Chapter 6

The connection I felt towards Jasper was a little overwhelming but I knew that I couldn't stop now. I knew that I needed to see this through to the end, no matter what. I just feared for my poor fragile heart.

"Honey, there is nothing wrong with your body having a physical reaction to a particular stimuli. Your mind has been programmed since your early teens to think that any kind of intimate physical contact is sexual. So this is why your body responded to my touch."

I paused and looked at Jasper. I knew he had heard me but he continued to look past me, shame and embarrassment clear on his face.

"We all respond to stimuli, I've known the craziest things to get people sexually aroused." I smiled before continuing.

"I'll share something about myself that will maybe make you smile and hopefully feel better about yourself." As I said this Jasper finally made eye contact with me and I saw some curiosity in his eyes. I smiled again before continuing with my confession.

"I get aroused by batteries!" I said, with a laugh.

Jasper looked at me with a confused expression, so I added, "Because of my job, I don't have a boyfriend very often, so I have to have sex with myself. Usually with the aid of a vibrator. So the sight of new high powered batteries makes me think of how powerful my vib would be with them in."

I stopped then to gauge his reaction on hearing me talk so openly about masterbation and my personal life. He had a comical mix of shock, embarrassment, and fascination wrote across his face.

"So there you go, I get a girl hard on from just looking at batteries. I've told you this story to try and make you understand that it's normal to have a physical reaction to something that shouldn't really give you that reaction. Do you understand? Do you see that it's normal?"

"I do understand. It's just that the bullshit is so ingrained in my goddamn mind that I find it so difficult to get past it," he answered.

"I am confident that your sessions with Alice and myself will break down those barriers for you. And I am equally confident that a normal physical relationship isn't out of your grasp. It's just gonna take time and you have to be patient with yourself."

He smirked at me then, giving me the most panty dropping lopsided smile I have ever seen, and joked, "Rome wasn't built in a day eh!"

"No, exactly," I laughed back.

The tense atmosphere that had been in the room suddenly lifted and Jasper carried on smiling at me, before saying, "Can I ask you something?"

"Yeah anything, you can always ask me anything."

"Is that story true?"

I laughed again. "Sadly yes, yes it is."

"I find this shit so difficult to talk about but I do realise that I need to just get over it. So can I ask you something else?"

I smiled. "Jasper ask me anything."

"I know lots of men...um...you know." He motioned to his crotch and made a few up and down movements with his hand.

I stored away in my mind that we would have to practice saying some of the words that he obviously deemed too embarrassing or wrong to utter.

"Masterbate?" I asked.

"Erm, yeah, that. But, well, I just didn't think that women did it!"

"This is an interesting question. I think it's less acceptable in society for women to openly admit that they masterbate, so I think that many keep it quiet. A lot of women also need an electrical device to reach orgasm, and embarrassment stops many women from going out and buying one. So not as many women do it as men, but many girls do, including me." I smiled, before asking.

"Do you?"

He avoided eyes contact again and shook his head no. I was saddened to hear this, but given the history Alice had shared with me, I wasn't surprised.

"Well we can work on that too," I added in a soft voice.

I glanced at my watch and saw that our session was nearly up. I always kept the first session relatively short and I would increase the length over the next few weeks.

"Sadly our first session is nearly over," I said sincerely.

Jasper looked at me again. "Wow, that has gone by really quickly actually. I was so nervous beforehand, but that wasn't so bad," he smiled.

"Good, I'm glad I wasn't so scary after all. But I haven't given you your homework yet."

"Homework!" he questioned, smiling that sexy crooked grin at me once more.

"Yep."

I pulled out one of the draws that was in the coffee table in front us and took out a notebook and pen.

"I noticed that you had trouble saying the word masterbate. So I'm going to write down some of the words that I think you might find difficult to say."

On the paper I wrote down fifteen words, including vagina, penis, masterbate and cock, along with eleven other words that all had sexual connections. I passed the pad to Jasper and saw him look down the list.

"Once you get home I want you to say these words out loud, and I want you to continue to say them at least twenty times each day, until we meet for our next session in four days. The more you do it, the more the words should become easier to say, and the less taboo they will seem."

As I looked at Jasper he nodded his head. "I'll do my best," he said with a sincere voice.

"Great and if there are anymore you can think of, then add then to the list and practice saying them too."

I stood up then and Jasper followed my lead and stood up too.

"I would love to end our session by giving you a hug. Do you think this is something you could do?"

I knew I was pushing his boundaries but it just felt right to end our session with some sort of physical contact and I always went with my instincts.

"Yeah that would be okay," he said quietly.

I stepped closer to him, but not so close that our bodies were touching and leaned forward just enough so that I could encircle him with my arms. I was only small so my arms only just went around to touch his back. I left enough room so that he could put his arms around me if he wanted to. I also made sure that the bottom half of my body didn't touch his, as I knew this would be too much for him at this point. He didn't hug me back, but he didn't step away from my embrace either, so I felt that this was a huge achievement for our first session. I rested my head on his chest and squeezed him a little tighter for only a second and then let me arms drop and stepped back. I was sure I heard him sigh a little and it sounded like a happy sigh.

"Thank you for letting me do that Jasper," I said, beaming at him. He responded with a smile equally as bright and I was so glad I had pushed him to do it.

Our session ended on a light note and we chatted casually about his work as a children's book illustrator, as I walked him to the door, and he promised to bring me some of his work to look at at our next session. Once he had left I sat down with Alice and told her how things had gone, and she told me what she had planned for her next meeting with him in two days.

That night as I lay awake in bed unable to find sleep, my mind wandered over the little bit of time I'd spent with Jasper today. I then started to think about all the things I had planned for our sessions over the next few weeks. Unfortunately this train of thought quickly had me growing wet between my legs and rubbing my thighs together to find some friction. I knew I would never be able to rest if I didn't find some relief, so I reached into my bedside draw and got my small purple clit stimulator out. Less than a minute on setting two and I was panting and calling out Jasper's name as I found my release.

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