For the next few days Jane barely said anything to anyone, she only spoke when Dr Nolan entered or one of the nurses and then she only asked them when she could go home. Maura barely left her side and when she did she made sure it wasn't for long. Even Angela and Frank couldn't get a word out of her.
Maura had been sat in Jane's room for nearly a week only going home to take a shower and feed Bass when he wasn't being looked after by Korsak or Frost. She had tired everything to get Jane talking but Jane never did. She just laid in her hospital bed staring out the window watching life go by. Maura knew she blamed herself for what happened to Jason, and she didn't have a clue how to stop Jane thinking like that. Maura stood up and started walking to the door, she stopped once she placed her hand on the door knob and turned back to face Jane. "I'm just going to get a coffee, I'll be back in a bit. Do you want me to get you anything?" Jane didn't answer.
Maura got to the café next to the hospital and ordered her coffee. She needed to speak to Korsak, she just had no idea what she would say. Maybe he knew how to get Jane speaking to them again. She glanced at her watch, it was 3:57, she decided to head to the precinct. Korsak would still be there.
Korsak and Frost were in the middle of eating a pizza and catching up with paperwork, when Maura walked in. "Hey Doc." They both said at the same time. She smiled. "Hi." Frost handed her the box. "Pizza?" Maura shook her head. "Is Janie okay?" Korsak asked. "Yes. No. I mean...she won't to talk to anyone. It's like she has given up since I told her about Jason. I don't know what to do to help her. She won't let me in. She won't let me help her." Korsak had moved to her side while she was rambling and placed a hand on his shoulder. "She's hurting, Maura. She just needs time. Do you want me to try and talk to her?" Maura looked at him with tears in her eyes and he immediately pulled her into a hug as she silently cried in front of Korsak and Frost, "Would you?" Korsak chuckled. "Off course I will. Do you want us to go now?" Maura nodded as she wiped her tears away. "Angela and Frank aren't there. They have just left to pick Frankie up from the airport. They are taking Frankie straight home and coming back first thing in the morning." Korsak walked back over to his desk, pulled his badge out and clipped his gun to his side, grabbed his jacket and his keys and walked back over to Maura. "You ready?" Maura nodded. "Frost, come on, this might work better with you there as well." Frost grabbed his jacket off the back of his chair and walked over to them. "Lets go, I'll drive." As they walked outside to the car, Maura stopped dead in her tracks. "I'm going to walk back. I'll see you there." "Maura, don't be daft. It's raining. You'll get soaked through." It took her a few seconds to realize that Frost was right, it was raining. "I'll walk. I need some time, and besides I have been sat in that chair for days now, my legs could use the excise." Frost shook his head as he took off his suit jacket. "Fine, but if you insist on walking, put this on." He handed her his jacket. She was to tired to argue with him, so she took the jacket and wrapped it around her shoulders. "Thanks Frost." Frost smiled at her. "We'll see you in a bit. Okay?" Maura nodded as she started walking off towards the hospital.
Twenty minutes later Korsak and Frost was in walking into Jane's hospital room with three cups of coffee. Frost put one on the bedside table for Jane. "Hey Janie. How you feeling?" Both Frost and Korsak looked at each other when Jane didn't answer. "Jane, you might as well drink that coffee cause we are going to talk. Even if you don't talk back, you're going to listen." Jane reached for the coffee. For once she didn't argue, she decided it would be best for them to say what they wanted to say, so they would leave her alone.
They sat in silence while they finished their coffee's, Korsak noticed Jane wouldn't look at them all she did was sit staring out of the window. "So Janie, how you been feeling lately?" Korsak waited a few minutes for Jane to reply, when she didn't he carried on. "Okay, so no small talk. Shall we get right to the point then?" Still no reply. "I'm going to take that as a yes. You know by the end of this you will speak to us." Frost grabbed a chair and sat at the other side of Jane while Korsak did the same on the other side. "Right, let me get this straight. Maura has spent every day here with you. By your side all the time. She was the one who made sure you had the best medical care, at any cost. She is the one who has been keeping Frankie and the boys updated, so they wouldn't cut the stag do short." Korsak looked at Frost for help once her realized he wasn't getting anywhere just yet. "I'm going to get some more coffee, this might take longer than I thought." Korsak muttered to Frost.
Once Korsak had left, Frost started talking. "You know Jane. We're all just worried about you. We know you prefer to act tough when you're around people, but now you... you don't need to be tough. Jane you need to grief, you need to start letting people in. We worry about you. We all do." Jane looked at him, she knew he had a point, she did need to grief, but she also knew that if she did she would never stop. She would crumble and at the minute she didn't see a way back once she did. So she held it all in. "Jane. Maura cried in front off me and Korsak today. For the first time." He saw Jane look at the door. "She's not here. She came and got us then decided, instead of driving back with us she wanted to walk back." He saw her look back at the window and was shocked when she she spoke. "But it's raining outside?" He nodded his head, turned back to the door as he heard Korsak re-enter, carrying another three cups of coffee. "She said she needed some time." Korsak said. Jane nodded weakly, suddenly wishing her best friend was by her side.
After handing out the coffees Korsak sat back down and looked at Jane who was currently drinking her coffee and staring out the window, at the rain now coming down faster. "So Janie, you ready to talk to us yet?" Korsak asked. "I don't really have a choice do I?" Jane replied, still not looking away from the window. "Well, you do. We either talk or we don't?" Jane finally torn her eyes away from the window to look at them both. "Fine, we'll talk. But I'm only doing this so you finally leave me alone. I don't see why you all don't understand, I just want to..." Korsak cut her off when he stood up and pointed to the window. She looked confused. "Enough Janie, okay? Why don't you get it? You haven't said one word to you're parents, to Maura, to us. When is this going to stop? When are you going to let us in? Hell, even let one of us in." Korsak couldn't take any more, he stated walking towards the door, but stopped and spun around to face Jane again. "You know you're like a daughter to me, Jane. But this...this is hurting me more than when you requested a new partner. I'm sorry, but I can't watch you do this to us all. I have never seen Maura so distraught in the few years I have known her. I can't see her handling much more of this." He walked back over to the bed and gently put his finger under her chin to make her look at him. He knew there and then that he had said all the things she needed to hear. "Don't ruin you're friendship with her. She needs you as well, she just doesn't know how to ask for help." With all that said Korsak looked at Frost and nodded his head towards the door, "come on, lets leave her to it." Frost looked at Jane, "You going to be okay?" Jane nodded. "I'll be okay. Bye guys." As she watched them walk to the door, she added a bit louder, to make sure they heard her. "Frost, Korsak." She waited for them to turn around, then added, "thank you, both." They nodded, then left Jane alone.
Jane looked at the clock once Korsak and Frost had gone. It read 6:15. Maura had been gone for nearly 2 an half hour. Jane laid down and again looked to the window, it was still raining and Maura was out there somewhere.
Maura walked into Jane's room to find Jane asleep. As she walked toward the window, she stopped at the bottom of Jane's bed, for a few minutes she just stood there staring at her best friend. "I miss you." She muttered, then went to shut the blind. It was 9:30pm and Maura couldn't believe how time had flew by. Jane was starting to stir and Maura knew she would wake up in a few minute. Jane felt someone was in the room with her as her shot open. "Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up." Jane took a few deep breaths as she realized it was just Maura in the room. "What time is it?" Maura stood staring for a few minutes. It was the first time that she had heard Jane's voice since she told her about Jason. A lone tear fell silently down her cheek as she walked over to Jane, "it's 9:35." Jane nodded. "When did you come back?" "About five minutes ago."
Jane sat up and leaned over to wipe the tear off Maura's cheek. "Where have you been? I don't believe it took you all this time to get coffee." Maura looked away, "I went to the station, then went home to take a shower. Then I planned on coming straight back here, but for some reason, I...I ended up in the park sat on a bench. I didn't realize what time it was until it turned dark. I came straight here." Jane looked at what Maura was wearing, "you went to the park in scrubs, Maura?" Maura shook her head, "no. My clothes were wet. Dr Nolan saw me before he left and got me some scrubs, again. I changed before I came in here." Jane nodded, "what that's in you're hand?" She saw Maura visibly tense and felt her own panic rise. "I didn't even remember I had it in my hand." Maura muttered to herself. "Maura, let me see it." Jane said firmly. Maura reluctantly gave her the picture. Jane felt the tears sting her eyes, but she still refused to let them fall. "I saw it when I went home, picked it up then went to the park, to...I don't know why." Jane nodded, then put the picture of her, Maura and Jason, sitting on a park bench, on the bedside table. Neither one off them spoke as Maura placed her hand on Jane's bent knee.
Nearly an hour went passed before Jane broke the silence. "You went there to feel close to him?" Maura mumbled "yes." Jane looked at her and gave a small smile. "I can't...I..." Jane stopped, she didn't know what to say. Maura didn't push her to continue, she realized earlier that Jane would talk to her when she was ready. "Go to sleep Jane. You need you're rest." Jane laid back down on the bed and looked at Maura. "So do you." Jane told her. "I'm fine. Get some rest." Jane nodded and closed her eyes as Maura held her hand. "Goodnight Jane." She closed her own eyes as Jane responded, "Night Maura."