My Yodaime Kazekage was called Akaiyo before he abandoned this beautiful name and dedicated his body and soul to me. I never knew whether I deserved him or not. He was not my shinobi at the first place.
Akaiyo was a wayfaring priest before he hid some Suna shinobi from their enemies. He was tortured by my enemies. Even though my shinobi stole him from the enemy's jail. He was nearly dead from the torture. He was 8 years old at that time. After healing from the torture he lived with Ryu because Ryu found him a prefect stable conductor of Shukaku's charka. He helped Ryu completed his study on Shukaku. Ryu used to nag about he met Akaiyo too late to me. Akaiyo was too old at that time to be a jinchuriki, and Ryu already had killed his youngest son.
Akaiyo worked as a normal shinobi for me after Ryu died. He became Sandaime's chief assistant after the senior council tried of Sandaime's office scandals with his female assistants. I had to admit it was terrible funny to see Akaiyo digging Sandaime out from the girls and dragging him to council meetings. I just loved to see Sandaime's upset face, especially when he surrendered under Akaiyo's stubbornness.
Akaiyo abandoned his name at the first day he became Yondaime Kazekage in exchange of a stronger bonding between me and him. I was flattered by his dedication, even though I knew I am never that worthy. I always know I am a monster! A monster would always tear what it loved into pieces and eat those pieces. Yondaime helped me went through the darkest time since my existence. And I started to drink his blood, eat his flesh from the point he delivered the speech that saved me.
During the war time, all the nasty things human could do were revealed to this brute world. First, Iwagakure paid Amegakure to destroy that poor tribe to test my response time of an emergency. After I did badly, Iwagakure saw it as an opportunity to redistribute the interests in my hand. The Land of Fire cut my business routes for grain and rice at the same Iwagakure won two battle on the territory of the Land of Wind. The daimyo of the Land of Fire sent Konohagakure to tell me this "unfortunate" decision for "protecting the citizens of the Land of Fire".
So the citizens of the Land of Wind deserve to die in hunger? I asked Konohagakure with a dangerous calm voice.
Hell knew how bad I want to punch Konohagakure that bastard in the face at that moment.
I am sorry. It is Daimyo's decision.
Konohagakure talked to me in a disgusting gentle voice. It was such gentle that I would really love to slice his throat with a knife. Konokagakure tried to hold my hands to show some "sympathy", the thing I never need.
I slapped the hands reaching towards me. I gave him a frozen smiled and told Konohagakure I got the news. I went back to my Yondaime and told him we need to end the war fast before all the people starve to death.
It is impossible with Kirigakure robbing along the Land of Wind's coastal city. Yondaime replied me bitterly. He aged in a horrible speed since he became my Yondaime. I could see ugly ash-grey hair mixed with his shiny auburn hair even he hid the fact carefully. He was only 26 years old.
I tried to touch his hair. My hand pass right through his hair.
Tear ran across my face quietly.
Do not cry, Suna. Everything will be fine. My Yondaime tried to wipe my tear away, his warm hands ran through my body like passing through smoke or fog. He frozen for a second, then he wrapped his arms around me.
Everything will be fine. My Yondaime whispers near my ear with his low but charming voice. I believed him because his voice is confident; because the heat radiating from his body was warmer than the sun.
The next day, one of my brilliant kunoichi named Pakura was sent to make peace with Kirigakure. She never came back. Yondaime made a speech about how she died honorably in the front line between me and Iwagakure. Of course, he threw up severely before and after the speech.
My Yondaime did not show up in the small meeting after the speech. He seldom skips meetings. The seniors thought he was just too tired because he threw up horribly before and after the speech. I found him lying in a bath tub filled with ice cold water. He never did that before because he thought wasting water is a crime.
WHAT ARE YOU DOING! I shouted in terror. I thought he was trying to drown himself.
Nothing. He replied and gave me a fainted smile.
Without Kiri messing the coast line, we can force Iwa to sign a cease fire treaty very soon. My Yondaime looked into my eyes spoke softly.
Kiri would not mess with us when Iwa withdraw its force. It just cost too much to mess with us without Iwa drawing most of our military force. After these two big problems get out from the Land of Wind, we can deal with rest of the robbers at ease.
I told you everything will be fine. Everything will be fine.
I did not pay attention to my Yondaime's explanation. I knew he was explaining to himself; I would disappear long ago if I know nothing about what he was talking about. I watched him rubbing himself with towel and cold water. I watched the towel torturing his skin marked by the torture. He finally stopped torturing himself when all his skin turned to an unhealthy reddish color.
Yondaime. I spoke softly.
Yes.
You are the cleanest human I had even seen.
And I polluted you. I really wanted to shout out this fact but Yondaime stopped me. He stopped me by trying to kiss my forehead. I frozen, not a word came out from my mouth.
I am not. He told me.
God know how much I hate his stubbornness and his "everything will be fine."
Nothing will be fine if I was involved.