Hey so here's the tenth chapter, I apologise ahead for all errors grammatically and also any spelling errors. I'm not really a writer. It hasn't been beta-ed all errors are my own. I of course don't own any part of the hunger games that's all Suzanne Collins. If I had it would have been a hell of a lot different.
Warning: boy on boy, kinky smut, drinking, possible drug use, alittle violence, swearing, OOC-ness and all those bad things.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas! While mine wasn't perfect I did enjoy mine. This chapter would have been up earlier but for some reason it wouldn't load properly. Also I apologise for all the mistakes in the last chapter I had checked it for mistakes but I think I forgot to save after and put up the earlier version. Anyhoo all good now I'll probably go through it and update later :D. As I have said before I really do appreciate the reviews and well if you can please do. I love the input specially telling me where you would like to see the story go. But yer please if you do have the time I'd love it :).
Sorry this chapter isn't as long as the last couple I wanted the whole special day for them to really be one chapter so I had to stop early. But yeah hope you enjoy it. A lot of talking and abit of fluff for this chapter. Xxxx oh and I hope to have the next chapter up before new years but if I don't I promise to get it up by the third of Jan.
pumpkinking5- so glad you still enjoy it, I didn't think I would be past ten chapters so quickly! I know I really wanted to show that they know each others hot spots because I mean you should know having been together for the time they had. Again thank you for the continued support. X
ReineDesCoeurs- so so so glad you thought it was hot every time I write smut I feel like I can't portray it well enough and there is a disconnect. So I'm really glad you thought it was hot. And Peeta, yes I loved him in this chapter it just came out right for me. Honestly I'm in love with Chloe character I really want her to be sweet but at the same time kind of the comic relief from all the seriousness and sex :D. Thanks so much for sticking around! Xxx
Conspiration-ult- YAY I did well. :D I'm so so so happy you enjoyed it and thought it was hot and beautiful and dirty all at the same time. God if I had been there I'd would have just sat down with some popcorn and watched... now I'm totally jealous dammit why isn't this real life! And totally the chapter was for you. And please whenever you do wanna see something let me know and hopefully I can work it in. Thanks bunches xxxxx
He Took My Heart
Chapter Eleven
"Love you babe." He says as he nuzzles his neck.
"You too mister." I snuggle back into him and close my eyes, sleep taking over my body quickly.
On Sunday evening my dad visited, taking me out for dinner by ourselves so we could talk. About what I wasn't sure and honestly I was kind of nervous about all the possibilities. But I couldn't bail I needed to know and dad had been so supportive so far. We went to a small restaurant, sitting in a booth for more privacy. I looked over the menu reading it slowly deciding what to get. Once we had both decided what we wanted we ordered.
As soon as the waiter left my dad cleared his throat awkwardly. "Peeta, I wanted to have dinner just the two of us because I have had some time to process and think about well, your preferences. I did some research just to better prepare and understand it all." He looks down for a second before looking back at me. "Because I'm your father and you are supposed to come to me for answers about love and sex and life but I'm the one with all the questions. So I wanted to just address them all early and then maybe I can understand better. I don't want you to ever feel like you can't come to me with any of your problems."
I just think for a second, digesting what he had just said. I knew this would be awkward and embarrassing for both of us but if I had started to let him in and open up to him I guess I should be a hundred per cent up front. "Okay, sure dad ask away." I say as I give him a reassuring smile.
"Right well firstly how long have you know you, um, felt that way about boys?" He stammers out.
"Um well honestly I'm not that sure. I remember not realising at the time having little crushes on Ryden's friends when I was like six or eight. It wasn't till I was around thirteen I thought something was wrong with with me. And I tried pushing it away and be normal but then Cato came around and I couldn't stop myself. I didn't want to but the way he looked at me, held me it felt so right. I realised that something that felt to good and right couldn't be wrong."
"Peeta I'm," He starts to break down, "God, I'm so sorry I should have been there for you and the fact you didn't feel like you could come to me. I should have been a better father."
"Hey. Dad you are a good father. I didn't come to you because well yeah the thought that maybe telling you meant you wouldn't love me anymore was always in the back of my mind. I know it sounds stupid but it happens to so many kids. I didn't tell you because that would have meant it was real, after telling you I wouldn't be able to go back to hiding it." I grab his hand and squeeze it. "Dad you did the best you could and this isn't your fault. Its just how I was born, you are here now and that's what counts."
It's quiet for awhile and our food arrives. As I pick up my fork to eat my pasta he clears his throat again. "So you love him?" He asks.
I smile at him. "I really do."
"I just want to understand and you don't have to answer this but I assume that you well, um, what's the right way to put this... you receive?"
I blush immediately. "Well yes, most of the time. But while I prefer it that way we do reverse the roles sometimes because we are equals in our relationship."
"I see. Ah, so you well you enjoy it then? And you are being safe?" He asks even more awkwardly then before.
"Yes dad I do like it or I wouldn't do it. Um well we don't always use protection but we are safe. We both get regular check ups and we don't sleep with anyone else so it's okay." I reply trying hard to sound as normal as possible.
"Peeta even if he says that he won't it can only take,"
I cut him off, "Dad please, I know, it's okay."
He continues anyway. "I just want you to be safe."
"Okay dad I understand." I grumble out.
"So Cato's the only boy you have be sexually active with?" He asks to my disbelief. He really had a lot of questions.
"What does that even mean? I've only had actual sex with Cato yes, but before Cato I did mess around with this guy, I guess I was kind of experimenting but yeah just Cato."
"I see, well than I want you to know no matter what I do still love you, and I don't judge you. I'm so relieved you feel comfortable enough open up to me and be honest. The more I read to try to understand it all I began to understand it's not a choice and what you are feeling isn't wrong. If you ever feel you need someone out side of the family and your friends to talk to we can arrange that. I'm not saying you need professional help just that I read that can help sometime if you had conflicting emotions and thoughts about who you are. I want you to understand my biggest concern was people in the world not being tolerant and understanding and life being harder for you."
I smile at him warmly. "Dad I'm going to be fine. I have Cato, you, Chloe, Ryden and my friends. And I promise if I ever have an issue with someone I'll tell you. I mean it was harder lying to myself and everyone. Now being out, sure I have people who like mum openly hate me but I was teased before anyway. Being open and upfront about it, I feel loved more for the real me. Being myself fully it really does take a huge weight off your shoulders." I say then shovel another fork full of food into my mouth.
"Peeta, your mother has found a place, she's going to move out in two weeks. And I want you to come home." He says, obviously nervous I wouldn't want to.
"I will. I miss you and Ryden. As much as I'll miss staying at Cato's the bakery is my home." I reassure him.
"Well he is welcome to stay over when ever you want. As long as you keep your grades up. And you do all your homework. Oh and go to sleep at a reasonable hour on week nights."
I laugh at him. "We do and will dad. You wouldn't mind if I stayed there, at his house some nights? I've kind of gotten used to sharing a bed with him. I sleep better in his arms."
"I have no problem with that but Peeta you are only sixteen and your relationship with Cato is already so serious."
"Dad I love him, and a serious relationship is better then me bringing home a random guy home every weekend." I reason, I knew he would have an issue with how serious I was about the boy I love.
"I suppose, still you are only sixteen. I don't want to hear about you guys getting engaged or something atleast for another five years. We both aren't old enough for that yet."
"I promise dad." I smile at him. The thought of Cato proposing someday made me feel tingles throughout my body.
"What are you going to do when he graduates next year and you are a senior in high school while he's off at college?"
"Um, honestly I hadn't given that much thought yet. We haven't discussed any of that kind of stuff yet. I mean I'm sure we will work something out when the time comes." I suddenly felt like that was a major priority to work out because I didn't want to lose him to the long distance curse like so many before us.
"Well you best put some thought into that soon son."
"I will." I had already started. Maybe I could graduate early so I could go to college with him somehow. But what college would both want to go to? Would we want to go to the same college? I started to get anxious.
I'm pulled from my thoughts as my dad starts to speak. "Alright well do we want dessert?"
"Um, sure." I try to sound not so concerned. He waves over the waiter and he hands us the dessert menu. I order a sticky date pudding and give him back the menu before turning back to dad. "Dad, why does mother hate me so much?" I ask looking down at my empty spare plate.
"Peeta, I don't know if she hates you. You have to understand when you were born she became very depressed. I don't know if she ever fully recovered from it. There was always a disconnect between the two of you. I had hoped as you got older your relationship with her would change and grow into something more positive and loving. But it never did and I'm sorry for that. For not realising it earlier and making you endure what you did, I honestly don't know how you are so positive and loving after everything." He said sadly.
"I don't know she made me stronger being the way she was. And if I didn't have Cato and my friends I think I would probably be completely different. Who knows where I would be today."
"That's also something I wanted to bring up, you haven't ever thought of hurting yourself before have you?"
"Oh god no. Dad I couldn't do that, no matter how bad things were I never thought about that." I say slightly defensively. I didn't mean for it to sound that way but I was a little insulted he thought I could be suicidal.
"Good." He seemed very relieved. "The things I read on the Internet got me so nervous I can't remember what it exactly said but it was along the lines of gay teens are atleast four times more likely to attempt suicide, or the suicide rate is four time higher in gay teens then straight one, I really can't remember. But I got so concerned after reading it all."
I smile reassuringly again. "Well you have nothing to worry about."
Our desserts arrive. "I'm thankful for that." He says as he starts to eat his apple pie. "Peeta this has been so good for us, I'm glad you came I really am. And I know I'm still awkward and don't really know how to act or say but we are taking steps in the right direction I think."
"Me too, I feel so old and grown up having all these conversations." I joke.
"I'm proud of you son."
"And I'm proud of you dad." I suddenly come to realisation that while I won't have the exact relationship as Cato had with Chloe I'll have one a good with my dad. Knowing he went to all that problem to really understand and educate himself, it meant so much to me. We finish up and he drove me back to Cato's house. Before I get out I turn to him and hug him. "Thanks for tonight dad, I love you."
He let's go and smiles at me. "I love you too son."
I get out the car and head towards the front door. I turn around before I get there and wave as he drives away. I get to the door and see a envelope taped to the door with my name on the front of the envelope. I pull it off the door and open it smiling instantly seeing Cato's hand writing.
It read:
Peeta,
I know technically we haven't been together officially for very long. But I love you and well at this point in our relationship I think this is the next step for us. Especially since you are staying here. Inside the envelope is a freshly cut key to the house, it's all yours. I know it's not really that big of a deal but still I want it to be special, so come up to bed when you are finally home and snuggle with me.
I love you.
You perfect boyfriend.
Cato.
P.s. If you want to make up for not being with me for a night you should wears those pink boxers you wore the night we got back together. X.
I smile taking out the key seeing it was engraved. I run my thumb over the inscription before reading it. 'Because you unlocked my heart.' I turn over the key reading the over side. 'My heart is yours, love C.'
I quickly put the letter in my pocket I was going to save this letter forever. But right now though all I wanted to do is kiss him forever. I stumble a few time trying to get the door open in a rush. I lock it behind me and half run up the stairs to Cato's room. I open the door slowly not wanting to wake him if he had gone to sleep. I am surprised to see no Cato instead the room is lite up with hundreds of candles all over the room. I was a little confused, Cato wasn't exactly a romantic kind of guy. "Cato?" I call out. Where was he hiding? Had he even done this? Suddenly there is arms around my waist and I jump before realising it was Cato.
He kisses my neck. "Sorry I didn't mean to scare you." He keeps kissing my neck. "Did you like your present?"
"Absolutely." I say turning in his arms. "You do all this for me?"
"Yeah, well I don't know if you remember but tomorrows date, it's the anniversary of the first time we slept together. Two whole years ago, on a Friday night. Remember I had been flirting with you for months and you kept shooting me down. But luckily for me Delly got you drunk and you somehow got my number and told me to meet you in Marvels guest room. Best night of my life, finally getting to have you. It being the start of our relationship, however screwed up it was at the start." He slowly leans down, his lips against my ear. "And I fucked your brains out."
I blush and giggle. "Is that so?" His breath against my ear turning me on so much.
"Obviously, I mean after that you couldn't keep your hands off my cock." He pulls away and smirks at me before bringing his lips to mine. He stops after a minute. "How was dinner with your dad?"
"Interesting, he did some self educating on the whole gay thing. He just had some questions and wanted to show he was supportive and remind me again he still loved me."
"Peet that's so good, you must be so happy." He exclaims.
"Yeah I am, um, Cato he wants me to move back home. Mother found a place and she should be out of the house in two weeks."
"I see." He let's go of me.
"Your disappointed." I say looking at his face.
"I mean yeah. I always knew you would have to move back. I don't know part of me hoped she never moved out so I could keep you here forever. I know it's selfish and stupid it just sucks because I liked having you in my arms every morning when I woke up."
"Hey we can still do that, we will just have to alternate between houses." I smile at him, knowing he felt the same way just confirmed in my mind how right for each other we really were.
He smiles back at me. "Okay sounds like a plan."
"He did actually bring up something which we really do need to work out at some point in the not so distant future."
"Oh yeah what's that?" He asks kissing mu forehead.
"You going to college and me being still in high school." I say my anxiety returning.
Cato puts he arms around me, instantly I feel better. "Oh, yeah that is something we will have to discuss and work out but can we talk about it later? Right now I just want to kiss my boyfriend."
I smile at him putting my arms around his neck. "Sure we can."
"I have a romantic dinner worked out for tomorrow night since its been two years of us fucking."
"Cato romantic and fucking can't go in the same sentence together. It sounds so wrong." I say playfully.
"So wrong it's right?" He smirks raising an eyebrow.
I roll my eyes. "You are such a loser." I pull him in for a quick kiss. "So tomorrow I have to wear those pink boxers huh?"
"Hell yes you do." He replies kissing me passionately.
"And tonight we are just going to kiss all night?" I tease.
He kisses me in reply. "Maybe a little more then just kiss."