Jane startled awake. Sitting up quickly she looked around the room. She didn't know where she was. It was dark and she could only make out certain objects but none off these looked familiar. She knew she wasn't at Maura's place. Suddenly she felt someone place their hand on her shoulder. All off her police instincts came to Jane all at once. Spinning around she grabbed the hand on her shoulder and pinned the person to the bed.
Suddenly Maura was pinned down on the bed both hands above her head. Jane was sitting just above her hips her legs at either side of Maura with her hands holding Maura's wrists. Maura wasn't scared, she knew Jane would never hurt her. "It's just me." Maura whispered.
It took a few seconds for Jane to register the voice belonged to Maura. She quickly let go off Maura's wrists but didn't move to get off of her.
"It's just me, Jane." Maura gave a weak smile. "Just me." Maura waited until Jane started breathing normally before asking, "nightmare?"
Jane nodded.
"Are you okay?" Maura placed her hands on Jane's knees, her fingers tracing light patterns.
"Will they ever go away?" Jane asked, fighting back her tears. She was fed up off crying.
"They..." Maura started.
"No...I don't want to know." Jane rushed out.
"Are you okay?" Maura repeated.
"I just want one damn night were I just sleep. One night that I don't wake up with a nightmare. One night were I don't feel his breath on my skin, his hands on me..." Jane couldn't stop the tears. "Just one damn night." She said through gritted teeth before collapsing on Maura, her head in the crook of Maura's neck.
Maura wrapped her right arm around Jane's back while her left hand was still drawing patterns on Jane's knee. "You'll get there Jane." Maura whispered. Glancing at the clock Maura couldn't believe they had only been asleep for a few hours. Tightening her grip around the detective Maura realised she needed to tell Jane how she really felt about her. "Are you going back to sleep, Jane?" Maura smiled when she heard Jane mumble something against her neck. "I'm taking that as a yes."
Jane nodded. She was falling asleep, she couldn't believe how tired she was after the nightmare she had just had. She always felt safe enough in Maura's arms to go back to sleep.
"Maybe you should move. I very much doubt you will be comfy enough to get any sleep." Maura whispered. As much as she loved having Jane sleep in her arms, she highly suspected the position Jane was in at the minute wouldn't be very comfy after a long period of time.
"I am comfy enough." Jane mumbled.
Maura laughed. "I forgot you could sleep anywhere and be comfy."
"Not true."
"Name some place?" Maura asked, drawing smooth patterns on Jane's thigh.
Jane lifted her head so she could look at Maura. She didn't have to think about the answer she already knew it. "I was never comfy in Robert's bed."
"Ohh Jane, why didn't you ever tell me any of this?" Maura whispered, looking in Jane's eyes.
"Because I couldn't lose you." Jane whispered, she gave a very small smile. Jane didn't want to talk about this any more. She wanted to sleep. To sleep in Maura's arms like she was now. "I'm not moving." She said before resting her head back where it was a few minutes before.
Maura smiled. "Well, I highly suspect you're position will remain comfortable for the rest of the night. Although I must say I'm extremely comfortable laying like this. Did you know that..."
Jane groaned. "Don't go all google-mouth on me now. Can we just sleep and you can tell me in the morning?"
"It is morning, Jane." Maura replied.
"Okay then. Fine." Jane huffed. "Can't you just tell me when the sun is up and its light outside?"
"Sure. It can wait." Maura smiled.
"Maura," Jane mumbled. "Thank you."
Maura laughed. "Jane, you don't have to thank me for not, as you put it, going all google-mouth on you."
"I'm not thanking you for that, Maur."
"No? Then what are you thanking me for?" Maura asked. She couldn't think off anything Jane had to thank her for.
"For this. For everything." Jane whispered in Maura's ear.
Maura moved her shoulder to indicate she wanted Jane to lift her head. When she didn't Maura whispered. "Look at me, Jane." She waited until she held Jane's gaze. "Stop thanking me. You know you never have to thank me for any off this. You would do the same if it was me..." She saw Jane nod. "...I want to help you." She saw Jane nod again. "If me holding you helps you then that's great." Maura already knew it did. "I want to help you anyway I can. Just so you know I love holding you while you fall asleep in my arms." She saw Jane smile and she couldn't help but smile back. "I don't want you to thank me for any off this ever again, okay?"
Jane nodded. "I'm sorry."
"And stop apologizing."
"Sorry." Jane mumbled. "Oops. Erm...sorry."
Maura laughed and rolled her eyes.
"Did you just roll you're eyes at me? " Jane laughed.
Maura shook her head. "Are you still comfy enough to sleep like this?"
"Yep." Jane for the third time that night rested her head back where it was before. "I got you to roll you're eyes." Jane whispered in Maura's ear.
Maura laughed. "Go to sleep Jane."
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Maura was the first one to wake up. She was right Jane had moved during the night. Their legs were tangled together and Jane was still laying half on top of her. Maura tried to move from underneath Jane but the hand on her hip held her in place. Smiling Maura whispered, "Jane, I need to get up. I've got to be at a conference in a..." Maura turned to look at the clock. "Crap. I've got to be there in two hours." Maura expected Jane to roll off of her, but she didn't. "Jane. Now..."
"Nope. You're staying here all day. With me. Like this." Jane mumbled.
"Jane..." Maura warned.
"Maur...I'm comfy." Jane whined. "And tired." Jane lifted her head when she heard Maura laugh. "Please...just stay until I fall back to sleep. If you go now I'll never be able to get back to sleep."
"Okay...I'll stay in bed until you fall asleep. But you have to move otherwise I won't be able to climb out once you're asleep without me disturbing you."
Jane nodded and rolled over so she was on her side, legs still tangled together with Maura's. "Maur?"
"Yes?"
"Do you really have to attend all these conferences?" Jane asked, snuggling as close as she could get to Maura.
Maura tightened her grip around the detective. "No, but I find them to be quite fascinating."
"Will I be able to talk you into spending the day in bed with me?"
"No...I don't think you would."
Jane sighed. "I didn't think so."
"I can meet you for lunch downstairs, say around one?" Maura asked.
"Okay. I'd like that." Jane was having a very hard time staying awake. She didn't want to go to sleep yet, she knew Maura would get out of bed a few minute after she fell asleep. Turning her head she placed a gentle kiss on Maura's cheek, before closing her eyes and falling back to sleep.
…
Jane was woken up by her phone ringing. She knew Maura had left the hotel room. Walking out of the bedroom, Jane was once again amazed by how big this room was. Can't really call it a room. A suite...maybe. More like a penthouse. It was Frankie calling. "Hi, Frankie." Jane said, voice still full of sleep.
"Have you only just got up?" Frankie asked, surprised. He hadn't known Jane to have a lay in for a very long time.
"Well, I wouldn't have got up if you hadn't phoned. What's up?" Jane asked, slightly annoyed. The first time, since Maura had left, she had slept for more than a few hours, and desperately wanted to go back to sleep, only to be woken up by her little brother.
"Just wanted to make sure you got to New York alright? Thought you would have called to let me know last night."
"Frankie we both know you didn't call to make sure I got here okay. Although I did. Are you going to tell me the real reason? If not I kinda wanna go back to bed." Jane sat on the couch. "Hold on a sec, Frankie. I just want to order some coffee." Jane called room service and ordered two large coffee's, figuring she should start to wake up after she had drunk them. "I'm back."
"Ma's worried about you." Frankie rushed out. Not sure of the reaction Jane will give.
"Tell Ma she doesn't have to worry about me. I'm fine." Jane sighed. I should have known it would be because of Ma.
"Jane...she loves you."
"Then why the hell did she try to set me up with you're mate?" Jane was angry.
"I don't know. That's something you will have to ask her."
"No. I'm not asking her anything. If I talk to her right know I'll say things I don't mean. I love her, Frankie, I do, but she has taken this to far. I told her I'm in love with Maura and she acts all okay with it, then less than a week later she is trying to set me up with someone." Jane said. Shit. I just told Frankie I loved Maura. She had only told Maura and her Ma how she felt. She wanted to wait until Maura decided what to do before she told anyone. As much as she knew telling her Ma wasn't one of her greatest idea's, she knew her Ma would never judge or tell anyone without her permission. Or at least I thought she wouldn't judge. "Frankie..."
"Janie...Ma told me everything last night. I love you, that will never change, no matter who you are in love with. Ma feels the same."
"It doesn't feel that way." Jane said, getting off the couch Jane headed for the door. "One sec, my coffee's here." Opening the door, Jane sighed in relief when she smelt the coffee. After the young man had left Jane poured herself a cup. "Right I'm back. I've got my coffee."
"You know Ma loves you. Just talk to her." Frankie pleaded.
"I can't Frankie, not yet at least. Just tell her I'm safe and not to worry."
"She won't like this, Jane." Frankie said.
"Just tell her I'm safe and I'll be be home in a few days. I'll call her when I'm ready to talk. She might not like it but she will understand." Jane took a sip of her coffee.
"Okay, I'll tell her." Frankie sighed.
"Thanks. Frankie, I've got to go. I need to shower before I meet Maura for lunch. Oh wait...how is Jo and Bass?"
"Both fast asleep. Or Jo is at least. I'm not sure if tortoise's sleep." Frankie laughed. "Do they? Doesn't matter, I'll find out. It can be my mission for the day."
Jane laughed. "Goodbye, Frankie. I'll see you when I get back."
"Well...at least I made you laugh. Bye Janie. Tell Maura I said hi."
"Will do." Jane ended the call. She looked at the clock. It was midday. Jane had time to pour another coffee and drink it without having to rush before she got in the shower. It wouldn't take her long to get ready.
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Maura walked into the restaurant, glancing around she spotted Jane sitting at a table next to the windows overlooking the gardens. Walking over to the table she couldn't help but smile. "Hi." Maura said as she took her seat opposite Jane.
"Hey. Do you want a drink?" Jane asked, smiling.
"Just water. Thank you."
Jane signalled for the waiter to come over. "Can we have two glasses of water, please?"
"Not a problem. I'll be right back." The waiter said, walking away.
"How is the conference?" Jane asked.
"Okay. What time did you decide to get out of bed? You was fast asleep when I left. You looked so peaceful and extremely comfortable." Maura smiled, placing her bag on the chair next to her.
"I guess it was about 11:30 when I woke up. Although I must admit I wouldn't have woke up if Frankie hadn't called me." Jane stopped talking when the waiter placed their waters on the table. "Thank you. We'll let you know when we're ready to order." Jane waited until the waiter walked away before turning her attention back to Maura. Smiling, she added, "but I wish you would have stayed in bed with me."
Maura smiled. "Why did Frankie call? Is everything okay?"
Jane nodded. "Just to make sure I got here okay. Yea everything's okay. He's looking after Bass and Jo for us."
"What are you not telling me?" Maura asked as she watched her friend.
"Okay, fine. Frankie called because Ma is worried about me" Jane sighed. She hated Maura for knowing when something was bothering her, and when she wasn't telling her everything.
"Maybe you should call her." Maura said before taking a sip of her water.
"Not you as well." Jane huffed. "I'm not speaking to her until I'm ready, if I speak to her now...you know me Maura, you know I'll say things I don't mean. At the minute Maura, I honestly don't know if I can get past this." Jane looked away for a few minute before turning to look at Maura. "What she did Maur, it hurt a lot. I just need time I guess."
"Okay. Just promise me you'll talk to her...soon?" Maura smiled.
"Okay." Jane mumbled. "Do you know what you want?"
Maura shook her head and handed Jane her bag. "I'm going to the ladies room. Find the room key and the tell the waiter to put it all on my bill. I'll settle it before we leave." Maura stood up.
"Maura, I'll pay for lunch."
"No." Maura gave Jane a stern look. "I'll put it on my bill. Either you tell him to, or I will. But you're not paying."
"Fine. But the next meal is on me." Jane replied.
"Fine." Maura smiled. She knew better than to argue with Jane about who was paying for their next meal. She knew she wouldn't win paying twice in a row. She never had. Jane never backed down from that one.
Jane turned her attention back to Maura's bag after Maura has walked away. Opening it up she looked around for the room key. Spotting it she pulled it out, she was just about to wave the waiter back over when something in Maura's bag caught Jane's eye. Pulling out the envelope, Jane turned it around. There it was written in Maura's hand writing, clear as day. Jane. She couldn't have wrote me a letter. Could she? It was sealed so she couldn't look inside. Fumbling with the envelope she decided she needed to see what was inside, but she didn't open it. Instead she placed it on the table for Maura to see. Jane wanted to see her reaction, to her finding the letter. A few minute later she saw Maura walk back over to the table.
Maura didn't notice the envelope straight away. Sitting back down she asked, "did you tell the..." She stopped mid-sentence, seeing the envelope in the middle of the table. Jane's fingers tapping it. Looking up at Jane, she took a deep breath. "I forgot that was in there." She whispered.
Jane stopped tapping her fingers. "So...I wasn't meant to find it?"
Maura shook her head, no. "If I had wanted you to have it, I would have gave it to you."
"So...are you giving it to me now? Or am I meant to run off, so I can open it?" Jane smiled. She was going to see inside the envelope whether Maura liked it or not.
"Do I have a chance of winning if I argue with you about it?" Maura asked, hoping Jane would say yes. But knowing Jane would say no.
"No. There's no point in even trying." Jane picked the envelope up off the table and began to open it. She stopped though when Maura stood up. "Where are you going?"
"I don't want to be here when you read that." Maura started to walk away. She got a few steps before she felt Jane grab her wrist.
Jane pulled Maura in the opposite direction.
"Jane...where are we going?" Maura asked. She knew the answer once Jane stopped out the elevator.
Jane pulled Maura in once the doors opened. Hitting the button for the floor they were staying on, she let go Maura's wrist. She turned to face Maura. "I'm going to read this." Jane stated as she held the envelope between them both.
Maura nodded.
"I'm reading this while you're with me."
Maura looked at Jane. Eyes pleading with detective not to do this.
Jane smiled. "I've got to Maura. My gut tells me you're wanting to run from whatever is in here. I can't let you do that. So I'm afraid you haven't got a choice. Whatever you have put in here, we will face it together."
Maura nodded. She hated this, but she knew Jane was right. She did want to run. Maura took a small step towards Jane and placed her head on her shoulder. "You promise everything will be okay between us?" Maura mumbled.
Jane instantly wrapped her arms around the M.E, bringing her closer. "I promise." Jane placed a light kiss to the top of Maura's head.
It wasn't what was in the letter what was making Maura so nervous. It was what she would have to do after Jane had read it. You should have thrown it away. This wouldn't be happening if you had just it thrown it away.
Jane felt Maura tense up, so she tightened her grip around her. She felt terrible for making Maura stay while she was reading this. You know she'll run if you let her go. "We'll be okay, Maur." Jane whispered. Whatever happens next, Jane Rizzoli, you can't let her run from this. From you. We'll be okay. We have to be.