Chapter Ten
I can't even look at anyone as soon as we walk inside. I know I have that 'just fucked' look on my face because Faith has that look on hers right now too. Of course, because we've been gone all night, everyone is instantly asking us a million questions about what happened to us. I bypass everyone and make my way into the kitchen for a much needed cup of coffee while they continue to bombard Faith with questions about what happened with Falken.
Satsu follows me into the kitchen and she doesn't say anything as she just watches me stand by the coffeemaker as I pour myself a cup. I look over at her and see the disappointment written across her face as she crosses her arms over her chest and lets out a heavy sigh.
"I was worried about you, Buffy."
"I'm okay," I say softly as I lean against the counter and take a tentative sip of my coffee.
"What happened last night?"
"Falken knocked us both out, held us captive for a couple hours. We got out though, obviously," I reply, irritated and not in the mood to talk to her or anyone else right now.
"You aren't hurt, are you?" Satsu asks as she steps up to me and places a soft hand on my shoulder. I shake my head no and try not to push her away from me. I can't stand to be touched by her right now, not when my body is still buzzing from the oh-so-amazing orgasm Faith gave me not even five minutes ago. "Everything okay with you? You've been acting strange the last couple of days."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"Buffy, look I know you're stressed out with Falken right now and with Faith staying here now, but I hate how it's putting this distance between us. It's never been like this before and I hate it."
"I'm sorry. I've just been distracted."
My apology sounds weak and she rolls her eyes as she takes another step closer to me. She leans in for a kiss and I back away from her, shaking my head no as I manage to slip out from between her and the counter. She's getting angry and frustrated and I really don't want to hurt her by telling her the real reason why I've grown so distant from her in the last couple of days. I know the guilt is coming off of me in waves and I know it won't be much longer until Satsu starts accusing me of doing exactly what I've been doing; fucking Faith. Twice. And possibly a hell of a lot more in the days to come.
Yeah, it's just that good with her despite the fact that I know I shouldn't be doing this and I definitely shouldn't be enjoying it as much as I am either.
I join the others in the living room, Satsu following close behind me. I know she won't leave me alone right now and I honestly don't blame her either, but I don't want to attract any attention to myself right now since the last thing I want is to be the center of attention. Something of which Faith sure doesn't mind being right now either as she tells everyone the story of being captured by Falken, detail by detail, leaving out the fact that we kissed while we were down there and then fucked out on the front porch before coming inside.
Faith is a storyteller, for sure. We all knew this since the first night we met her and the younger girls are hanging onto every word. When I look over at Giles and Rachel, they too are hanging on every word that comes out of that deliciously irresistible mouth of hers. I find myself just as drawn in as everyone else in the room and I snap out of my daze when I feel Satsu gently nudge my shoulder.
"Can we talk?" She whispers and I shake my head no, not wanting to get into any kind of discussion with her right now. "Buffy, we need to talk," she urges quietly and I shake my head no once again.
"Not now," I whisper back as she sticks out her lower lip in the most adorable pout I've ever seen. "I promise we will later, okay?"
Oh, am I ever in trouble. How can I care so much for two women and be in love with one that will never have a real relationship with me and not be in love with the one I am in a real relationship with? When did everything get so complicated? Oh, right. It started the moment I began to realize how utterly attracted I am to Faith and landed in bed with her.
I pull my head out of my ass and out of the thoughts I should not be having at a time like this and try to pay attention to Giles and the questions he's trying to ask both Faith and I about Falken. I don't know how much more Faith can tell everyone, she's practically written a book for them with all the details she's already told everyone about our little encounter with Falken.
I have the strangest feeling that sleep is so far off this morning that I'll be a walking zombie by the time I finally do fall into bed.
It's just the three of us sitting around the kitchen table, Xander and Willow and myself, and I am under completely scrutiny from both of them. I don't know how much Xander knows about what's been going on lately, but from the look in his eye and the way he keeps fiddling with his eye patch as he looks at me, I know he knows a lot more than he should. Knowing Willow, she had to have said something to him, either about what happened between Faith and I, or what has been going on between Satsu and I for the last three years.
"Why do you keep looking at me like that?" I ask him, breaking the silence between us suddenly.
"Trying to figure some things out."
"Like?" I ask, waiting for his answer, but all I get is a shrug in return as he lowers his eye and looks down at the dark green placemats on the table. "By all means, Xander, do tell me exactly what you're thinking right now. Unlike Will, I don't have the power to read your mind."
"You've been acting different," he says finally as he glances up at me. "Not that different is bad, Buff, but it's way too different for you."
"You told him, didn't you?" I ask Willow and she sheepishly shakes her head yes. "What exactly did you tell him, Will?"
"Just that you're playing on the same team now," Xander interjects, smirking as my eyes go wide in a little bit of shock and fear of how he's really taking this. He is a typical guy, but he's Xander and when it comes to the three of us, secrets are usually never kept for as long as I've kept Satsu a secret. "How'd that happen? Something inside you just click and make you go 'I think I'm attracted to Faith' or something, Buff?"
Great. Just great. I should have known that anything that happens between Faith and me was definitely not going to stay a secret for very long. I lower my head to the table, letting out a soft laugh as I shake my head, wondering how this happened, how it became about Faith when I know that it should be about Satsu. After all, I've been with Satsu for three years and I'm technically not even with Faith. Maybe I should just come out and tell him about Satsu, lay it all out on the line. It is Xander and is he one of my best friends after all.
"So, Buff," he says softly as he reaches across the table and pats my hand until I lift my head too look up at him. I can see Willow out of the corner of my eye trying not to laugh at the scene unfolding between all of us. "I know it's probably too much to ask, but, when the hell did you turn into this big lesbian who lusts after Faith and is with Satsu?"
"You know about Satsu?"
"He got it out of me," Willow says apologetically. "I'm sorry, Buffy. I know you should've been the one to tell him, but you know how Xander gets sometimes. When he wants to know something, he gives you that puppy dog look that is so hard to resist."
"How long, Buff?"
"How long what?" I ask him, knowing what he's getting at, but trying not to have this conversation at the same time. "I so didn't imagine the whole coming out thing to be like this," I mutter under my breath as I put my head back down on the table and let out a heavy sigh.
"So you are coming out? Do we throw you a party or something?" Xander asks excitedly and I laugh as I look up at him for a second and smile easily. "Seriously though, I never in a million years saw this coming. Well no, that's not true. I did see this coming. You can't live in the same house together and not see the looks you and Satsu had been giving each other all these years."
"Who else knows?" I ask them, trying to find what little strength I have in me not to break down and cry. Cry tears of happiness or something else, not sure what just now. "Guys, who else knows?"
"Everyone," Willow says under her breath. "Buffy, everyone has been talking, especially last night. It started with Veronica asking us why you have never had a boyfriend since Sunnydale and why she's never seen you go out on a date in the three years she's been living here with us. One thing led to another and the other girls started speculating that maybe you are gay and in major denial, or that you're like a nun or something."
"With everything that's going on right now, you all decided to start talking about me and my sex life? This is unbelievably stupid," I laugh as I look over at the back door as Faith walks in with Kennedy.
"What's up?" Faith asks as she sits down in the chair next to me and looks around at the others before her eyes fall upon me. "Did we just walk in on some private conversation?"
"Something like that," I reply as I try not to stare at her for more than a second. A second is too long and I find it impossible to look away. "Where did you two go?"
"Went to check up on a lead on a nest of vamps a few blocks from here."
"And?"
"And we took those fuckers out," she chuckles softly as she leans over the table and gives Kennedy a high five. "You want us to leave so you guys can finish your 'private' conversation? Were you guys talking 'bout Falken or something else?"
"Talking about Buffy's sex life," Xander blurted out and I felt my face flush a deep red as Faith stared at me and laughed a little. "Sorry, Buff."
"This is rich," Faith laughs as she winks at me. "Ain't nothing to be embarrassed about, Blondie. Although I can think of things better than talking about your sex life."
"Like?" Kennedy asks and winces slightly as Willow slaps her arm hard. "I'll just shut up now."
Faith winks at me again and I can only imagine what's going through her mind right now. Probably something along the lines of, you, me, naked, now. I shake my head, feeling the blush fade slowly as I get up from the chair and head for the back door. I need fresh air and I need to be alone right now. I can't stand sitting here and being scrutinized by my friends and by Faith. I quickly change my mind about going outside when I see Satsu and the other girls out back, lounging in the sun seemingly with a single care in the world. I ignore the looks I receive as I walk out of the kitchen and head upstairs to my room quickly.
Why I keep hoping that Faith follows me right now when I know I should probably try to get some sleep, I have no idea, but I'm pleasantly relieved when I hear her heavy footsteps coming up the stairs and towards my room a few minutes after I shut the door. She doesn't even knock and she opens the door, strolling in confidently. She shuts the door behind her and the second it clicks shut, I practically tackle her, kissing her furiously and wildly without abandon.
"Fuck," she groans as I throw her down on the bed and straddle her hips as I work my fingers under the hem of her tank top, trying to slide it off patiently without ripping it. "Remind me why we didn't figure out how hot we are for each other years ago?"
"Because we're idiots," I mumble against her lips, finding it hard not to kiss her for prolonged periods of time. I keep reminding myself that this is nothing more than a fuck between us, but with the way she's kissing me back, softly and tenderly, I kind of question the whole thing and her real motives.
There is definite passion and the fire that burns between us only intensifies as she breaks away from the kiss and pulls my shirt up and over my head. I ignore the voice inside my head telling me to stop as I finally manage to get her shirt off as well. We don't have time for this right now and it being the middle of the day, we're definitely going to be caught. Maybe that's what's getting me so excited, so turned on, is the chance of being caught by someone. Or maybe it's just her. The intensity in her eyes as we just stare at one another is smouldering and I can't quite seem to look away.
Everything running through my mind comes to a complete standstill as she dips her head down bites my nipple through my bra. I moan softly, pulling her head back up and capture her lips with mine. I inhale sharply as she bites on my lower lip as her fingers work to get me out of my jeans as quickly as she can. I want to tell her just to rip them off of me, but words fail me as she pulls back from the kiss and begins to kiss down my neck slowly. She flips us over, taking over complete control, and I'm in no position to complain as she unbuttons my jeans and begins to slide them off as she trails her lips over my collarbone and down across my bra-clad breasts.
I reach behind and unclasp my bra and she lifts her head a little too look up at me in mild surprise that I'm so willing to keep this going right now. How can I not want this? I know how she can make me feel and I know how I can make her feel. The attraction between us is growing stronger with every passing minute and neither us can fight the feelings, the urges we have to be together right now. All I can manage to think about right now is how much I want us to be naked like now.
"Do you know how fuckin' sexy you are, B?" Faith asks, her voice husky as she sits back and removes her own bra. "No, I think you know how fuckin' sexy you are, don't need me to tell ya."
I laugh softly as I reach for her belt and quickly unbuckle it as I sit up slowly. The lust in her eyes is drawing me in and I lick over my lips slowly as she stands up on the bed and quickly pulls off her jeans. I stop her from kneeling back down in front of me, smoothing my hands up her toned legs, feeling every muscle ripple under my palms. I pull down her black panties slowly, revealing her shaved sex to my hungry eyes and I lean up and dip my tongue between her folds for a quick taste before I pull her down to her knees in front of me. The only barrier between us now is my jeans that are halfway down my legs and my panties that are completely soaked right through because I'm so incredibly turned on right now.
I wriggle out of my pants as Faith pushes me back on the bed and kisses me furiously, her hands already working on pushing my panties down off my hips. As soon as I am free from the last of my clothes, she settles in between my legs and grinds her wet pussy down into mine almost forcefully. We both moan loudly and I grab onto her hips, forcing her to thrust into me harder as I wrap my legs around her waist. I can feel her heart racing as she breaks away from the kiss, sighing against my lips as she thrusts her sex hard and fast against mine.
I try to stifle my moans as she pulls away just enough to slide a hand between our bodies and her fingers trip over my aching, throbbing clit, almost making me come on the spot but I hold myself back. I'm no pillow queen, but right now I can't seem to do anything but claw at her back as she skilfully circles her fingers over my clit. I pull her in for another kiss, trying to keep us both from crying out in pleasure and drawing any kind of attention to what is really going on in here between us.
She smiles sexily at me as she pulls away from my lips and she quickly moves down between my legs, spreading them as she trails her tongue over the insides of my thighs, teasing me as she takes her fingers away from my aching clit. I grab at my sheets as she slides her tongue the length of my slit, teasing my clit for a moment before she plunges her tongue deep inside of me. My hips buck up wildly against her tongue and I can't hold myself back for much longer before one of the most intense orgasms I've ever experienced rips wildly through my entire body.
I let go of my sheets and run my fingers through her hair, urging her to stop as I feel another orgasm beginning to build. She laughs softly as she places a light kiss over my clit before she moves back up my body and kisses me lightly on the lips.
"Okay that was definitely intense," I whisper as she lays next to me and drapes an arm lazily over my stomach.
"Got a feeling it's always gonna be intense between us, B."
"So sure of yourself, aren't you?"
Faith chuckles softly, nodding her head as I run my fingers down her side and come to rest upon her hip. "Damn right I am sure of myself, B. I know I got skills and damn, you got skills too. How about putting that mouth of yours to good use right about now?"
I roll my eyes and should've known she wouldn't hold herself back this time in telling me what she wants. I push her until she's on her back and I straddle her hips, thrusting my pussy down into hers slowly as our lips meet in a slow, deep kiss. She pushes me away from her and I take the hint and make my way down her body, stopping to nibble at her warm, succulent flesh along the way. She's completely soaked when I reach the apex of her thighs and I inhale her musky scent, my head spinning and my mouth watering. I take a few tentative licks and every soft breathy moan that escapes past her lips is making me want to spend a lot more time teasing her just like this.
I moan softly against her hot, wet pussy as I circle her clit with my tongue before sucking on it gently, loving how she's squirming beneath me with every little lick. I become lost in this moment we're having together and let the rest of the world fall away as I focus just on her. I slide a finger inside of her, feeling her walls clamp down as her orgasm hits her quickly. I take that moment to suck on her inner thigh, marking her as mine before I move up her body and lay on top of her, feeling her heart race in time to my own.
After we bask in the afterglow together for a few short minutes, she gives me a quick kiss before she slips out of bed and begins to get dressed. I want to ask her to stay here with me, hold me for a little while longer, but she won't. I know she won't.
"We gonna hook up later, B?"
"For patrol?"
"Yeah, and for a little more of this," she chuckles as she walks over to me and leans down for another quick kiss. "Later, B."
I sigh as I lay there and watch her walk out of the room and quickly shut the door behind her. I try not to feel like a complete whore as I pull myself out of bed and slowly get dressed. The timing is all wrong right now and I should be focused on Falken and not with whatever is happening between us.