I spent the entire summer in bed. With a cast on. On top of that Mr. Shaffer is transferring to the high school and I have him in both of my alternating days. Strangely, though I have all my classes with Axel that makes it all ok. It's the third day of school, were walking through the halls, Axel had gotten taller, a lot, taller. Stronger too, I and to his chest now! I can see his biceps are stronger too, as well as his abs. I tug on my turtle neck, I am dyeing of heat but I keep it on. I don't want to go back into foster care, and risk never seeing Axel again. We walk in the halls. He sighs deeply.
"we can't be friends anymore" he said quickly.
"What?" I whimper because my voice isn't strong enough to demand.
"You're dragging my down. No one will want to be my friend at this rate. Then no one will remember me. And I will die alone, like you"
My heart slams to my stomach I can't find my words. I can't see and I don't know why. But I see him walk off and hot tears stream down my face. I swallow hard and look down. Then manage an "ok" for no one.
**one week later**
He changed classes. All of them. Lunches too. If I go to the meadow. He leaves.
***Axel***
He paid me. Threatened me. Everything. Nothing worked, how could it? She is my best friend. Then he said something that got to me. "You're dragging her down." He said "Leave her; make sure she doesn't fallow you. You will never be good enough for her"
So I left. I ran because, if I didn't. She would never be who she truly is, that is the worst.
******Six months later******
Pain. Suffer. Die inside. Repeat. Pain. Suffer. Die inside. Repeat. Pain. Suffer. Die inside. Repeat. Pain. Suffer. Die inside. Repeat. That is my life. I walk to the cafeteria get my food and go to the corner. A Football player, Gorge, slams the food in my face. I do nothing, stoned face. Axel comes around the corner, and slams his fist in the boys arms. "Don't you do that again" he snarled.
Gorge is knocked down clinging to his arm. We find out latter it is broken; we are called to the office. We don't get in trouble. And just like that, we are friends again.
I get a letter in the mail. Unmarked labeled to me.
I look at it. No return address. So strange, so inviting. I play out several scenarios. It's my birth parents, telling me their taking me away from all this.
A secret admire?
Someone sending me money to brake free.
Maybe it's from myself from the future. Telling me not to give up hope!
I can't bring myself to open it. The lust for hope outweighs my curiosity which is extremely strong I can assure you. I sit in my room for hours holding it, feeling it, enjoying my own little hope of a future, which someone cares still. That I still matter.
Then almost as if it isn't my own actions that open the letter. I put my finger under the flap and tear open. The letter is written in ink. Real ink and a feather. My eyes scan the page once. Twice then a third time.
Dear, Mervil.
Nothing is as it seems, you and your friend Axel were chosen by fate for the life's you lead. However, you control your lives. Hold the reigns. Decipher for yourself good to evil. Right to Wrong. Let nothing in your path sway you. Soon, your lives will take a tragic turn for the worse. You will be alone , I am afraid that is all I can divulge at this point in time. At times people will try to make you think. Do not, under any circumstances let them. You think for yourselves. If anyone tells you, you do not have this, or will never understand, that, because you will and do. Hindsight is fifty/ fifty. Please. Do not forget about this letter. Two paths lay ahead of you. Neither are right, nor are they wrong. Will power is the only way to choose the two. Do not forget your powers. Develop them. Make them strong. Your powers are like a mussel. If you don't use it, it could come to pass that it will kill you.
How did they know about my mind control? Fear Rises in me, the feeling of death weighed heavy on my shoulders.
When you develop another gift, you will know when the times comes. Keep it a secret.
Your parents would be proud of you, as am I and the king, we see promise in your eyes.
Much love and Protection
Y.S.
Y. S. Who is that? I stick the letter under the floor board and sit on my bed and wait for James to let me out. Hunger and Thirst are all I can concentrate on right now.
************ one year latter************
Axel has been missing for a month now. It's my entire fault. I'm sat on the bench waiting for my math/English Teacher/Guidance Counselor to come out and talk to me. He sent me her. I assume its news on Axel. This is my entire fault tears fall down my face and I nearly shake with sorrow. If he is dead it is entirely because of me. He walked out sitting on the bench near me.
"Mervil" he sighed "we just got news on Axel"
"good?" my voice is small.
"He drowned in the river some time ago" he sighed
I run way sobbing, he calls after me but I don't care anymore.
***********a few days latter****************As I walk thru the dusty, forgotten wing of the school, bittersweet memory's, of a fallen friend, fill my mind, it was here, I was told, never more would he walk the halls of school. Two days ago, I had gotten a letter to meet her, no name, no return address, just a odd, symbol. So like any smart young girl would, I went, alone, on a Saturday, no phone. I had instructions not to and my parents thinking I am sleeping. I sit in the bench I had been told to sit at, and waited. I bite my lip, it was my fault. I thought, it was my entire fault, he had gone missing, he had this crazy idea, that he had no heart, and wanted to join something that sounds like a cult. I told him it was mad and he ran off, that was the last I ever saw him. I laugh as I recall the time, he had wanted to get out of class, he (okay and I) hadn't studied for a test, he(and I ) had been to busy setting random stuff a fame and willing others to give us money for sweets, just by using our minds. A portal opens then and a hooded figure, dressed all in black, steps out
"Mervil, Mervil I thought you were smarter then this" a all too familiar voice said
"W-w-who are you?!" I demand, trying to sound brave
"You still have that cute little stutter when you're scared" he says. "It's too bad, you coming and all, now you have to join the cult, like it or not" he says
"Axel" I ask, wanting to, but not believing it
The hood drops and my suspicions are in fact confirmed "the one and only" he says "I just, you were so smart, what happened?" he asked, I can tell he is sad
"I am still smart!" I growl
"Smart girls; don't meet strangers anywhere at midnight Merv." He says
"What are you doing here, you mother and father think you are dead, I thought you were dead, you don't just disappear in mid air." I say
He chuckles, he is amused. "You never, talked like a kid did you?" he says " you are a nobody, you went supposed to exists you don't have a heart, and you are join the Organization, like it or not" he grabs my wrist and holds it tight.
"Let go!" I cry, my wrist hurting badly "Please Axel, please." I beg
"I'm sorry" his grip tightens and he starts to pull me to a portal " I really wish you didn't have to get involved with these people, their bad news" he sighs
"Then let me go!" I cry desperately
"Mervil, calm yourself" he says and pulls me thru the portal.
"Superior, I have fetched her" he says softly
" good" the man says " now your memories will be erased do not struggle" he says putting his hand on my forehead, I don't let him , I lock my memory's tightly, they are mine. How long I struggled for, I don't know, how many kind, soft words did Axel say to get me to let him, how many foul curses did the man say, I lost count, but after a while, I am losing my grip, but he pulls out a siring and injects it in me, instantly I go limp, I cant feel anything I cant see or talk but I can hear, and there is a slight pleasant feeling, rushing over me, telling me 'Its ok, Axel wont let anything happen'
"What did you do?!" Axel demands
" Testing her" he says
"will she be ok?!" he asks concerned
" I doubt it, but we will know if she does wake in three days." He says
" then what?!" Axel cuts him off
" she dyes, and she was not good for us" he says matter-of-factly
Then the world goes away and I fall into a sea, of blissful, yet frightening nothingness.
I wake up a day later, I still have my memory's, but now I am a slave to the man, Axel refers to as Xemnas, I hate it. I hate him, but I try to seem happy in front of Axel, I don't want to make him feel any worse about the matter then I'm sure he is