Me- I said I was sorry

Jeh-kun- I don't really care! Now I said type

Me- It's against the law to hold people hostages you know.

Jeh-kun- Do I have to say it again: I DON"T CARE!

Sky- do as she says please?

Anne- Yeah please?

Me- fine! Thought will be in bold, writing will be in italics, and transition will be underlined. Same thing as I've been saying for the past whatever chapters this thing is.

Chapter five

The Journal of Her Life Unfolds

Part One

The group followed Kyo home in silence and when they reached the door they all sat down, each in their own thoughts about the events.

Uo-

I can't believe it…Tohru why? And Kyo…he seems to be suffering Tohru…

Kisa-

Sissy what happened? Kyo is sorry for what happened. We need you sissy…

Hiro-

Damn it TOHRU! This is your fault! Kisa is upset! I'm upset! Arrg! Come back damn it!

Momiji-

Aww Tohru Kyo said sorry…but that's not all is it? And the key…were is it? Please Tohru's mutti help us, save your daughter.

Haru-

I'm trying really hard to understand! Trying really hard not to loose it! Tohru when you said that to Kyo I wanted to loose it on both of you. Kyo you should have ran after her…Tohru you shouldn't have did that…this to us! Why must things be like this? Why?

Yuki-

Kyo I never knew you suffered this much…I'm sorry so very sorry. That must have been hard for you. Tohru I didn't know how much pain you went through but we won't give up!

Kyo-

Tohru damn it! I'm sorry please forgive me! Kyoko forgive me! Help me! I need help! Oh Tohru come home!

The door opened causing everyone to jump. Kyo ran to the hallway followed by the rest of the group and he shouted, "Tohru!" but alas it was only Shigure standing in the door way with Ayame, Hatori, Rin, and Kagura.

"Aw isn't that sweet...Kyo thinks I was his beloved Tohru. I feel as pretty as a young sweet innocent flower from heaven!" Shigure went over to Kyo and rubbed his finger under his chin.

Kyo made a fist with his hands at his side while Yuki and the others were trying to get Hatori's attention, "Shigure you better stop. Something tells me that-"

But Shigure wasn't listening but stopped to look around the room, "Speaking of flowers from heaven where's ours?"

"THAT'S IT!" Kyo finally lost it. All his built up aggravation and frustration just came out on the dog of the zodiac. Before anyone of them could react Kyo had Shigure off his feet and pined against the wall with one of his hands around the dog's throat. Yuki, Haru, Hatori and Ayame tried to get Kyo to let go but to no avail. Kyo just managed to throw them off. Then he began to speak to Shigure in a tone of voice that could never be suspected to be his and everyone listened, "Listen here you fucking pile of shit. Don't you ever call her that again! You want to know where she is. Do you?! She's gone! Tohru is gone! She suffered hell and now she's practically living in it! Embracing it! And you have the nerve to come in here and act like a scum bag that you are! I am about this close," Kyo took his free hand and held his pointer and thumb about a millimeter apart, "To taking these beads," He shook his free hand that had the red and white beads on them, "To ripping them off and tearing you apart! And guess what? I can give a damn if they," He pointed to Uo and Hana, "see me! Now do we have an understanding?" Shigure saw Kyo's eyes flash and he managed a slight nod and Kyo through him on the floor. Ayame and Hatori helped Shigure up and Hatori looked at his throat, "You're going to have a mark for awhile but you'll live." Hatori concluded

"Kyo you didn't have to do that." Yuki said to his cousin

"Oh so you're defending the bastard are you?" Kyo asked turning him

"No I'm not but-"

"But what?! He has no right to call her that especially Tohru's not here to say something!" Kyo said angrily

"Since when has she ever damn it!" Yuki shouted back.

"Maybe she would now!"

"Oh yeah and lets her bring a switch blade into the house and a lead pipe why don't we and have him beat to death!"

Uo, Hana, Kisa, Haru, Rin, Momiji, Hiro, Kagura, Hatori, Ayame, and Shigure backed up way from the fighting rat and cat and Rin, Kagura, Ayame, Hatori, and Shigure turned to the rest of the group and said at the same time, "What the hell is going on here?"

"Come on and we'll explain." Haru said as they stepped into the living room.

After a few minutes of explaining what happened in the past forty-eight hours they sat in silence. Yuki and Kyo came back into the room but both of them looked ashamed. Rin was the first to speak, "So I guess this is it then huh?" the group looked at her and she continued, "For us I mean."

"I won't believe it." Kagura said, "I won't I mean there has to be some clue right? I mean as to finding out what the cause of this is?"

"Yeah but there's no key." Kyo spoke up as he pulled the black book out of his pocket, "See?" He handed the book to Kagura and she took it.

"We tried to find it behind the thing that means most to her but we couldn't find the picture of her mom so…" Momiji shrugged.

Rin took the book from Kagura and looked at it and a memory came to her:

Why are you trying to break the curse?

Because I want to end the pain for you and everyone!

Tell me: who do you care most about in your life?

That's easy I care about-

"Kyo…" Rin said in a thought sort of way

"What?" Kyo answered. But when she didn't answer he asked again, "What?!"

Rin looked at Kyo and stood up and tossed the book at him, "Don't you get it?! You're the answer! She use to care more about her mother than anything else but then that changed to you."

Everyone looked at him and realization came to their faces. Haru thought back to the second tattoo on her back:

What's with the cat tattoo?

Lost love…but don't worry about that.

"She right Kyo." Haru said

Momiji thought back to her room, "I think I might've seen a picture of something in her room with of you Kyo! Come on!" He hopped off the couch and they ran up stairs.

With in a few minutes they found a picture of Kyo with Tohru in a field of flowers, "Hey who took this picture? I thought for sure I wasn't being followed?" He looked at Shigure.

"Sorry but Tohru asked me and I couldn't resist." He replied

"Well at least you were useful for something." Kyo looked at it and thought, I will get you to be yourself again. With a sigh he slid the frame open and placed a picture on the desk but no key, "Damn it!"

"Oh well, did you give her anything for her birthday or Christmas maybe? White day?" Momiji asked

Kyo tried to think as he paced the room. He stopped and looked around then he saw it, the cat change holder. He had given it to her as a thank you that she accepted him in his monster form. That she didn't abandon him. He knew at the time that this was a cheap gift but inside he placed an IOU for something even better when he had more money to do something fun of her choosing. He went over to it and sure enough he pulled out a little gold key. With a shaking hand he took the book from Kisa and everyone circled around him as he fitted the key into the lock. The lock clicked open and sure enough the book cover was loose.

"I say we go down stairs and read it! What do you say?" Haru asked relived.

Everyone was too relieved to say anything but they went down stairs back to the living room.

Once they were settled Kyo began to readout loud. Once he started they heard his voice but then his voice changed into to Tohru's as he read to them:

The story of my life

Entry One

My name is Tohru, I am an orphan. Since the day of my father's death my mom abandoned me for about two weeks. Can you believe it! Here I am four years old and she abandons a four year old to fend for herself! My grandpa said that she was really sad. Bull shit! Like I said I may have been four but not stupid! I came to a conclusion: She was sad because I didn't resemble him and that he was calling her to come to him.

So I decided to snap her out of it and start to talk like him. It seemed to work so I kept up the act of talking nice and polite. But really that was it; just an act. Because of that incident thirteen years ago a box was created to keep all the pain I suffered in it. It lies in my heart. Deep with in my soul.

But that box grew extremely on May first when my mother was in a car accident. I wasn't really sad through! Angry were more of the lines to the right path! That bitch lied to me! Said that I would never be alone! On her grave sight I was pronounced an orphan since my family didn't want me. My grandpa took me but I knew deep down it was out of pity and guilt. There was a voice that said I didn't need anyone. Being alone was much better. But unfortunately old habits are hard to break. I'd fallen into a pit of my own world. Reality slipped into hopeless optimism. So I had no other choice than to continue to be like the world was all peaches and cream.

After a few months through I had to leave my grandpa's house because he was remodeling the thing. My aunt and her kids were coming to live with him. But if you ask me they are going to take advantage of him for something just you wait.

Kyo stopped reading and looked at the group. Uo was first to revive out of thought, "Why'd you stop?"

"Because I wanted to let you know that that was the first entry in this thing and to know whether I should continue."

"DUH! We didn't spend hours trying to find the damn key for nothing!"

"Ok, here we go." Kyo said.

Entry Two

Let's review the facts shall we:

A. I was abandoned on my lying bitch of a mother's grave site

B. My ass of an aunt decides that she's moving in with me and my grandfather so I get to live in the woods (oh sorry for not updating but yeah that's what happened)

C. When I think that things are looking up (no that's not the optimism talking) I get to live with the Sohma family: Kyo, Yuki, and Shigure in their house I have to go back to my grandfathers

Well I'm back with the Sohmas but let me tell you what happened at my grandfather's house and why I'm writing:

So I get there and unpack when my aunt wants me down stairs. Ok fine nothing wrong with that right? Well I get down there and come to find that she hired a private detective to SPY on me! Can you believe it! And her daughter was all surprised and I think she was a little jealous because I was living with three unmarried men. But come on! What the hell?! And let me remind you she was the one who said that she had no room in her house to take me in on the grave sight remember! So if she was that worried then why didn't she realize that I was living in the damn woods! I mean if you didn't care to take me in your house in the first place what is the point in hiring a detective?!

Well my cousin who actually wants to be a detective asked if the guys did anything but my grandpa slapped him and started to say that I didn't have to stay there with him. And I started to break down. But why? Was I really upset when he started to mention my mother and father? But Yuki and Kyo to my surprise came and got me out of there.

Well outside Kyo was a little mad that I didn't speak up in the first place. But then he started to comfort me when I started to cry again…he's so sweet. I sometimes over hear that I'm softening their families hearts…but I think the opposite; their softening mine also.

"Wow talk about your life in a nutshell," Haru said

"Yeah of she publishes this thing it could win a noble prize for emotion." Hiro said

"This is no time for jokes Hiro," Kisa said, "Sissy is probably somewhere hurting! Kyo can you continue please?"

Kyo nodded and read some more:

Entry Three

Well yesterday was May first and to celebrate Uo, Hana, Yuki, and Kyo and I went to my mother's grave and had a picnic. It made me realize how stupid I been at the hospital, being angry. So I was really upset with guilt. It was my fault that she died. Even through I was acting all polite just to get her attention so she wouldn't be sad and leave me alone again I still meant what I said to her every morning: Come back safe.

Why couldn't I have said that? Just because of a stupid test that I studied all night for…why? Even though I was still mad after she died I still wanted to graduate for her. Was it because I owed her so much? Was it out of guilt that I push myself so hard that I make myself sick? So I can feel the pain she went through to support the both of us? I don't get it. Why did I have to be like this? Prentending to be something I'm not. Happy...what is the meaning of the word anyways? Kyo is seeing right through me sometimes...how does he do that? I guess I'll never know. But I have a question that I might ask him later: why did I sense regret from him when we visited mom's grave? He didn't do anything wrong. He wouldn't even look at me eithier. did I do something wrong? I guess I do cause people pain...what am I going to do?

Kyo stopped reading and said, "That's the end of the entry...and this is all my fault."

"No it's not." Yuki said looking at his distraught cousin

"Let's take a break for a while. How does that sound?" Shigure said

The group nodded and Kagura went into the kitchen followed by Kisa, Uo, and Hana. Yuki wnet upstairs into his room with Haru and Hiro. Shigure, Hatori, and Ayame went into Shigure's office. Kyo just sat on the floor where they left him flipping through the book thinking: Where did you go Tohru? How can I make things right again? Please Kyoko help us...help me.

A/n:

Hey hey! So sorry this took to long but here is chapter five! please R&R and thanks for reading! And be ready for chapter six: The Journal of Her Life Unfolds Part Two!