Friday 9th October, Bathroom, the Ball

I know I said that I threw my journal but I just couldn't do it. I did have every intention to never use it again but this is totally an emergency.

Why you might ask am I yet again hiding sitting in a bathroom writing in my journal??? Well because I hate my Grandmere of course. She goes and does it again. I mean why she couldn't have done this last week or last month, I just don't get it. She just wants to make my life a living hell.

This is supposed to be my night, I was actually happy, and I was starting to look forward to it. This is the like the first time that I have ever looked forward to anything Grandmere has made me do but I was.

I was making my grand entrance JP on my arm actually feeling ok with the fact that everyone eyes were on me. All my friends were there and I had a totally hot date. When I first walked out I new that something was wrong. Tina had this look on her face like she was trying really hard to look calm when she clearly wasn't.

At first I thought that she was just feeling nervous in sympathy of me because she had known how nervous I was. Then I saw that everyone around her kind of looked nervous. Except for Lana she never looks nervous she was looking around with Trish as if picking out which guys she was going to go for.

It wasn't until I saw my mom's face, yes my mom is at a ball, that I started to think that something might actually be wrong. She had the same kind of nervous look on her face but there was something else. She also seemed really mad, and not just mad because she was wearing pantyhose she looked really mad and she was trying really hard to hide it.

That's when I started to freak out, I mean my mom had been invited but I didn't think she would come. Let alone actually get dressed up. What made me really nervous was that all the anger was pointed in one direction, right at Grandmere.

I looked around the room for Grandmere to see what she could have possibly done that made my mom so mad. As I was looking my eyes fell on someone else. Not just because he looked really out of place in a brown pinstriped suit amongst all the black tuxedos. No it was because standing there in front of me was Michael.

MICHAEL IS HERE!!! HERE IN NEW YORK!!! Not in Japan but here at this very ball looking totally cool and even more wonderful then I can remember.

I guess this is a measure of how far I have come because instead of freaking out in front of everyone, I held it in. I did my duty though I don't know why I owe Grandmere anything. She new that Michael and I had broken up, she new how much that had hurt me.

I don't know how I managed to hold it together. It might have been because JP and Michael were looking at each other in a rather violent way. So I quickly steered JP away from Michael and up to the podium where I proceeded to welcome the guest for coming I even managed to thank Grandmere for organizing it.

It got even worse because the music started and everyone waited for me to be the dance floor guinea pig. So I had to walk out on to floor my hand in JP's, he was holding it really tight it kind of hurt. I guess he was nervous as well, and then I had to dance with JP in front of everyone in front of Michael.

As soon as the song finished I excused myself because I was about to be ambushed by a bunch of sympathizers, the love of my life and my boyfriend. I walked very swiftly towards Lars who already new what I why. He had my journal in his hand, I had given it to him because I just couldn't throw it out.

So Lars said that he would keep it for me in case that I needed it. I told him that I never would but I guess he new better then me. He said he wouldn't tell anyone that I hadn't thrown it out. But what else am I supposed to do??? Michael is back and I am dating JP! I can't talk to anyone else because no one else will understand.

There is someone outside the bathroom door. Please don't be Michael, please don't be anyone who wants to talk about Michael.

It's my mom, I mean it was really sweet of her to come to this ball for me even though she hates it, but if she expects me to come out of this bathroom then she has another thing coming. There is someone else with her, its Tina. Tina is so sweet, she said that she wishes she had two guys fighting over her.

They say that I don't have to come out but if they don't want Lars to come in a break then door down then I will have to open it. I guess it will be ok if I don't have to leave, because at least in the girls bathroom I am safe from Michael and JP and I don't have to deal with anything.

Friday 9th October, Still in the bathroom

My mom and Tina have gone to get me a drink, my mom says that it might be a good night for me to try some champagne. They have been really great and I feel better now that I have talked to someone. I guess my mom understands more then I thought. I mean she was young once, and she did fall in love with a prince and get pregnant when she was only young.

I opened the door to the bathroom and my mom and Tina rushed forward to hug me.

"What am I going to do?" I cried into my mom's arms.

"Oh honey" she said in that mom way that just makes you feel better. "It will be alright."

"Yeah" added Tina, "in my books the girl always has to choose between two guys. I think it's romantic."

"It's not romantic Tina," I said a little frustrated. "Anyway Michael doesn't even love me I don't even know why he is here. This is just some sick joke that Grandmere has concocted."

"Oh Mia you are silly sometimes" said my mom. "I don't think Michael would have come all this was if he didn't care for you. And as for your grandmother I have called your father and he is going to have a talk to her about princess lessons. We really think that it's important for you to focus on your studies."

Did she really mean that??? No more princess lessons. No more Grandmere. I have to admit this cheered me up a lot. Not enough to leave the ladies but enough to smile a little.

"I can't believe she did that," said Tina. "And just after you and JP got together."

"OH god," I said feeling a little bit sick. "JP is he ok, he must hate me. I completely forgot about him again and he has been so great about the whole thing."

"He's Ok" said Tina, "he's with Boris. He is just worried about you. We all are, even Michael."

"So there not fighting," I hiccupped.

"No Mia" my mom smiled at me. "They are not fighting, though I don't think that they are going to be best friends any time soon."

So we talked some more about all kinds of things. It was nice, but I really wanted to know what had happened.

"Umm" I said nervously. "Is Michael still here or did he leave after he saw me with JP"

"I'll go find out as much as I can and come tell you," said Tina getting up to walk away. "I'll be your spy."

Tina is so great, this is why I love her because she totally gets it. I really wanted to know what was going on. So Tina left and my mom said that she was going to go and get me a drink because I looked like I needed one. But I think she just wanted to go and yell at Grandmere. I have to admit I am kind of excited about that.

GO MOM!

I think someone just walked into the bathroom. I thought I told Lars to watch the door so no one came in here.

Oh god I know those shoes.

Oh god I know that voice.

This is the GIRLS bathroom, what does he think he is doing.

Oh no I forgot to lock the door again after mom left.