Hey hey! Ok now that we have reached the tail end of Tohru's little tail I just wanted to let you know that there will be MAJOR SPOILERS! So happy reading. Flash backs will be in bold now and in Tohru's POV!

Chapter Nine

Unhappy Endings

The Questions are answered

I can still remember it clear as day. It was breakfast time and my mom was in a happy mood until the dreaded phone call. It got silent and before I knew it we were out of the house.

I didn't fully comprehend what was going on but I understood most of it. My father's cold had gotten worse and when one of his co-workers found him he had died. We were at his funeral and my mother was devastated beyond belief. I can still remember what my relatives had said to us that day. They had said that my mother was neglectful and that she was using him as a toy.

After my father was burned we had to go to his office and she had a full blown melt down but that only got worse when we went back home.

It was the first time my grandfather on my mother's side called the house. I didn't know what he was saying but my mom's voice sound horrible almost in a trans type deal. I forget exactly what she had said but whatever it was; it made her slam the receiver down.

That is the last time I saw her talk. She was broken. Broken in spirit; to put it straight forward she was a shadow of her former self. At times she didn't even come home and I was left to fend for myself. But one day she got up and left saying she was going to go to my father to meet him again. That's when I knew I had to do something.

I thought back to the funeral…some of my relatives had said that I don't resemble my father and because of that I wouldn't be of any comfort to my mother. My grandfather wasn't any help the last time I had asked him questions. So I took matters into my own hands and began to talk like him.

I understood from the time I created the illusion that it was a lie. I knew that my relatives were right that there was no resemblance at all between me and my father. I thought that if he was playing an evil game trying to get to my mother then I could do the same thing.

I sat in front of the door waiting for her. It felt like hours before she would arrive. So I fell asleep waiting. Then out of nowhere the door flew open and I saw her. She was panting and she tried to say something but I said something my dad would've, "Welcome Home." So she flew herself on me and hugged me to death saying sorry over and over. I had beaten my dad at his own game.

End flashback-

"So you did that…all this because you wanted your mother to stay?" Hiro asked quietly

"Yes." I couldn't believe that I said that word so easily so simply.

"Why?" Uo asked

"I had already explained that."

"But enlighten us more." Hana said

The Sohmas leaned forward a little bit and looked at me. Their faces telling me to go on…begging me.

I sighed, "Because I didn't want to be left behind. I wanted to reassure myself that I would do anything. So I easily used my father as a scapegoat; as a villain. I would've broken any promise just as long as I wouldn't be alone. It was a very selfish thing and very stupid," My breathing became shallow for some reason but I fought to make it look like nothing but when I did my ribs started to hurt again, "After she came in the door she promised never to leave me. Only for work she said. And I was perfectly fine with that. I had her back she acknowledged my existence and that's all I wanted," I closed my eyes and for a moment I felt like their presence; my mother and father watching me. I saw their faces and they were pleading as if to say sorry. I opened them again, "At least until May 1st."

Flashback-

I had a test to study for the pervious night but unfortunately I studied all night and over slept. I never said be safe. A teacher came in the room and called me out and then we took off. I didn't even realize that Uo and Hana were following me.

When we arrived at the hospital they had told me that she died in a traffic accident. The truck didn't stop and she spun out and it was too late for her to hit the brakes. So I was left alone…

My 'family' if you want to call them well they argued but not in a good way. They didn't want me…they made up excuses and they wanted me to get married! They were willing to give me to a total strange instead of just taking me in.

Well it was finally decided that I would stay at my Grandfather's house. And I said that I would take care of my own education and living expenses. Four months later my Grandfather decided to renovate the house because my aunt decided to live with us so he was going to stay with her until the renovation was completed. And that was when I decided to live in a tent…

End Flashback-

"I still can't believe you did that. Why didn't you just ask us?" Uo asked

"I wouldn't have mined you living with us." Hana replied

"Because I didn't want to be a burden and besides after I moved into the tent I too became broken." I looked away and the tears I held in I couldn't hold in anymore, "I was alone. My mom was gone. I fell into his trap."

"Whose?" Momiji asked putting his bunny head on my chin, "Whose trap Tohru?"

"My dad's, it was so easy that over time I still blamed him. I fell into my own trap with the polite talk; the mimicking became second nature like riding a bike. But he was just buying time. I thought that he wanted me to stay up all night worrying about studying. This test that I stayed up for counted so much that if I failed then I failed the class. So I thought that he must've put something in my head that would make me stay up all night for and that I would have to over sleep and that he would cause the accident and he would win.

"Well I was so broken that I don't know what I would do. I was alone and depressed. I became a stranger to myself. There were times that I thought about going to them. Each passing blessed day I played the naïve, innocent, bubble-headed, happy go lucky girl just to hide the fact as to what I did at night."

"But you seemed so fine in the day." Uo replied

I stood up so suddenly that Momiji fell off and he took his cloths and ran out of the room and Kisa jumped and Kyo ran forward to try to sit me back down, "DON'T YOU GET IT?! IT WAS AN ACT! A-C-T! ACT!" Uo sat stunned and no one else said a word.

"But you acted all peaches and cream. That was your fault." Hiro finally pointed out.

"I think I get that duh! I made that illusion I might as well be a creator of my own little world! Just call me God and be done with it!" I tried to stand up straighter and then a sharp pain went through my body and I quickly grabbed hold of the nearest thing which was Kyo who steady me, "Thanks," I said

"No problem but calm down ok?" Kyo asked

"Yeah sure, sorry Arisa I don't know what happened."

"No problem. So what did you do at night?"

I sat back down as soon as Momiji came back in the room and he sat next to Kisa on the couch.

"I did this kind of stuff that I was doing in the past few days. I got involved in some bad people and well you could see were it landed me in," I ran my uninjured hand through my blonde with blood red highlighted hair, "Basically to sum it up Uo can explain the kind of trouble that occurred."

"Wait are you trying to say that you got mixed up with scum that I got mixed up in?" Uo asked sitting up.

"Yes but the only reason I managed to hide it from you was because that the hair color I have now was originally a wig. This is not a wig now." I ran my fingers through my hair again as they stared in awe.

"So you did gang stuff and what not?" Kyo asked

"Yes I did. That was at night…but at school I played the care free innocent piece of work. Playing up on my mother's wish for me to graduate from high school."

"Do you still want to graduate sissy?" Kisa asked

I thought for a moment. Do I still want to? I dropped out the morning after my grandfather died figuring what's the point. Did I want to still live this kind of life?

"Miss Honda?" Yuki's voice broke my train of thought

"What?" I asked trying to shake myself out of the revere

"Do you still want to graduate?" He repeated the question

"I don't know anymore…" I said

"Oh…" Kisa said sadly, "What will you do sissy?"

"I don't know to be honest."

"Well can you finish your story?" Hiro asked

"What else do you want to know? Basically everyone knows what happened and how Yuki and Shigure found me in the tent." I had mildly surprised that he was able to keep his tone light

"I am curious as to what made you snap when your grandfather died. And also the fact how you give advise to people about how you should appreciate things in life and well…" I could see that Hiro was choosing his words carefully.

"Go ahead and say it." I said

"You want me to say what I'm thinking?" He asked a little surprised

"Yes if you want then I'll say it for you." I replied with a smile

"No you go ahead." He offered

"What are you two saying?" Uo asked and the rest of the Sohmas looked at us

"What Hiro is getting at is that I'm a hypocrite." I replied

"HIRO!" They shouted

"What she said it not me!" He replied looking frustrated

"Don't think that about sissy!" Kisa said

"Kisa its ok," I started

"No Tohru it is not ok!" Kyo shouted

"Kyo," I said in a warning tone and gave him a look, "I said its ok because it's true. I am a hypocrite and the proof is sitting in front of your face. In fact what happened in the past few days is true."

Kyo bowed his head and the rest of the Sohmas went quite. Uo and Hana looked at me and Kagura spoke for the first time, "Would you mind telling us what happened leading up to now?"

I sighed and looked at her and said, "That's why I came back. Not only to say that the journal was bogus at least most of it was. But to unveil the contents of the box in my heart."

"Box?" They said at the same time and just stared at me.

"Can we see it?" Kisa asked innocently making me wish that I was that innocent again. She came over and sat on my lap and carefully hugged me and I hugged her back. I could've sworn that I saw the Sohmas smile at the two of us, "I'm sorry Kisa but I did show it to you. Something that you shouldn't have seen me act or do for that matter."

"When did you show me?" Kisa asked

"The day that you first seen me after my grandfather died. And you got a sneak peak when my bitc- I mean my aunt called."

"Ok Tohru one: nice save," Uo said and I smiled weakly and she continued, "Cat boy and Prince already explained that to us but please tell us everything the day your grandpa died up to now."

I nodded and began the story once more, "I will tell you everything from the time of how the day started to the time I sit before you now…My thoughts and feelings will be included as well."

"How does this relate to your parents story?" Hiro asked

"I told you before our stories don't start with our birth but with our parents. Their actions and the things they did influence what we become. In other words destiny."

I began the final part of this unhappy ending as I did I fought to keep the pain done and fought the need to cry but it was becoming a losing battle.

Flashback-

I had a nightmare the previous night and a demon sent me into isolation because of all the crimes I committed. The charges that were brought against me were the fact that I caused my mothers death and the pain that the Sohma family has suffered since I moved into Shigure's house. The demon was the feeling of Blame the first of my many demons that was trapped in the box since the time of my own abandonment when my mother fell into her depression. Then the demon of Worry brought forth a premonition of my Grandfather's house being burned down and him coming out on a stretcher.

After falling into the pit I woke up into a panic and called his house to fine that he was ok. We decided that I would stop by to visit since I hadn't seen him in a while but that wasn't meant to be.

Even though after the talk with my Grandfather I still couldn't shake the feeling of blame and worry and for some reason I had many of these nightmares; each one getting worse and worse with each passing day. I didn't know what was causing them. It was as if my box was breaking.

Well it was finally lunch time when a teacher came bursting in saying to turn on the television. What I saw I couldn't believe…it was the premonition was coming true. I didn't believe it until the announcer said the street address: 452 Cherry Blossom Drive; my Grandfather's house.

As soon as I asked the teacher if what I heard was correct I bolted to the door. I was being restrained by Arisa and Hana. The classroom was in an uproar and I tried to throw them off of me. It was then that for a split second the demon of Anger took over that I succeeded at ran out of the building.

I wasn't aware that Yuki, Kyo, Arisa, and Hana were following me all I wanted to focus on was to get to the house in time and try to save him…but when I got there it was too late.

Just like in my dream I saw him come out on the stretcher…the fire chief let me by the blockade and I ran to my Grandfather pleading while crying on his chest not to leave me hoping for dear mercy that he would revive…praying that he was hearing me. But I felt the chief's hand on my shoulder as he said that he threw his back out and got trapped under the beam…and they were too late to save him.

I was only vaguely aware of Kyo leading me back to the house. It was when I was drinking the warm tea that Kyo gave me that the truth hit home…I was finally alone. No dad, no mom, no grandpa, and no family to speak of. I doubt anyone on my mother's side of the family knew I existed or was still alive for that matter.

When the others arrived I got a phone call from my 'aunt' that moved to America with my cousin that wanted to be a detective. And well that was the final straw…

It turns out that she only wanted the Will and the only reason that she moved in was to make sure that I wouldn't steal it. The nerve of her to say such things! We got in the fight about my mother and that she had screwed tons of men before she was with my dad and that I would do the same thing…in other words be the Red Butterfly. I told her I could be five times worse than what Kyoko ever was…she said that she would have child services came and bring me too her. But in order to do that she would have to have parental authority well I told her she could go burn in hell because she had no authority. My exact words to her were: I would show her as much authority as I show the ground which I spit on. And that I deemed myself an orphan as of 12:30pm when grandpa came out of that burning house.

Well after that I got off the phone and ran away. The demon of Anger took over again and told me to go to my old house and break in. Well I did and it told me to look for a box. Well after a while I got aggravated and I took the nearest thing and chucked it at the wall which was my mother's picture. I used my anger to find what I was looking for…my mother's past or should I say the Red Butterfly's past. I took the contents and left the house…the voice vanished and I was off to start a new life. And it was all thanks to my lovely aunt to cut the thread that kept me in control.

End Flashback-

"What exactly are these demons?" Hatori asked

"It's feelings I guess…I don't know really…" I said trying to keep in control of my tears

"Oh," He replied

"So these 'demons' formed when you were four years old?" Hiro asked

"Yes. Fear, Anger, Abandonment all formed when my mother went into depression. I kept this box shut for so long that I guess it just decided to burst. In fact it might've started to open when…" I thought back to the past few months…then it hit me, "Thats right! Rin you did it!" I said pointing to Rin

"What the hell?! What did I do?!" she asked astounded

"Remember when you asked me that question: 'Who means the most to me?' I would've answered my mother. But then I couldn't…I had that nightmare were I could've saved her to warn her but I couldn't. Blame and guilt came back. That's what started it I think but I don't know…Now I know the answer. And it's very simple. He's in this room. The cat of the zodiac Kyo." I tried to get up but Kyo got up and tried to sit me back down, "Hello you're injured remember?"

"I just wanted to take this stupid jacket off because it's a tad bit hot in here." I answered innocently

He shook his head and carefully turned me around. I could feel the heavy leather jacket come off my uninjured arm and he then carefully twisted me back so that I now faced him and he slid the rest off my injured arm and I smiled and took him by surprised by kissing him on the lips. I could feel the eyes of every person in the room on us but I didn't care. Right now the only person keeping me here in the room right now was him, Kyo.

Kyo's POV-

Huh? What's going on? I-I thought she hated my guts for what happened. Oh yeah that's right she apologized and all but this was unexpected.

Tohru's POV-

I felt him relax and kissed me back if heaven was like this then I say I died after the blows to the head or maybe all of this was some kind of dream, hopefully these past few days was a dream. Out of no where a flash went off causing me and Kyo to jump and we turned to see Shigure holding a camera laughing his ass off, "I couldn't help myself! That was too good! This is great dirt." I could see Kyo was fuming; everyone else was standing back away from Shigure and Kyo, "YOU STUPID PERVERTED DOG! WHAT THE HELL!"

I couldn't help myself but laugh too. Everyone took their eyes off of Shigure and Kyo now turned to me. Kyo immediately turned to me as I tried to steady myself. Sure my ribs were broken and hurting like hell but I didn't care. I felt great as if a heavy burden was almost gone.

"Tohru you ok there?' Kyo asked quietly

"Never better Kyo…never better." He steadied me back into my seat and everyone else came back over, "If you don't mind would finish the story?" Hiro asked

"Sure no problem it's not that long now," I squeezed Kyo's hand, "But then you have to tell me what happened here."

Flashback-

The first thing I had to do was to drop out of school and I took care of that. It was so easy too. Wouldn't you believe that after years of never being heard from that the name could still cause fear in people.

Well after that I started to walk to a parlor to get a little memento. That's when I bumped into Kyo, Yuki, Arisa, and Hana. Then a few minutes later Kisa, Hiro, Haru, and Momiji.

You guys tried to convince me to come back home and talk but I wouldn't listen. Arisa tried by force but needless to say she failed. So I gave a warning and went off.

After the tattoos I decided to look for a different job and found one at the club near my house. So I wanted to try it out…plan B was to go to Kyoto and look there.

"Pause rewind and freeze…you were going to go as far as to Kyoto just to try and escape from yourself?" Arisa asked

"Ok even that I have argue with you." Hana said

"Hey I told you I was sick of the charade and I wanted it to end. I was already going off the deep end why not take it all the way." I shrugged my shoulders gently to show my point, "Besides that was plan B anyway…plan C was to escape the country completely and go somewhere else."

"Were would you go sissy?" Kisa asked

"I don't know. Wonder around here and there. See the sites and what not. If I got bored cause mayhem and chaos. The works."

"That is the most idiotic idea that was ever thought of!" Hiro, Arisa, and Kyo shouted at me.

"Hey my choice not yours." I said

"She does have a point. Even though I can't picture our precious innocent flower of happiness and joy causing mass mayhem and chaos." Was Shigure's comment

"HOW MANY-" I put a hand over Kyo's mouth and winked at him. He nodded and I took my hand off and whispered to Kyo so that only he could hear, "I can handle this."

And to Shigure, "Who honestly says I'm innocent? Compared to me and Kisa on a scale of one to ten Kisa beats me by a million to zip. I haven't been innocent since the day my mother died and who knows what I've been up to since you found me in a tent."

"What are you implying?" He asked me blushing a little bit and I could see his nose was about to bleed.

I got up and limped over to him and whispered so that only he could here, "This and that and a little more of that. Flowed by a tad bit more seduction. I guess when you listened to the phone conversation my aunt was right. But not to the extent that my mother did." I turned to sit back down and when I did I smiled angelically to him and he fell backwards off his seat; his nose bleeding like a faucet.

Hatori looked down and said, "He'll be fine."

"What did you say to him?" Kyo asked astounded

"Oh nothing much besides a taste of his own perverted medicine." I replied and when I saw his confused face I added, "In other words I gave him something to actually think about."

Kyo looked at me funny and then realization dawned on him, "Tohru!"

"What I didn't do anything jeeze get the head out of the gutter." I said playfully slapping him.

"So you didn't."

"No"

"You would never."

"Unless you want me too; but I'll save the best for you only."

"When you're better."

"Fine." I pouted and snapped my fingers

"I don't even want to know." Said Yuki out of nowhere a nod of the head was followed by everyone else expect of Kisa who asked, "What are they talking about Hiro?" And Hiro slapped his head.

"Anyway…back to the story." I coughed a tad bit embarrassed

Flashback-

Well I got the job and I ran off to find a mechanic to fix my mom's bike that sat all rusted and dusty but with no such luck. So being really bored I decided to get my hair dyed and then after that I wanted to ask my boss if I could start early that's when I ran into Arisa, Hana, Kyo, Yuki, Hiro, Momiji, Kisa, and Haru.

Well needless to say the least I felt a tap on my shoulder I didn't turn around when the person asked me if there was anything to eat but I was already pissed off and told the brat to go away not even realizing it was Momiji. Well then finally when he cried to Kyo did I realize that they had tracked me down.

So now even more pissed off Kyo yelled at me and said that he would beat the shit out of me and I laughed and challenged him. Without turning around I sensed his fist coming at me and I blocked and with our noses touching I said, "Hello Kyo." Caught off guard I flung him back toward the bystanders.

"How did you manage to do that?" Hiro asked

"That's what I was wondering. How did you do that Miss. Honda?" Yuki asked

"Oh my god! Isn't the answer obvious?" I asked exasperated

Everyone tilted their head and looked at me confusion written all over their faces, "Would you like to enlighten us Tohru?" Hana asked

I slapped my head and took a deep breath, "Ok let me spell it out ok. It's time for math now. One martial artist plus one martial artist equals two martial artists right?" they nodded their but I could tell they still weren't getting it oh my god it is really that obvious that it's flying over their heads, "Come on people think!"

"Just tell us god damn you!" Hiro yelled

"Jesus Christ! Hello anyone one home?! You have two fighting boys that go all out on each other and then you have me! Kyo! Yuki! Weren't you paying attention to my moves that I used?" I said starting to get aggravated. I saw their blank faces and stood up but winced a little, "Kyo stand up please."

"No way I know where this is going and not to mention you're still injured." He said standing up trying to make his point

"I don't rightly give a damn." I tried to think about a good way to lose his temper.

"Tohru I said no."

"Again I don't give a damn you pussy ass cat."

"What did you call me?"

"You heard me! Oh wait you don't want to embarrass yourself again especially in front of half your family because Yuki is bad enough."

"Tohru if you're trying to make me loose my temper good luck because I could never with you and refuse too." Kyo declared

"Fine then I'll have to force you." I said starting to get into position hoping that Yuki or someone will recognize it. Out of the corner of my eye I saw them thinking.

"Tohru what are you-" But he didn't finish as I moved forward.

He held his hand up to block my fist colliding with his face but that left his stomach right open. I took my leg and tried to aim for his legs to knock him off guard but then he block it with his other hand then with a smirk I whipped my hand out of his grasp and flipped him, "There now did some of those moves look familiar?"

"Wait a second. You didn't." Haru said
"Didn't what?" I asked innocently

"I get it now…You combined some of Kyo's moves and Yuki's moves together. Yuki's defensive moves with Kyo's offensive moves."

"Give him a prize people! Ring a Ding Ding!" I clapped and sat back down, "I lived with them long enough that I picked up on it. And when I told you that I was going to the store at random times I was actually going to practice at masters house for an hour, hour and a half."

"Why didn't you just tell us?" Yuki asked

"Because I didn't want to have to hear be careful and what not." I said simply, "Ok moving on." I said before anyone else can open there mouths.

Flashback-

After everyone realized that it was me fifty question time and well I answered most of them…then I was to leave when Kyo confessed something.

"What did he confess to?" Shigure said.

I saw the people who actually witnessed the confession turn to one another and to me and Kyo who dropped his head.

"You want me to tell it or do you want to?" I asked him

"You can." He sighed

So I nodded and said, "I am going to tell you but please let me get through the story and no interrupting."

Flashback-

Kyo was stuttering at first so I told him to spill it and he did. He confessed that he knew my mother when he was younger. Something that my mother never told me. He said that he saw the accident and he could have saved her. He believed that it was his fault that she died. That's why he ran away for four months in the woods.

Well I was built up with enough emotions that I didn't handle his confession very well and said some hurtful things to him and then ran off. Not even looking back.

I ran not even stopping to see where I was. But when I did I found myself at a bridge and looked down to see the person that I have become. I kept walking to find myself in a dark alleyway where I was jumped by fifteen people surrounded and they started to beat the tar out of me. Then all of a sudden I saw my mom and she gave me strength to fight them off. But now thinking about it…it was adrenaline that did it. But that was when I decided to come back. Because of the wake up call that I received.

"Wow so not only have you experienced hell, embraced it, now you have felt it." Hiro said

"Yep I did." I said happily

"That wasn't supposed to be a good thing."

"I know. But I'm glad I'm back. But I am truly sorry for what I did. If you want me out of your house Kyo, Yuki, Shigure; I can understand."

"WHAT ARE YOU STUPID?! WHY DO YOU THINK THEY WENT AFTER YOU?! WHY I AUGHTA-" Kisa covered his mouth and said, "What Hiro means is that if they wanted you out for what you did then we wouldn't have came after you."

"It's our house." Kyo said leaning in to kiss me and then out of nowhere someone bangs the front door down and comes into the living room, "Up until now! Tohru Honda you're coming with me!"