"You dismiss the concept of us so swiftly Mary, that you don't even take the time to fully consider the possibilities."
"Is that what you truly believe Bash? That I haven't considered the possibilities?" I lowered my voice, even though I knew no one would hear us. "We were together as only a man and wife should be, and you don't think I have considered the possibilities? It breaks my heart every time I think of us that way, at the same time as it races it with the desire for more. You say that you understand what you ask of me, that you understand what we both are risking but I am risking more Bash. We may both lose our heads for this, but I shall also lose a kingdom." He rubbed his hands over his face in anguish.
"So you've had your fun is that it Mary? That you toy with me as a revenge for Francis's misguidedness with Lola.."
"How do you know of that?" I abruptly interrupted.
"I hear whispers Mary. You aren't necessarily as wary when you have such conversations."
"There is no need to be cruel Bash." He laughed at this, a hand clutching his chest.
"I'm being cruel!?" I could see the rage flicker across his features. "You Mary have played my heart like a violin, and now that you have broken its strings you have no more use for it. You make up lies to comfort me in the hopes that the ideas of duty and custom are to diminish my feelings for you."
"I'm..I'm just so confused Bash." I muttered, twisting my hands around each other.
"Confusion is fine Mary, it means you are still searching for an answer. But you have made up your answer Mary, it was already decided prior to the library."
"That isn't true Bash!" It was my turn to become angry. I moved in towards him so we were only a breath apart, grabbing his head between my hands I brought his ear to my lips as I whispered, "It is you who is dismissing things so irrationally, using words to talk yourself into a fantasy realm full of only happy endings." I moved his head so I could look into his eyes, "We don't live in a fantasy Bash, things aren't so easily decided. And yes I know you question the need for a decision, but our lives are built on such things. To ignore them would be madness." He rested his hands against mine, staring back.
"We are endlessly having the same conversation Mary, and I am tiring of it easily. You and I is what I want, it awakens me to know it is what I have always wanted and will forever want. You remain fearful of letting me in completely when I do not aim to disrupt your life, but to fulfill it."
"You place a lot of faith in your capabilities Bash, when it isn't possible for us to have the life that you desire. Not here in these walls, not now in this time."
"Then let us run away."