Castle woke up the next morning half on the bed, blankets and pillows all strewn out around him. Sleeping while he's angry doesn't always go well for him. He sat up and contemplated going to the precinct, it's not like he was truly wanted or needed by her. But when he thought about it, this was the first time he felt like he was doing something to make a difference, in real life, not fiction. His mother told him he couldn't just turn off her emotions and work next to her, but she was wrong. He could feel his emotions of affection and love, wait no not love anymore, turn into anger and hurt. Maybe if he let those emotions change even more they will turn into indifference about her and who she dates, that way she won't be able to hurt him anymore-because he won't even care. He decided he would go in. He had the boys there who still liked him and didn't lie or hurt him on a daily basis; he was also helping to make a difference, which was most important.

Kate was sitting at her desk filling out some old paperwork to keep herself busy while the boys were throwing a stress ball back and forth talking about who knows what. "Yo Beckett where's Castle?" Kate's head popped up and glanced at the clock, hmm it is already 10:30 and no sign of Castle.

"I don't know Espo maybe he got tied up with something."

"Or by someone." Ryan added under his breath receiving a high five from Esposito.

Kate leveled a glare at them but soon the glare was washed over with an expression of hurt, which the other two detectives didn't miss. "Uhhh sorry Beckett?" Both boys said in unison but they had no idea why she looked so hurt, it was just a joke.

Beckett's face returned to a glare and got up and picked up the files of paperwork she was doing to keep her busy and walked over to their desks and plopped three on each of their desks. "Here, now you guys are tied up withpaperwork." She strode back to her desk and sat down and went to check her email on her computer while both the detectives of her team threw glares at her and huffed under their breaths. Yep they knew not to mess with her today.

A few minutes later the elevator dinged and the doors slid open revealing Castle but he only had one coffee cup in his hand. He walked over to Beckett's desk and took his coat off and set it on the chair. Beckett looked up at him but became confused when he didn't hand her a coffee. "Castle? Coffee?"

He just looked down at her and with a shrug of his shoulder he simply said, "Didn't think you'd want it."

"Detective let me explain. I went to wear I usually get our coffee but it was a new barista and they made it wrong and I got tired of waiting." Kate's heart dropped at the last part. She was about to say something but Castle cut back in, "So then I went to the café a block from here but when they handed me your cup the barista wrote a noteon your cup, if you will, and even though it doesn't and wouldn't affect you I thought you'd be mad at her passes at me." Even though it makes no sense why, it's not like you even care about me in the slightest way like that, he added in his head. "Anyway so I threw yours out on the way here and thought I'd just make one for you myself." He set his cup down on the edge of her desk and walked away towards the break room. Kate didn't know whether to be hurt, mad, or frustrated but she didn't even know who those emotions should be directed towards! Castle, the barista, or herself. She didn't know how to react so she stared at her computer until she had her coffee.

Castle came back a couple minutes later with a mug in his hand and set it down next to her computer on her desk. She was going to thank him but once she looked up she saw him grab the back of his chair and pull it over to Ryan and Esposito's' desks and sat down and pulled out some tickets from his pocket and handed them over, all three had smiles on their faces. Kate watched the exchange and felt a swell in her chest as she realized how close he was to them and how they all cared for each other, how they were a great team.

To her disliking Castle kept his chair over there all day and never once looked over at her or talked to her. Every time she tried to ask him something he would either respond with one or two words or direct the question to one of the boys. By the end of the day she was feeling deeply sad and just wanted to talk to Castle. She was off shift in one more hour. She saw Castle walk over to the break room to get a coffee, she stood up instantly and followed him in and shut the door behind her. "Castle is there something you want to talk about?"

He didn't even look at her just stayed focused on the coffee machine. "No. I would've already said something if there was."

Ouch. "Well I want to talk about something Castle. Actually there's more than one thing I think we need to talk about."

"Sure. Whatever, but not right now."

"Then when Castle?" Her voice rose slightly. "I've been trying to talk to you all day and you keep brushing me off, why won't you talk to me?"

"We're in the precinct. Maybe we should talk later, like we always do." He added sarcastically. With that he opened the door and walked back over to his chair at the boys' desks. Beckett ran a hand through her hair and let out a frustrated sigh. This was her fault and she knew it. She knew by his last comment that he never planned on talking about it at all because they never did, but that needed to change. And it would.

An hour later she was off shift and really needed to talk to Castle. It was only 5 pm so they would have all night to talk, she also had tomorrow off. She stood up and started collecting her things and tidying up her desk. "Boys I'm done for the day you guys can head out too, any new cases will go to Karpowski."

"Actually we were going stay longer to finish this paperwork." Ryan responded with a glare. She leveled a glare back at him.

"You coming Castle?" She turned her head slightly and looked at him sitting in the chair looking at Ryan confused, why would they have paperwork if there were no cases?

"Uh nah, I think I'm going to stay with them until they finish and then head to the Old Haunt."

He was obviously avoiding her like he was all day and she had enough. She put her jacket on and slung her bag over her shoulder and strode over to Castle and grabbed him by his sleeve with a vice grip and lead him to the elevator and dragged him in behind her. She received looks from the boys but the elevator closed before she could level a look at them. "Beckett what are you doing?"

"We're going to talk."

With that the elevator opened again and she walked over to her car and opened her door but before she got in she turned around and saw Castle standing there. "Come on Castle, get in." He walked to the passenger side and slipped in the car.

After a silent drive she pulled up outside of Central Park and parked her car and got out. Castle followed suit. The drive was quiet, neither of them talked, but she was grateful for it. She thought to herself the whole drive and it really allowed her anger to diffuse and to be washed over with a wave of determination to confess her feelings and fight for him, how he used to do for her. She thought a moment later, he used to fight for her, but he doesn't anymore and she would give anything for him to be like that now. She wished he was like Castle again, her Castle again. He followed her through the park quietly and he seemed to have relaxed a little too because his shoulders weren't as tense and he wasn't stiff around her how he was all day, he didn't seem mad either. But she knew he still was angry because instead of walking too close to be acceptable for just colleagues like he used to, he walked with three feet between them and a little behind her because he didn't know where they were going. He wasn't so mad anymore, when he thought about how he acted today he wasn't all too pleased with his behavior. Maybe she didn't deserve to be treated the way she was today. He was brought out of his thoughts when she stopped abruptly in front of him. She turned around and faced him, "Hold my shoes." She grabbed his shoulder to help her balance and took off her heels and handed them to Castle. She turned back around, considerably shorter than him now, and grabbed up a couple rocks and climbed up a little and looked back and motioned for her heels again, he handed them back quickly and she tossed them on top of the rock and climbed up the rest of the way and walked away from the edge. Castle waited a few moments and looked around, there weren't as many people out as he thought would be but it was kind of chilly, despite the sun shining. He started climbing up and when he got to the top he saw her standing there in the middle of the big flat rock looking up at the buildings. She had her heels hanging on two fingers in one hand and her other hand was reached up to her neck; he knew instantly that she was playing with her mom's ring. His heart clenched at the sight of her. It was half filled with love and half filled with guilt and he knew his omission at the cemetery was probably the cause of all of this, she didn't deserve all this drama, she deserved to be happy. He was going to make sure she got that happiness, even if it didn't involve him. He was going to make this easy for her.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR THE FEEDBACK AND RESPONSE TO THE FIRST CHAPTER! IT REALLY MEANS A LOT! I TRY TO REPLY TO ALL REVIEWS I GET BUT TO THE GUEST REVIEWS: THANK YOU SO MUCH AND I WOULD LOVE TO REPLY TO EACH OF YOU INDIVIDUALLY BUT I CAN'T! CHAPTER THREE IS GOING TO BE THE START OF THEIR BIG TALK THAT BECKETT IS PUSHING SO MUCH FOR!

To the guest reviewer who brought up Serena Kaye: I indeed remember how he said he loved her and then three months later was fascinated with Serena Kaye. That comes up in the next chapter.

And to the guest reviewer who left that angry review: I understand what you are saying but what you mentioned happens in season 5 and this is still season 4 and turns AU, so that stuff may not even happen in this story. I respect your opinion and thank you for the review and if you have any constructive criticism I will take it into account but calling me a hypocrite I do not believe helped anyone. I am going to continue writing this how I intended and I hope you enjoy this story but if you do not enjoy it then you don't have to keep reading it. This is also a romance story too so it's all about Caskett.

I BELIEVE IN HAPPY ENDINGS MY DEAR LOVELYS, KEEP THAT IN MIND.