Hey so here's the third chapter, I got it out earlier then expected because I had some shift changes and have had an extra feel afternoon. I apologise ahead for all errors grammatically and also any spelling errors. I'm not really a writer. It hasn't been beta-ed all errors are my own. I of course don't own any part of the hunger games that's all Suzanne Collins. If I had it would have been a hell of a lot different.
Warning: eventual kinky smut, drinking, possible drug use, swearing, OOC-ness and all those bad things.
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CrystalXHeartlace- Thank you for love, hoping you continue to enjoy it!
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Conspiration-ult- I'm so glad all the emotions I wanted to express translated. And that's exactly how I wanted Cato to be loving him but hating him at the same time. :) Every time I write a chapter I have to go over it like three times because of the as auto correct to A's thing. And I'm glad you like my style of writing! Knowing someone actually really enjoys it means the world.
ReineDesCoeurs- so glad you enjoyed both chapters so far. And I promise they we probably end up together within the next few chapters I didn't want to drag it out to much.
MangoMagic17- so happy you love my version of Peeta, I wanted his romantic side to really shine through. And hopefully you will like Cato as the story progresses.
He Took My Heart
Chapter Three
The days after finally breaking it off with Cato were impossibly hard. I convinced my dad I wasn't feeling well and stayed home in bed. I had lost the best thing in my life. I have lost Cato, and though I thought the guilt was bad when I was still with him, the heart break of not having him at all was so much worse.
The next few weeks seemed to mesh into one long depressing nightmare. It hurt seeing Cato, there was so many times I wanted to call, text, run up to him but I didn't, I couldn't. And the more time spent apart the more I questioned everything I had with him. Seeing him every day at school was taking it toll. I dreamt about him every night, some about us getting back together, others people finding out and Cato hating me or him moving on. He was haunting me even though I had done the right thing and ended it with him. And it was hard every single day not to break down and just beg for him to be with me again.
I tried getting over him, get passed us, forgetting all the good so I could just have the bad and it be better but my mind wouldn't let me. Delly tried hard to make me feel better, constantly there to listen, make me feel better, console and distract me. Even Clove had been there for me, she gave me a little hope telling me he was also kind of depressed and off more then usual. Glimmer and him were now fighting constantly, everyone in school knew because Glimmer wouldn't shut up about it.
Slowly I felt like I was getting better, I still felt like I needed him but I can't explain it I just knew that while maybe right now wasn't the time for us I hoped one day that would change. He was still all I ever thought of and not having him hurt like hell but I kept telling myself to stay positive. I would have him again soon and until then I would just have to distract myself.
After a whole month of being pretty much a loner Delly had convinced me to come out to a party. I felt good about it, I was going to try and be Peeta again not the boring, depressed version that had taken my place over the last month. I got out of the shower wrapping a towel around my waist as I headed into my room I close the door and see Delly standing there going through my draws. I laugh to myself, "And what do you think you are doing in there?"
Delly jumps having not noticed my presence yet. "Oh, you know finding your sexiest underwear for tonight."
"Umm, why would I need those?" I asked slightly scared at her answer.
"Because hot boys at the party, Peeta on the rebound, Madge's friend I told you about is going to be there so let me have me fun here and maybe you can have some fun later tonight." she winks pulling out a pair of pink boxer briefs that looked slightly odd.
"They aren't mine." confusion expressed in my tone. She walks over and hands them to me.
"Yes they are, a present from me. You will look smoking hot, put them on... NOW." she commands.
"Okay, okay mother." I joke as I slip them up my legs and under my towel. Delly walks up and pulls the towel from my waist so she could see what they looked like on.
She smirks, "YES." she yells, "hell, sexy boy better be looking out tonight."
They were comfortable but didn't have all that much material. My junk was all covered but the bottom of my ass stuck out of them. "Umm Dell, half my ass is out." turning around so she could see it.
"I know," she smiled excitedly."It's perfection." she then processed to slap it causing me to yelp.
"I don't know how I feel about them I"
"Shut up, you are wearing them." she cuts my off. "Now where are the jeans I bought you? Oh and that top with the pretty sunset on it?"
I sign walking over to my closet and slip on the clothes she was making me wear. Her phone beeps.
"Katniss will be here in five with Gale." she said not looking up from her phone. I put on my socks and high tops and go check my hair in the bathroom mirror. I add some gel to it to stick it up and smile at my reflection. I looked good, not gross from crying all night or depressed. I looked normal again, I walk out of the bathroom and grab my phone. I head down with Delly, avoiding my mother and go wait out front for Katniss and Gale to show up.
A half hour later we are at the party. As we head inside I notice a lot of people I don't recognise here. "Dell, who's party is this?"
"Umm, some girl from another school, Madge knows her, speaking of which where is she?" She heads towards the back. I follow looking for her, while I'm looking around I almost trip over when I see Cato sitting on the couch with his friends, Clove on his lap. Clove smiles and Cato's face tightens trying not to give anything away. I feel my hand being pulled and once I'm out of the room I seem to snap out of my daze.
"Peet, I'm sorry I didn't know he would be here." Delly says as she hugs me.
"It's okay, it's gonna happen. I'll be okay, I swear." I stammer out as I look for the closes alcoholic drink I could find. After meeting up with Madge and her friends from the other school things got better, or maybe it was the mind numbing haze from the alcohol helping me.
Slowly I started enjoying myself, Madge's friend showed up and he was a willing distraction. But I couldn't help but feel like this had definitely been a set up between the two of us. I think his name was Beau, he was taller then me, but then who wasn't? He had dark brown hair with matching eyes. I was enjoying the attention and it helped he was obviously flirting with me. I lost track of time talking to him.
I decided I don't care anymore if someone sees anything I'll be okay, I'm going to be myself. Completely me. So I started flirting back. He started getting touchy. And then we started to dance together for awhile. After a few songs he pulls me over to the hall way hear the lounge. He pushes me up against the wall, his hands on my hips.
My phone went off but I ignored it. Three texts later I give up and am about to grab my phone when someone throws a beer bottle at a wall. I spin around to see Cato staring at the hands on my hips. He looked so mad so upset, so broken. He starts walking over to me, I feel everyone's eyes in us. Suddenly I'm not scared not for me but Beau, I step in front of him and as I do Clove jumps out in front of Cato.
He stops in his tracks, realising what he just did. He gives me a sour look, takes Cloves hand and turns around walking away. Thoughts start swimming in my head. I'm so confused and hazy from the alcohol. I turn to Beau who has the biggest confused look on his face. "I'm sorry I've got to go." I rush out as I quickly head towards the door. I quickly look at my phone as I head towards out the front door and down the street. Shit, four texts from Cato. Shit I look at them starting to fell guilt riddle my body.
'I still care about you'
'What's goin on with that guy? Trying to make me jealous or something.'
'Peets stop it, it hurts not being able to talk to you but seeing that in front of me. Don't ignore me. We need to talk'
'I think I love you'
My hearts sinks, I have to find him, that's all that matters right now. I start walking sown the street when my phone rings, it's Clove. "Where is he?" I snap.
"Peeta, it's not, he doesn't want to see you." she replies, her tone strained.
"Clove please," I beg getting frustrated.
"I, okay stand out front." then she hangs up.
I turn around and walk to the front of the house and wait. Ten minutes later Cato's jeep pulls up. I go to open the passenger door but Clove shakes he head and points to the back. I open the back door and see Cato, his face stained with tears, knuckles cut up and bleeding. I internally swear to myself at the current situation. I get in not sure what to say, Clove starting to head to my house. "Um, hey," Is all I get out.
Cato finally looks at me "I fucked up," is all he says before pulling me into his lap, tightly gripping me. I don't know what to do. We just sit there in silence while Clove drives.
When we pull up to the bakery I look at Cato, "Well this is me." I say awkwardly.
"Can I stay with you? We need to talk." He softly whispers into my ear.
"Yer, sure." I open the door to get out looking at Clove.
She looks at us sympathetically "Just ring when you are ready to go home Cato, I'll bring you car."
I step out and walk to the door, pulling out my key from my back pocket. As I unlock the door with one hand my other reaches back for one of his. He grips it firmly and I lead him upstairs to my room. As we walk into my room I close my door and turn around to see Cato laying down on my bed. "Cato," I begin, "I, I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you, I, he, well he was a distraction."
He looks at me sourly, "He was more then that I saw how you smiled at him, you don't smile like that at me anymore." He sits up.
As I walk over to him I try to get my thoughts together, "Cato I still want you."
"Then take me, now." He retorts.
I sigh, "It's not that simple." I let out angrily.
"I broke up with Glimmer, I couldn't stand her anymore in the end or hurting you. That and you changed me Peeta before I didn't care, I was so one dimensional but then you changed all of that. I, shit, I hate you for it, for making me feel this way, to the point where I can't ignore it." I start to feel heart broken, he hates me. I go to say something but he puts his hand over my mouth. "I hate you because I love you Peeta, you know I'm not the best at expressing my feeling. I mean at the start I could ignore them but now I can't anymore I just,"
Before he can go on I pull his hand from my mouth and smash my lips into his. He said he loved me, actually said it. That's all I cared about in this moment. "Now, I need you now." I get out.
A.N: so if you can't tell the next chapter is goin to be maybe alittle no I lie a lot smutty. So fair warning ahead brace yourself for possible kink factors as I haven't finished writing it out the draft yet. I'll hopefully have it up by the end of this week, I know I'm updating more often then I had planned but it was pouring out of me and with Christmas and New Years there maybe a delay during those weeks. And please reviews are always welcome. Xxxxx