AN: Ok, I wish I could promise all the updates this quickly, but I'm going back to school Sunday, but I'll try to get another out before then, and maybe 2 a week after. Hope you like this.

"Shawn!" Juiet answers the phone relieved that he's still alive.

"This call is to say goodbye."

"Shawn are you ok," she asks, worried from his tone, he sounds possibly on his death bed.

"Try to get anything- a location-" Gus chimed in, beside her.

"Shh," she yells at Gus, and continues, "Shawn, where are you?"

"Don't-don't ask me any questions 'cuz I can't say anything else. If you care about me you'll understand."

Confused and worried, she slides into her chair. Of all the stupid stuff he's pulled, he's never been in danger like this, and it scared the hell out of her, it took all of the effort she had not to panic, "I'm listening."

"I'm not gonna be able to have much of a future anymore, but back at where we were, I'll be there, ok?"

"Back? I don't know what that means, Shawn, what are you talking about," she scrunches her eyebrow, not following what he's saying, searching her mind for some sense in it.

"The wind chimes that I got you for your birthday, every time you hear them, from now on, that'll be me."

This was more than she could take, he's talking about death, he must be worse off than she thought, she couldn't lose him. He meant so much to her, and she never got a chance to show him how much she- no this wasn't about her, or them, it was about keeping him safe. She needed to keep him calm, which meant she needed to at least fake a calm voice, "Ok, Shawn, first of all, you are going to be fine. We're going to find you, ok? Don't worry."

"Listen, before-before I go, I have to say one more thing."

Oh God, she couldn't deal with this, but she had no choice. Just give him his wish, you don't know if you'll be able to ever again, "Of course, Shawn, what it is?"

"I need you to know that- I love you."

Her heart stopped, it was the one thing she had wanted to hear for the longest time, sure, it wasn't in the best situation, but he said it. He could have called Abigail and told her but instead he chose her. So she decided to risk it and tell him while she still had the chance, "Shawn, I think that I-"

"Goodbye Abigail."

And her world came crashing down. It was code, he was trying to help himself get found; there were no feelings. And he would never realize how much that killed her inside.

That's when she opened her eyes that were filled with tears. It was just a dream. Shawn had once asked her if she believed in a love curse, before she wasn't sure, but now she KNEW they existed, she knew because those forces were determined to put her through as much pain as possible. Why else would they make her relive that in her dreams?

She got out of bed. She was too shaken up to fall back asleep, so she decided to make herself some tea. On her way to her kitchen she stopped to check her phone, which she left on the coffee table. She didn't know who would text her at oh wow, 3:30am but she checked anyway. There was a time that Shawn would text her if he couldn't sleep, one time he even got her to play this silly game in which he would text a word and then she had to reply with the first word she thought of, and it would keep going. But that was in the past.

She knew that he always liked her, but at first she thought it was only for her body. After all, that's what most the guys that 'liked her' wanted. But then his smile, witty banter, the gleam in his eyes, his persistence, the fact that he would help anyone, and even his childish behavior began to charm her, but the fact that he knew her so well without even trying, like he could see right into her sole is what made her realize he was serious and what made her fall in love.

The problem was it had scared her. She refused to admit it, even to herself for the longest time. So much could go wrong. First of all, they worked together, the cases could get personal. Chief Vick would never allow it, it was a conflict of interests, and it was against protocol, that's why she was even in Santa Barbara, because Lassiter's previous partner was also his love interest. And even if they could get past all that, there was one blinding issue in the way. The fact that Shawn Spencer had the inability to commit to anything, she knew that Shawn had never been in a real relationship, so why would he start then.

But despite her mind trying to reason with her heart, she fell for him. She didn't know when, but the time she realized it, she fell way to far to ever get out again. She was able to reason that Shawn had been able to commit to his agency for 3 years, that was great commitment, and he had also been friends with Gus since he was 5. Maybe he could commit. She also reasoned that he didn't technically work for the SBPD, and there were no rules against dating a private investigator to her knowledge, and she knew the rules forwards and backwards. So she went for it. She decided to face her fears and ask Shawn out and though she appeared ok with it when he rejected her for Abigail, it shattered her heart.

Just then, her tea kettle whistled, ripping her from her thoughts. She sighed as she poured the tea into her mug and took it to her couch. She sat down and wrapped herself in the crocheted blanket her grandma gave her. She contemplated getting out her guitar, it always helped when she was upset, but figured she shouldn't or her neighbors might kill her. Instead she allowed herself to zone out, until she jumped when her phone vibrated.

Shawn
Sent- 3:47 am
Received- 3:47 am
I'm sorry. :(

AN: I hope I kept Juliet in character. Please Review!