Ok, I apologize for the last chapter. It was horrific. Here is the next one (LONGEST CHAPTER YET!), not great, but better than the last. I will probably update again tonight. Thanks!
Uriah, Zeke, Shauna, and Marlene take the first train car. Christina and Will take the second car. I make sure that Tobias and I have the third car. We are finally alone.
We sit on the back wall, so close that our shoulders are touching.
"Remember this?" I place my hand on his hip. When he smiles at me, a swing my leg over so I am on top of him. I kiss him. Hard. He kisses me back, smiling. I grin, moving my hands to his waist. I slip my thumb under the waistband of his jeans, rubbing small circles over his hip bone. He moans, moving to kiss my jawline. My hands move up and down his back, tracing his tattoos lightly. Tobias moves his hands to my hair, tugging gently. I pull back, laughing.
"What?" He asks, puzzled.
"I was just thinking about what the other couples are doing, but mostly Christina and Will."
"Probably the same thing we are!" He says, laughing.
"Are you sure you are going to be okay? I mean, during the zip line."
"I'll live. Let's not talk about that right now, though."
"Ok." I say, right before kissing him. He pulls back, though. I give him a questioning look.
"C'mon. Let's sit over here." He pulls me to the doorway of the train. Before we get there, though, I push him up against the wall, kissing him hard. He kisses me back, placing his hands on my waist.
"I love you, Tris." He mumbles into my mouth.
"I love you, too." Tobias runs his tongue over my bottom lip. I open it, but pull back quickly when I realize that we have to hop off.
"Tobias, it's time to go." He takes a deep, shaky breath.
"Ok."
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When we reach the Hancock building, Tobias is trying, and failing, to keep his breath steady.
"Shh… It's ok." I whisper to him. "I've done this hundreds of times. It really helps to go face first, you will feel like a bird. Don't close your eyes, though. It will just make it worse. I will be waiting at the bottom for you. You will be fine. I love you."
Tobias nods. We ride the elevator to the top floor, Tobias with his eyes clamped tight. When we reach the roof, we climb out of the elevator, and I say, "Can I go first, then have Four come after me?"
"Sure. Yeah. Ok." They reply. I smile when I look over the roof. Zeke grabs a harness and hooks it up to the wire. I squeeze Tobias' hand reassuringly. Zeke motions for me to hop into the harness, and I do. He secures it before sending me off.
I feel like I am soaring. I zoom high above the ground. This happy feeling vanishes, though, as I think about Tobias. I am really worried for him. No, I think to myself. He will be fine. He is strong.
I pull the break upon reaching the bottom. I climb out of the harness, dropping slightly hard. This was a lot easier when the other Dauntless were here to catch me. I lean back against the wall, waiting for Tobias.
I finally see him zipping down the line. He is grimacing. When he finally reaches me, he looks as though he is about to start crying. I help him out of the harness before saying, "You did awesome. Come on, let's go talk." I have to help Tobias walk; he is shaking pretty badly.
As we go down the elevator, I rub circles between his thumb and forefinger, attempting to comfort him. When the elevator finally reaches the bottom, we walk outside quickly. I take him to the closest patch of grass with a tree that I can find.
Tobias sits down next to me. I cuddle into his chest, pulling his arm around me.
"Tell me exactly how you feel."
"Shaken. In love. Nervous. Thankful. Embarrassed."
"You have no reason to be embarrassed. All they saw was you being strong."
"I don't care about them, Tris. I care about you. You saw me weak. I know you have seen me weak before, but it still hurts me."
"Tobias, please don't be embarrassed. You know that I will love you no matter what. You are only human. You have to have weaknesses. We all do. I love you so much. And, about the nervous and shaken, are you starting to feel better?"
"Yes, I am. You are definitely helping. Thank you. And thank you for talking with me, too. And reassuring me. I love you, too. So much."
I kiss his lips softly. I pull back upon seeing the others looking for us. Tobias stands up, then helps pull me up, too. We start heading back to the train.
We hop onto the train in the same formation as before: Zeke, Uriah, Shauna, and Marlene in the first car, Will and Christina in the second, and Tobias and I in the third car.
Tobias sits down, his back against the wall. I walk over to him and lay my head in his lap. He idly plays with my hair.
"Tobias, can we just freeze this moment? I just want to live in it forever."
"I would love that too, Tris. I could make this moment so much better, though. Say, if I did this:" He reaches down to tickle my stomach.
"Tobias!" I scream, laughing. He doesn't stop, though. He bends down to tickle my face with his stubble. I try to swat him away, but he just swings around to pin down my arms. I moan in frustration.
"I… liked the other… moment… better!" I try to say between laughs.
"I don't." He bends down to kiss me. I take his moment of weakness to flip him over, so I am on top. He laughs a full, deep laugh.
"Truce?"
"Truce."
I get off of him. Tobias sits up, pulling me closer to him. I lay my head back on his lap. I close my eyes, enjoying the comforting feeling of him stroking my hair.
"I love you." He whispers.
"I love you too." I reply, slowly drifting to sleep.