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Chapter 4

I sat in our office/apartment impatiently tapping my nails on the laptop in front of me, while Alice droned on about the latest shoes she'd purchased. Jasper was due to arrive for our first session in five minutes and I was nervous, impatient and excited all at the same time. It was four days since Alice had asked me if I wanted to take his case on and since then I had used the information she had provided to do some reading and research and I'd come up with a plan for our sessions. Of course I never knew how a client would react to the sessions so it was never an exact science but I liked to have a basic plan before I started. Today I wanted to mainly talk to him but I did want to introduce a bit of touching.

I'd set my room up already and I had several aromatherapy candles burning. I believed on a holistic approach that stimulated all of the senses. I'd thought very carefully about the colours I'd used in the room and the types of furnishing. Nothing had been put in there by accident. The room contained a large bed, as I liked to have a lot of space to move around freely, but it had a small light wood frame so it appeared unintimidating. The bed was pushed into corner of the room on the left hand side, as I didn't want it to be the main feature of the room. There was a small bedside cabinet next to it, that had a lamp on top of it. The right side of the room had a small seating area with a large comfy sofa, a coffee table, and a large lamp. Both lamps had low voltage bulbs and together created a nice, soft lighting effect. The floor was covered in a deep pile cream carpet and the walls were a soft sage color. The room was finished off with long floor length teal drapes covering the window, and a matching plain bedspread.

A quiet knock at the door brought me out of my thoughts and I sprung up quickly from my chair. Alice smirked at me and giggled.

"Eager much Bella!"

I started to form an excuse for my eagerness but realised that she was just teasing and anything I said would only give me away more. So I just smiled at her and made my way to the door.

When I opened the door the man before me took my breath away. He was perfection personified. His eyes were cast towards the floor as always, as he mumbled a quiet hello. I greeted him equally quietly and motioned for him to enter. As he walked past me I involuntarily sniffed the air and fuck me, if he didn't smell as good as he looked. His scent was a mix of fresh citrus and mint. He was dressed simply, in worn jeans, a casual checked shirt, and a pair of well worn cowboy boots. Basically he looked like sex on legs and I may have been drooling a little. Alarm bells were going off in the back of my mind but I couldn't bring myself to listen to them.

"My room is this way, if you'd like to follow me Jasper."

I led him towards my session room and opened the door so he could step inside. As I followed him I had to actively stop myself from checking out his butt. I made a conscious effort to banish all unprofessional thoughts from my head, as I sat down on one end of the large sofa and motioned for Jasper to sit at the other end. He sat down stiffly and I saw him cast his eyes around the room, they lingered a little longer than necessary on the bed at the other side of the room, before he looked nervously back at the floor. I made a mental note that I needed to work on eye contact with him.

"Jasper, as you know I'm Bella and I'm a sex surrogate. Right from the start I want you to know that nothing will happen in this room that you are not one hundred percent comfortable with. I will push you to break through some of your boundaries surrounding women and intimacy, but at all times I need you to know that you have the right to say stop."

He was still studying his feet with great intensity, so I added.

"I need you to answer me Jasper, so I know you understand and have the confidence to do this."

He looked up at me then and his eyes met mine.

"Yes, I do understand. Alice told me this and she also said that many of your clients just come to you to work through their intimacy issues and that you never have any real physical contact with them."

"Yes, Alice is correct. These sessions will progress as you want them to Jasper."

I was about to add more when he interrupted me and stated with confidence. "I know what I want!"

"And what is that Jasper?"

"I want you to take my virginity."

Before I had chance to respond he rushed on with his explanation.

"I find this really difficult to talk about, especially with a beautiful young women like yourself. But I'm twenty-nine and I'll be thirty in four months. I don't want to be a thirty year old virgin who is paralyzed by fear and insecurities when I'm around any attractive women. I'm fed up feeling scared and unsure and I want what all my friends have. I want a normal relationship, I want to be normal." He ended his speech, quietly whispering the last few words.

I felt so sad for him, but I knew from experience that he wouldn't want my pity.

"You are normal Jasper, there are many, many men out there feeling exactly the same way. When your male friends talk about sex with women, do you lie about your insecurities and your inexperience?"

I put my hand up before he had chance to answer and added. "I only ask this because I would bet money that many of your friends haven't had anywhere near the amount of sexual experience they say they have had. Please believe me Jasper, you are normal!"

Jasper nodded, before adding quietly, "I hope you're right."

"If losing your virginity and gaining some sexual experience is what you want out of these sessions then we will work together to achieve that," I stated and the butterflies returned to my chest as I said it.

"I've read all your books," he said shyly, studying the floor again now he'd finished his bold declaration.

"Did you like them?" I asked with a smile.

"They are the reason I came here," he added. I nodded my head, not wanting to admit that Alice had already told me.

"Why is that?" I asked.

"Because I felt that you would understand," he said, raising his eyes to meet mine, before continuing.

"I knew that you could help me, I knew that you were the one."

This statement hung in the air between us and for once in my life I was speechless. Was it fate that had brought this beautiful broken man into my life. The air seemed to crackle between us, as we both continued to just simply look at each other.

A/N - Updated as promised and thanks for my 10 reviews :)

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