meredith and you."

"I miss her, but I don't know how to get her back. I see her everywhere. I know I'm going crazy. I could have sworn her car was outside." Derek replied. He took a sip of his drink.

"She went to the bathroom. Why don't you talk to her?" Joe suggested. Derek looked up with hope in his eyes.

"I've tried. She won't give me a chance. She doesn't trust me." Derek said.

"Look. If you love her, you have to fight for as long as it takes. She might not trust you now but if you keep trying she might notice a change." Joe said as he walked off. Derek had to fight. He reached into his pocket to retrieve his buzzing cell.

"Hey Mark, are you almost done?" Derek asked.

"Yeah, I got pulled into emergency surgery, I'm sorry man. I'll call you in just a bit." Mark replied.

"Ok, Bye man." Derek said. He closed his phone. This is great. He decided to stay there and try and talk to Meredith.

About twenty minutes later, Derek started to get worried. He motioned for him to come over to where he was sitting at the bar.

"Joe, how long has she been in there?" he asked, an upset look on his face.

"I don't know, a while though. Maybe you should check on her, she was drinking a lot tonight." Joe said, concerned also.

Derek got up and walked around to the bathrooms. He knocked on the girl's bathroom door. Dead Silence.

"She's been in there forever!" Said a pissed off woman waiting in the hallway. Derek knocked on the door again. He was getting worried.

"Meredith if you don't open up I'm coming in there!" he yelled angrily. He continued to bang loudly. He ran down the hall and up to the bar.

"Joe, do you have a key for the bathroom? I think something's wrong with Meredith." Derek said, out of breath. He grabbed it out of Joe's hand and ran back towards the hall, pushing through people on the way.

He pushed the key into the lock and nearly stopped breathing when he saw her pale, small frame on the floor. She was unconscious and was covered in vomit. She was breathing, but it was faint. He scooped her cold body off of the floor and ran out the door, heading straight for Seattle Grace.