This chapter is rated T 'cuz I cursed in it twice and I'm paranoid

Disclaimer: I. OWN. NOTHING.

Rin felt like shit the whole bus ride home. He tried, so desprately he tried to not let the demon's words bother him. But, it didn't work. Was it really his fault? Did Shiro die because of him?

'Yes'

The answer was involentary, but instantanious. It was, without a doubt, true. Shiro died because of him. And so, it was his fault. Simple as that. As much as Rin wanted to put it out of his mind the way he did before, he couldn't. He blamed Satan and swore revenge, but in truth, it was his fault. There was no more blaming Satan, for it wasn't his fault. It was no one's fault but his own. Yukio had said it was his fault too. Rin was just an idiot, so he was the only one who didn't notice. It was all his fault. If he had listened to his father, if he had listened to Shiro, he wouldn't have died. But he ignored all his perfectly reasonable explainations on why no one had ever told him about his heritage and yelled at him. All Shiro had ever done was try to help and protect him, and he got mad at him for it. He died protecting Rin's sorry ass 'till the end. And the last thing he said to Shiro, while he was still Shiro, was "Don't ever let me see you acting like my father again!" His dad was such a great person. Rin didn't deserve to be raised by someone like him. He was the Son of Satan for crying out loud! Why did Shiro care about him? Why did anyone ever care about him?

He looked around the bus, to his friends around him. Satan had targeted Shiro because Shiro was close to him. Would he target his friends too? Would more people die because of him? Rin couldn't bare to think about that. But he did. He thought about it, hating Satan more and more with each disturbing image that surfaced in his mind. He hated himself even more with each thought as well. 'It would be all my fault' He kept thinking.

Rin was so lost in his self-hate he didn't notice they had arrived at True Cross. Only when Yukio finally poked him for the twelth time did he notice they were there. Without a word, ignoring the concerned looks from his friends,* he got off the bus. When he got back to his dorm, he went directly to sleep.

His dreams only worsened the new information which he had accepted.

It's all my fault.

*I was so tempted to write nakama here it isn't even funny. Just thought you should know...

Ok, so it's a short chapter, I know, but I wanted to get it in for 2 reasons

1) I wanted more guilty Rin angst. I wanted to write about Rin's thoughts the bus ride home

2) All my friends (shoutout to my nakama! HI GUYS!) wanted to know how the Exwires would react to the new info. So, to piss them off (and troll all of my wonderful fans), I decided to push off the reactions to another day!

Also an unimportant and unrelated note: in order to write this chapter, I had to listen to "One Day" which is the 13th One Piece opening. I usually can't listen to that song 'cuz it makes me sad, but I decided it would be good to listen to it while trying to write this. (tho I don't suggest listening to it while reading this, it doesn't really fit. It just makes me depressed) So yea, I even had sad music playing in the background while writing this so hopefully, I did the angst well.

Also, someone mentioned the priests were there during the scene where Shiro died, and, well 1) I forgot and 2) this is based off the manga, I don't thin they were there in the manga (even if they were, for the sake of the story we're gonna pretend they weren't, k?)

Wow, my AN is almost as long as the chapter... That's kind of pathetic on my part... Oh well :D

- Lew-chan :D