She had spent James out to pick up the kids from the subway, hoping that it would give James a chance to get to know Simon a little more and give Cecilia some time to be able to pick out a superhero for James. She didn't want him to see her like this, not just yet. Robin had been told that she needed to get the trauma out of what had happened with her parents, that she needed to release the pain and suffering from what had happened. Everyone said that it was not good to just let it stay within, that soon enough she was going to break and that her whole world would come crashing down around her if she allowed this to happen. So she picked a way to let out all of her agony, suffering, anger, and pain. It was not the normal way that people do it, most would just go off to a consular and talk about their feelings for an hour or so and that would be that, but Robin knew that she could never trust a person to just start talking with them, they'd just sit there in silence for an hour. And after the week that she had had, well she felt like she needed to do it harder and much more violently than she had before.
She light candles up all through the kitchen and living room, turned on the loudest and most intense music she could find on full blast, and she pulled her hair back to keep it out of her eyes, allowing her scar to show. When she could hear them coming to the door she felt a little bad, she could feel that she was no where near finished and the crashing and banging was most likely not helping keep James out of the apartment. Robin's noises of agony kept getting louder and getting slammed into the wall did not help her in any way, as it happened she let out a moan of pain and she could tell that James was about a half a second away from kicking the door down.
" Yeah, I knew that she would not be done. They never finish up on time." Simon smirked as he leaned his skateboard against the wall as he looked back at the panicked look on James's face.
" Calm doon James, they are only play fighting! They do this all of the time." Cecilia said, holding onto James's non-mental tightly, swinging it around as James just starred at Robin, she could see from the look in his eyes that he had been worried about her, very worried.
Her and her trainer, Matt, were tangled up in one another, arms fighting to keep each other away from ones throat. He had been trained by a special opps team and Pepper paid for her little meetings with Matt, knowing that it would be for Pepper's best protection and for Robin in the end as well. These meetings had been going on for about a half a year, Robin was learning quickly and most of the time it just turned into fighting than actually leaning any hand-to-hand combat. She had been taught some of the things that even the masters of combat could not do, she had always been a quick learner, mostly because of her parents, they always taught her to fight rather then allow the flight response take over. Robin pulled on Matt's arm as hard as she could, pulling it away from her body before flipping herself over his arm, making it twist and crack in ways that it should not do before she finally released the arm but placing her foot directly onto his chest.
This was the fun that she had, this was why she knew that she would have been able to take out one of the men if it would have only been one that night. Through the whole training session, those men was all that Robin could think about. If only she would have been able to have learned the moved quicker, if only she would have been a little more trained, she would have been able to have handled her own, she would not have gotten hurt and she would not have gotten James hurt either. If only she would have been able to work up the courage and fight off the guys when James stepped in, she could have kept him from taking a knife for her and getting stabbed. The whole fight she and Matt were fighting, she kept seeing her attackers face and found that it just made her fight harder because she knew what would have happened if she did not.
" I was going to ask if you were alright, but I see that you have everything under control." James said with an impressed smile as he looked from Robin to Matt. " Whose he?" He added.
" Matt, my combat trainer, seeing as I work for someone who is pretty important, my boss figured that I should learn to fight, you know, just in case something were to happen at work. Seeing as I work for someone who is not very liked." Robin shrugged with a smile as she looked to Matt who was shaking out his arm. " I think that we should call it a week then, yeah Matt?"
" Sounds good, I'll meet you back here next week then?" Matt asked with a hopeful smile.
Matt had tried to hit on her many times before, hoping that she would accept a date offer one of the times. Robin had just found it wrong in a way, he was training her and she had never found those trainer, trainee sex relationships exciting or realistic in any way. She hated letting him down though, he was a good trainer and he was friendly, but she didn't want anything else from him. He had brought her flowers before, asked her if she wanted to go out and get coffee or have dinner at some point, but she had always shot him down with something about the kids or saying that she was just not really ready to be seeing anymore at the moment, that she was still coping with the loss of her parents. But, it was starting to get old, all of the excuses, and now that James was in the picture, she was hoping that the man would stop bugging her for dates, but it seemed like he would just never get the picture, the poor boy.
" Same bat time, same bat channel." Robin chuckled as she shook her head and blew out a few candles that were around her, they had made the whole apartment smell like a berry-mango smoothie.
" Robin! You totally kicked his butt!" Cecilia said as she ran up to her older sister and gave her a high five. " I gotta talk to you though, common!" She whispered, holding onto her sisters hand tightly as she started to pull her towards the bedrooms.
" Well I guess I'll be right back, good workout Matt. See you next week!" She waved to the man who was still taking in deep breaths, she was so happy that her sister was pulling her away, she knew the look and knew that he would have asked her on a date if he had been given the chance. " Umm, James can you please make sure that Simon actually starts on his homework before leaving for the skate park?" Robin asked with a smile as James nodded as she hit the off button to her music as she past, being quickly lead to the backroom.
Her sister only did this for really serious, for a five year old girl that is, and when she thought that Robin needed to know about it. Cecilia drug her into her own bedroom and made her sit on the bed before she would even speak another word, going back to the door and making sure that it was shut and locked. She then stood in front of her sister, her hands pressed tightly together across her torso. She kept looking back at the door, making Robin feel a little nervous, she was so worried that something was wrong, she was going to shake her sister in a moment if she did not start talking. She could not stand the though of someone doing something to make Cecilia worry at all.
" James is Bucky!" She finally let out, nearly screaming it at the top of her lungs.
" Bucky. . . who is Bucky?" Robin said, letting out a sigh of relief knowing that there was nothing severally wrong.
" Bucky Barnes! Captain Steve Rogers best friend!" Cecilia sighed, stomping her foot on the ground as she did so, making Robin smile because she knew that her sister was annoyed. "The one that 'ent off to 'ar before Cap, did! You know, Bucky!"
" Honey, didn't Bucky Barnes die in like 1943 or something? His body was never found but that still means that he is dead, we saw his grave, remember? James cannot be someone who was Captain America's friend from all the way back then. Most of the people that lived in the time where Captain American first came to light are very, very old if they are still alive. Bucky Barnes is up in heaven with Mommy and Daddy, not in the kitchen with Simon." Robin said as she brought her little sister into her arms.
" But. . . but he looks just like him! If you cut off most of his hair he 'ould look just like Bucky Barnes and. . . and James doesn't remember much about his past, maybe someone bad did somethin' to him!" Cecilia tried to get her sister to understand, making Robin chuckle she as kissed Cecilia's forehead.
" I have allowed you to watch waay to many superhero movies. Hon he had been through stuff, stuff that he has not told any of us just yet, but I highly doubt that he is someone who fought off Nazi's with Captain America because trust me if he did, he would not look or move the way that he does." Robin added as her little sister sighed heavily.
" Ho' positive are you about this?" Cecilia asked to her sister, she had a thing about percentages, as if they did anything to help confirm stuff to her.
" 99.9991 percent sure that James is not Bucky Barnes, though having someone who fought against the Nazi's and knew Steve Rogers before he got all nice and muscly would be something nice, I am very sure that James is not him. It's shocking enough that Captain Rogers made it the way that he did, but I doubt that anyone else could have done it either. Sorry to bust your bubble." Robin said kissing her little sister's cheek this time, she hated seeing her sister down.
" It's okay, bubbles are meant to be popped." Cecilia smiled with a shrug as she looked up to her big sister.
" You are such a special little girl, you know that?" Robin smiled as she ran her fingers through Cecilia's hair.
" I have been told before!" Cecilia chipped like some form of a bird. " But can James at least be your prince charming? He seems like a good enough guy and I want you two to get married!" Cecilia said as she looked to her sister with a smile and the hope that only a five year old could have.
" Celie!" Robin said, shocked with her little sister.
" Robin!" Cecilia mocked.
" Well I just do not know if I could marry someone who is. . . ninety some odd years older than me!" Robin chuckled as her sister giggled a bit, Cecilia was way to smart for her age.
" But. . . but he is a prince, but like Aladdin, he just needs a little work! He's gonna be your Aladdin and you are going to be Jasmine!" Cecilia nodded, finishing the conversation with that as she jumped up from her sisters lap, skipped to the door, and down the hallway and to the kitchen table to do her homework as Robin simply shook her head and left her room.
Cecilia was not known for making stuff up like that, she was a sharp little kid, but on something like this, she could not take the little girl too seriously. Cecilia was a kid in love with comic books and the superheros, she was bound to make up things and make connections from the superhero world and the world that was really around her. Robin was a little surprised with the way that Cecilia had picked someone that Robin barely heard about, someone that they had seen while on their trip in DC in the Captain America part of the Smithsonian. That was soon after she had gotten custody of them, Robin thought that it would be good to get them out for a half a week, become a family with them once again and decided to take them to DC for a bit. But the picture of the Howling Commandos she remembered the way that Bucky Barnes had looked and she even had to admit, James did look a hell of a lot like Bucky, but then she just shook her head, how the hell could they be the same person?
" What was that all about?" James questioned as he looked down to the little girl with pigtails and then up to Robin.
" Oh just how she thought that you were-"
" It's top secret girl stuff!" Cecilia yelled as Robin just cracked up laughing.
" I guess you heard her, I can't tell you." Robin shrugged through her smile.
" Later?" James quietly asked, making sure that Cecilia was not looking.
" Maybe." Robin smiled to the man as he looked to her, a confused look on his face.
" Yeah, and why maybe?" He lightly asked.
" Prove that you deserve a secret so special like the one that my sister just gave me." Robin whispered right into the mans ear.
" What are you two whispering about?!" Cecilia yelled as she caught them.
" Celie, that is what we call in this household flirting. You'll learn the art sooner or later." Simon muttered, an unimpressed look was being directed straight towards his older sister.
Simon had a paper that he had not written until the last minute and Cecilia, for a five year old, had a lot of little reading assignments that she had to do so the apartment became rather quite rather quickly. Robin had gotten into the shower, getting cleaned off from the workout that she had, letting go of most of the past week in the shower as well. When she was wrapped up in a robe, which she started keeping in the bathroom, she opened the door up a bit to allow all of the steam to leave the bathroom, allowing a small amount of cool air to swoop through the room as well as she started to look at herself in the full length mirror.
She found herself starring at the mark that had been left on her face, it was red and still pretty swollen, but it was healing slowly. But Robin still could not face up to what had happened that night, what could have happened if it had not been for James being at the right place at the right time. Who knows what would have happened if he would not have been there. She would have been raped, this was one of the only things that she had come to terms with, knowing her attitude she would have been cut up a hell of a lot more, and she would have possibly been left dead in an alleyway for the rats to eat on until some hobo found her. Robin's body shivered and shook her head, trying to get all of those thoughts out of her head. She placed her hands over her head and lightly slid down to the floor, taking in slows breaths, trying to keep herself calm.
But she could feel the tears coming down her eyes, remembering the words that had been said to her, the way that they smelt and did not care if she was a human being or a not. She could feel her breathing becoming rapid, her chest heaving, but she could do nothing to slow it. They would have raped her, they would have cut her up more, it just depended on if they would have killed her or not. She could see it happening in front of her over and over again, she could smell their breath, feel the cold metal of a knife against her cheek, and that is when she felt a pair of cold hands lightly touch her shoulders, two big brown eyes starring at her, her name coming out of his mouth as she finally came back to the world that was around her. It was James pulling her back to reality.
" Hey, are you okay?" James asked as he kept his hands wrapped around her shoulder. The way that he looked, she could tell that he had been calling to her for awhile. He looked so concerned, but there was a hint of fright shinning from his brown eyes as well.
" Yeah I'm. . ." Robin thought about telling him a lie but then remembered all of the times that James had said the same thing to her as she sighed lightly, " no, to be honest. I. . . I was thinking about what happened in the alleyway, if you would have not been there, what could have happened. . . what would have happened. It scares the hell out of me and knowing that they could be outside there right now, that it could happen again well that's even worse. " Robin whispered, pulling her legs up to her chest.
" You don't have to worry about that." James said as he lightly rubbed the girls shoulder.
" Yeah? And whys that?" Robin asked as she wiped the tears from her eyes as James came and sat on the wall beside of her, keeping his arm wrapped around her shoulder. She pulled her body in close to his, instantly feeling the comfort of his body and felt her heart rate start to come back down to a normal pace.
" Because you have someone like me looking after you. I wont let anything like that happen to you, ever." He whispered giving Robin a small kiss on her cheek, making her blush instantly as they sat on the floor of her little blue bathroom and just took in one another's company.
Hey guys! I am so sorry for this being so late, I lost internet for awhile today and could not post it! But here it is, hope you are enjoying it so far!
Sorry again!