Hey guys. This was by far my fav. chapter I have written. This song "storm" by lifehouse means a lot to me, so i wanted to use it for the theme of this chapter. For those of you that don't know it you can go to youtube and type in storm-lifehouse. Thank you for all your reviews! They really encourage me!
Storm
How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head
"SOMEBODY HELP! PLEASE. PAGE THE CHIEF!" Derek screamed in a panic as he ran into emergency room. Everyone stopped what they were doing, in shock. One of the nurses held open the door of an exam room while Derek carried her in and set her on the gurney. "She needs an orotracheal intubation" Derek demanded.
He sat in a daze as the nurses, Dr. Bailey and the chief, Dr. Webber worked on his Meredith. "She's seizing," Bailey said in a panic. Please let her live. Please let her be ok. "Somebody get him out of here, now!" Bailey demanded. Derek couldn't be in there. He couldn't take it. One of the nurses escorted Derek into another empty room. "Will you page Dr. Sloan to this room please… " He asked the nurse calmly. "Sure Dr. Shepherd." She said as she walked towards the door and shut it behind her. All he wanted was to be with her and hold her hand. Let her know he was there. Mark had come into the room with Derek while they were working on Meredith down the hall. Mark felt bad for him, he knew that he was still in love with her.
If I could just see you
everything would be all right
if I'd see you
this darkness would turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
Meredith lay stable in her bed, but still in a coma induced from alcohol poisoning. She was hooked up to numerous tubes and machines but she was breathing without assistance. Derek walked into the room and sat next to the bed. He wasn't leaving until she was okay.
Bailey walked into the room. Her heart melted at the sight of a distraught Derek. She walked over to the foot of the bed with Meredith's chart in her hand. "She should be fine Derek, but you need to talk to her about what happened. Her blood alcohol level was a .29." She said with concern. "Okay, I will. Thank you so much for everything Miranda." He replied. She nodded her head and walked out of the room. He reached for her hand and just sat with her.
A couple of hours passed and Derek had fallen into a light sleep in the chair. He heard a moan and his eyes shot open. She was awake. She was moving. He rushed to the bed and grabbed her hand. She looked up into his eyes and their gazes locked.
She didn't know where she was. All she knew is that Derek was there, and he was holding her hand. She slowly tried to sit up but everything hurt. She was in the hospital.
"Derek, what happened?" she asked, unsure of what would come.
"You passed out at Joe's in the bathroom. You had Alcohol Poisoning." He replied, with a sad look in his blue eyes. "You almost died Mer. I almost lost you." He added hoping she would accept him back into her heart.
"Oh my god. Derek, I'm so sorry. I've failed at everything." She replied.
"You need to get help. And I want to be there for everything Mer. Our daughter needs us. Please give me a chance. I want to try again. I miss you Mer. I don't want to lose you again. I'm willing to do whatever it takes." He pleaded.
"Derek, why did you leave me in the first place?" She asked, with tears in her eyes, threatening to fall from her face.
I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface
"Mer, I don't know. I was scared. You were never home and I was alone. I hate being alone. But I swear to you that I didn't divorce you for her. I was alone for months before I started talking to her again. I know that you know I cheated, but I made a mistake. Everyday I go on without you I realize just how much I need you to breathe. I need you in everything I do. I need our daughter, our life we started. Please Mer, I will fight everyday to get you to see it. I know you think I'm the biggest ass in the world, but I want you. I'm in love with you so much my heartaches when I'm not with you. " Derek responded, shocking Meredith.
She had tears spilling down her face. She wanted him so bad. She wanted Delia to be there with him, too. He sat down in the bed and held her while she wept all of her worries away.
If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I know everything will be alright
I know everything will be alright
Meredith had cried herself to sleep. Derek didn't remember how long he had held her but it didn't matter. He had helped her feel better for a least a little bit. That all in itself was a start. She had touched him back. She had cried to him. Somehow he knew things might be all right.