Thursday 1st October, The loft
If you thought that yesterday was a strange day is was nothing to what happened today.
So I got to school this morning and I got bombarded with questions.
"Are you ok??? I tried to call you last night!!!" Said Tina
"Yeah you like totally freaked out the whole school is talking about it" said Lana, it sounds harsh but I'm pretty sure that was Lana's way of being concerned.
"I am glad that you are ok" said Boris, he is so sweet.
I was really glad to find out that JP was away for the day. He had some family thing going on. I mean I hope that everything is OK but I don't think I could have handled telling everyone about me and him just yet.
I can't believe my mom made me face this after the day that I had yesterday. SHE IS EVEN MADE ME GO TO PRINCESS LESSONS! I just tried to shrug it all off and say that I was just tired and still getting over my bronchitis. This seemed to calm most people, Tina was still a bit concerned but she moved on to trying to find out what me and JP were talking about when it happened.
Only I couldn't tell Tina what had really happened because well Tina just wouldn't understand me dating a guy that I didn't love. That kind of thing just doesn't happen in Tinaland.
So anyway my day was going ok apart from people asking me if I was ok or yelling at me that I was crazy. It wasn't until lunch that my day started to just get strange.
So I was just sitting down to eat my lunch when who should come up to me but Lilly. This was the first time Lilly had even acknowledged my existence since the day she had blown up at me. But there she was looking right at me.
"What happened to you?" No joke that is what she said, After not talking to me for so long and completely humiliating me in front of everyone. She was just acting as though nothing had happened. What did she think I was just going to forgive her just like that?
She stood there for a while just waiting for me to reply but I guess she got that I wasn't going to from the fact that I just sat there with my mouth open staring at her. I wasn't the only one. The everyone else who was sitting at the table was staring too. So she started to talk.
"Look I saw you talking to JP and I don't know what happened but I wanted to tell you that I'm sorry. I should have told you everything." I was a little confused by this apology but I was just so excited about the fact that Lilly was talking to me again. Not only that she had apologised to me. I just stood up and said.
"Lilly it doesn't matter I have been the worst friend ever. I am so sorry." Then the next thing I knew I was crying again for the second time in two days in front of the whole school but the crazy thing was I wasn't alone this time Lilly was crying well. She kept saying all this stuff about being sorry about not telling me.. and how she never wanted me to get hurt. I guess she was talking about the whole Michael thing. I think she is over reacting because I don't think I would have believed her if she had told me Michael was going to break up with me.
I was still crying when I got to G&T. I was telling Lilly how upset I was about Michael and everything that was going on with him. I didn't say anything about JP because I didn't want Lilly to hate me when we had only just started being friends again. And even if she has forgiven me for kissing JP once by accident I don't know if she would forgive me for the other times.
"Lilly" I thought I if I didn't ask now I might never be able to "Why hasn't Michael written back? I mean he was the one that said we should be friends."
"How should I know? We don't talk about you Mostly when he calls he just asks what the weather is like. Though I don't know why he just doesn't check online." She said but she was kind of distracted, she is working to try and convince the school bored that this whole cell phone tower thing.
So then Lilly had to get back to work but she did ask me to come over on Friday night for a sleep over. I said yes and it wasn't until school finished that realised that Friday was the night I was supposed to have dinner at JP house. I couldn't cancel on Lilly because I mean we she only just started talking me and I couldn't cancel on JP because I had been so awful about everything.
oh my god my life is just so hard. And if you think this is the worst of it wait until you here what happened when I went with Grandmere.
I am so not emotionally ready to deal with all this. I am still so fragile!!!!!
When I got to the Four Seasons I was freaking out because of the fact that I had made plans with both Lilly and JP on the same night and I couldn't cancel on either of them. Lars suggested that I tell them both that I am sick so I couldn't possible go to either then I am being far to both. But then I am letting them both down so I can't possibly do that but I guess Lars was just trying to help.
Well Grandmere took one look at me and said.
"Alight Amelia what is the matter now? It's not that boy again is it because I thought that was over." She was her usual tactful self of course.
"Go on get it over and done with we have a lot to go through today." She had stopped doing drinking and even smoking and was just staring at me.
"It's nothing Grandmere I am just not feeling well." I tried to stop my nostrils from flaring but it obviously didn't work.
"You are lying Amelia now tell me what is wrong." She was staring at me in a way that made me feel like she was looking inside my head to find the truth.
"I made some plans with JP on Friday and I totally forgot about it when Lilly asked me if I wanted to hang so I said that I would." I shouldn't have told her but I was out of idea's and seeing as my mom's advice had got me into this mess and my dad is still not talking me I didn't really have anyone I could ask for advice.
"Oh Amelia I don't know why you make such a fuss about silly things. You will just simply tell your friend Lilly that you already had plans and perhaps you can reschedule. Your friend will understand and you simply cannot cancel on your dinner at the Reynolds-Abernathy's place for a silly little friend." She seemed to think that this was enough of a solution so she started to go on about her stupid party.
"Grandmere I cannot tell Lilly that I am going out with JP she has only just started talking to me again and the reason she wasn't talking to me was because of JP I couldn't possibly tell her that I am going on a DATE with him!!!" I was out of breath when I had finished saying this. So I had to gather my thoughts before I continued luckily Grandmere hadn't even looked up.
"And how Grandmere did you know that I was going to JP's house for dinner we could have been going out somewhere." I was freaking out as I said this, was the whole thing with JP all Grandmere's idea??
"His father called to ask if you had any dietary requirements as he had heard that you were a vegetarian. I told him that you would eat what you were given and not to worry because you had gottern over that sill faze anyway. Now we have important things to discuss." Said Grandmere.
Ok so that made sense but it still didn't solve my problem. What was I going to do about Lilly and JP.
"Weren't you listening Grandmere I can't tell Lilly about me and JP she would hate me again." I was trying to get across the seriousness of my problem.
"Sometimes you astonish me Amelia, have I taught you nothing. You smiley tell Lilly that you have prior engagement with me and that you cannot get out of it and she will understand and if not I will call her and tell her that this is the truth." Why can't I have a normal Grandmother not one that tells me to lie to my friends and sells me off at a ball to the highest bidder. But I had to admit she had a point, Lilly knows what my grandmere is like and she would get the whole me not being able to get out of it thing and if I told her over the phone she wouldn't be able to see my nostrils flaring.
"Now if we are done with this drama we have allot to get done. The first thing we are going to discuss is what you should wear to dinner tomorrow night. You will be excused from princess lessons tomorrow because you will need to undergo a full beauty treatment we will need to get a more thorough wax this time." said grandmere.
I was still a little distracted by the Lilly thing so I just kind of nodded and smiled. I did mention that I had therapy in the afternoon and she said that she would work around it. I didn't think she knew what he was talking about after therapy I would only have time to shower get dressed and go not for this whole body treatment she seemed to be cooking up.
After a while of her telling me all the things she had planned for me some of which scared me, like why do I need a bikini wax? She started to talk to me about something that really freaked me out.
"Now what we need to work on is how to lure a man." She said as if it was a normal thing for a grandmother to say.
"What" I said back "Grandmere I don't need to learn how to lure a man especially not from my grandmother." Ok I sort of screamed more then said. I could not believe my grandmother was trying to give me dating advice.
"I thought that we had more time but since things seemed to have progressed further with John Paul then we only have a little bit of time. I was not planning on getting into any of this until next week. " As she finished saying this she looked down at a list she had written, I can't believe it my grandmother writes out lesson plans for DATING!!! I was too shocked to speak.
"Do not just sit there with your mouth open you will never get a man like that. Now the first thing you need to know is the art of flirting."
And it went on from this and it got worse way worse. I had to block it from my memory forever when she started talking about how far you should let a guy go. As far as grandmere is concerned its pretty much as far as his wallet will take him. My grandmother was training me to be prostitute. I know she comes from a different time but honestly how much is a girl supposed to take.
I called my dad on my way home but all I got from him was.
"Mia if you are calling me to remind me about your therapy session tomorrow then I will try my best to make it but I can't promise anything. If you are calling about anything else then I do not want to talk about it!" With that he hung up the phone what if I had been dying or what if mom was in hospital?
But I also called Lilly.
Lilly: Oh hey Mia, what's up?
Me: Hey Lilly look I am really sorry but I my grandmother is making me do this stupid dinner thing tomorrow night so I won't be able to make it around. I tried to get out of it but you know what she is like.
Which was pretty smooth I thought.
Lilly: Yeah that's ok, wanna come over on Saturday my parents are going to Japan for a week to see how Michael is fitting in, I think its just an excuse to go away together and take there relationship to the next level because Michael is really too busy to do anything.
Me: Oh so Michael is really busy then.
Lilly: Well yeah he is trying to build a something that no one else has been able to do.
Me: Oh right, so you don't hear from him that often.
Lilly: Well he has only been gone a couple of weeks. I didn't really talk to him that much when he has here. So anyway are you cool to come to my party?
Me: It's a party?
Lilly: Yeah but don't freak out its not a collage party.
Me: Shut up Lilly anyway I should go. Will I see you at school tomorrow?
Lilly: Nah my parents are making me go with them to the airport, they want to feel like they feel bad about leaving me all along for a week.
So that didn't go as badly as I thought and now I know that Michael has been really busy which is probably why he has not written back, but still you would think he could have at least said something. Anything.
Now the only problem I have is I don't know if I want to go to JP's tomorrow night. And Grandmere is really starting to freak me out I mean at first I thought that this was all just a joke or it wasn't what I thought it was but its becoming clear that Grandmere's plan for next Friday night is to find me a husband.
At least there is no princess lessons tomorrow so I don't have to deal with it till Monday.
I should try to sleep I suppose.