A/N: Okay now the story has been set where it sounds like Hiei is talking to or telling all of this to Kurama (he's really not though). But for this and two other chapters it's going to be normal style explanations, but still in Hiei's view. This is only because if I don't do it this way I'm afraid it'll get too confusing if I don't do it this way.

Disclaimer: I definitely do not own YYH, so you defiantly should not sue me.

Chapter 4: At Long Last
(Once again please read the A/N before continuing on!)

Hiei's P.O.V

I found myself transported to Kurama's room, but it was not musty smelling, or dusty, it looked like the fox inhabited it again.

I was seated on his bed, it was night outside his window and a downpour of rain fell on the home. Suddenly, my eyes shot to the door that opened and the fox walked in.

In the beginning my breath would catch when I saw Kurama in my dreams, I'd heard Yusuke's stories of when he died and went into Keiko's dreams, and for a long time I would enter into my dreams thinking that that was what was happening.

But after awhile of the kitsune accusing me and doing so many horrible things to me I finally taught myself how to try and ignore it and keep in mind that the Kurama I knew probably wouldn't do that to me.

This Kurama looked at me, his emerald eyes vibrant and so full of life; but also so full of sorrow.

"Hiei." He said my name so tenderly. "It's been a good while."

"Only since last night." He looked confused for only a second before it faded into a smile, it would have looked exactly like the one he would give when he was alive had it not been for those eyes.

"Your defenses are up, I've forgotten."

"Hn, no kidding."

Kurama didn't seem fazed, he walked over to where I was and suddenly supped my face in his cold hands. I was taken by surprised, my eyes widened.

"I need you to put your defenses down for right now, I don't have much time." I decided to give it a shot, but I didn't make any movements and I was still tense.

I waited for him to strike me for anything… but it never came, he just sighed heavily and looked into my eyes.

"Hiei, what do I have to do to convince you that I'm not going to hurt you? We've done this once before, quite awhile ago."

I remembered, when I'd first met the kitsune, I refused to let him help heal me because I thought he'd hurt me; he'd asked me that same question. [1

It was then that I knew this was not a sick nightmare, none of the other visions I'd seen had ever made direct reference to a memory we'd both shared.

"Kurama…" He smiled bigger and let me go, but I wanted more, so much more; I held myself back, I could see the urgency in his eyes.

"Good." Was all he said, I couldn't find the words to say anything back. His green eyes were as bright as I remembered.

As a loud clap of thunder came from outside I finally found my voice. "Why is this happening?" I asked.

"Well I figured this is where we've always communicated the best." I was surprised at the way he was able to understand my question, on second thought this was the fox we're talking about, of course he understands.

"Communicated." I repeated; he wanted to communicate?

He nodded and sat on the chair at his desk. "Yes, I need to talk to you." I anxiously waited quietly. "I need you to heal, Hiei."

I couldn't believe he had just said that! "As hard as I know it'll be I need you to." Needed me to?

"Kurama how can you ask me that?" I asked angrily. He sighed and I suddenly felt guilty. First I kill him and now I shoot back his pleads when he tries to help me.

I couldn't be a worse friend to him even if I tried.

I can suddenly feel my emotions welling up in my throat, chocking me and I can't swallow them down. "I've watched you since the beginning," he told me, "and every day you seem to die a little more."

I scoffed at him, "you should take a trip down to your home." I said nearly under my breath and looking away. I had no idea why I was being so resistant to him. Even when he was alive I wasn't this barricaded around him.

"I have and I've seen my mother dying as well… but slowly she will heal, I know it, but you won't, I know that too. But you must." He was pleading to me… and still I felt I couldn't give him what he wanted.

"Have you seen the hell Yusuke and everyone else gives me, how Kurama, tell me, how can you not just let me die!"

"Because I'd never forgive myself if I let you!" The room died down into silence, I hate myself for letting him speak those word, his head looked away from me.

In all the years that I've known the redheaded kitsune he's always turned away from me when he was upset, but I'd never seen him shed a tear; tonight could not be the night I see him cry; and it would not be about me that forced him to it.

I desperately wished I could see what he was thinking, but I held back the urge to use the Jagan eye.

"Kurama."

"I've seen it and I'm sorry." He finally said, he slowly looked back at me. "But since I died you've refused to stay anywhere but my grave, you've tried to kill yourself more times than I want to even think about and you haven't even seen Yukina since then."

I looked at the black window, "how can I?" I asked, "I wouldn't be able to stand seeing her angry at me before she knows who I am."

"What makes you think she's be mad at you? Yukina isn't one for anger Hiei and you know that." I glared at him, "neither are you but…" I stopped myself.

"But what?"

I shook my head, I was thinking about how angry he must be for what I'd done two months ago, and for everything else he's probably seen up until now, he was holding it all back exceptionally well.

"What are you suggesting?" I asked in order to change the subject.

"Are you going to attempt it?"

"Hn, we'll see."

He smiled, "that's the Hiei I like to hear, go back to the temple and talk to Yukina." The idea defiantly sounded like the kitsune's, and even though I didn't like it I kept myself quiet so he could finish.

"Tell her anything that's on your mind, and tell her not to tell the group. After awhile of this you'll be able to heal."

"How do you get that?"

"Because she'll give you the right comments you need."

I smirked, "I doubt that, you're the only who's ever been able to get inside my head and give me those right comments."

He met my smirk, "do you doubt the words that would come from your own sister?" He had a point. I didn't answer the question, he already knew what the answer would have been.

"Would you be watching?" He smiled, "not if you don't want me to." And I knew he would hold true to his word. "Good." Was all I could say.

He stood up. "You have to go Hiei, it's nearly mid-afternoon." I looked confused then remembered the kitsune's rose! He should be the one to have it!

"I have something for you!" I said suddenly and began looking through all my pockets, where had I put it? He deserved to have it, even in death, not I!

… And then I remembered putting it down on the ground, my heart dropped. I couldn't even keep hold of such precious things, another reason why I'm a horrible friend to him.

I stopped and sighed; 'of course' I thought quietly. "Hiei?" He must have seen the disappointment on my face. "Never mind, when'll this happen again?" I asked.

He shrugged, "focus on healing right now Hiei, that's all."

"Hn." I suddenly thought of asking him is he blamed me for his death. When I looked back at him he smiled and I felt myself being drawn away.

"Kurama!" My world was suddenly filled with blackness.

A/N: Okay so that was a shorter chapter than the last one, and the one before. Oh! IMPORTANT NOTE! I don't want any reviews that say 'that's not what happened when Yusuke went into Keiko's dream!' Trust me I know that's not how it happened but I don't own the DVD that has that part in it, nor do I have the means to watch it so I had to use what I remembered from YEARS ago.

[1: Yes I understand that this isn't how it happened in the book, but for this story I had to make it seem like that so please dont send me any reviews that say that.

PREVIEW: So, does Hiei decide to go see Yukina like Kurama wanted? And if he does what things will she tell her and will he reveal to her?

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-Forbiddensoul562