It had been several weeks since Kate had left and returned and Caroline marveled at how strong they were, she knew she would never let Kate go again and the more and more she thought about it the more it scared her. Part of her wasn't totally opposed to having a baby and she found herself constantly watching how Kate was with William although he was hardly ever home and Lawerence. It was astonishing she had never seen Lawrence so happy and thriving he often seek out Kate to talk about his day and his problems, and although it made Caroline a little sad sometimes it wasn't her she was thankful that Lawerence had Kate. They obviously had similar taste as he seemed to love Kate as much as she did and as she watched this unfold, she couldn't help but wonder how lovely it might be to have a baby with Kate.
As they sat on the sofa one evening Caroline rubbing Kate's feet she smiled across at her son who was fast asleep opposite them. "Kate let's have a baby" Kate snapped out of her relaxed state sitting up a little straighter. "Caroline we have spoken about this I don't want to rush you into anything, and i wouldn't risk ruining what we have. Not after what happened and we were apart you and the boys are enough for me". Caroline smiled and crooked her head "Kate I know how desperately you want a baby, I see you when we go anywhere your eyes wander and fix on a small child in the street, and your expression is so deep, I know you ache for it. I love you so much and I watch you with the boys and I'm in awe of how amazing you are with them, were a great family unit. We could just add a new addition to make everything more perfect".
Kate moved her foot and sat round on the sofa next to Caroline " have you thought about this..I mean properly. I don't want you to feel you have to for us to be together".
"yes I know and ok a very small part of me wants to do it to make you happy, but also the more I think about it the more I'm feeling that it would be great. Me and you were are strong we've come through so much all ready and I love children, I mean I've got two I work with 560 daily we could do it. I want to do it me and you".
"But how would we go about it, I mean you know" Kate asked trying not to get her hopes up, Caroline looked serious "well I've thought about it and I can't imagine you doing it the normal way, i mean you having sex with someone. Them touching you, making you feel how I do I know it might sound selfish but I just couldn't..." Kate saw the apologetic look on her face.
"no Caroline that's.. I understand if it was you I'd be the same. But for the record nobody could ever make me feel like you do, no one ever has". Caroline looked up a little reassured "I found these" she handed the papers over to Kate from her handbag.
"you've been busy" she chuckled "well I'm serious about you, about this I wanted to know the facts" Kate kissed her nose In appreciation. As she flicked through them Caroline fidgeted next to her "what do you think then" she pressed her desperate to know what she was thinking.
"if your sure then" Caroline's face confirmed all she needed to know "oh Caroline I'd be so happy" Caroline pulled her in closer their lips joining together tenderly. "We're going to have a baby" Kate almost shouted. The joy in Kate's face made Caroline's heart swell somehow this now felt like the best decision they'd ever made.
"what ...who's having a baby" Lawrence muttered half waking from Kate's excited yelp.. Caroline and Kate looked at each other and couldn't suppress the giggles that followed.
Lawrence sat up rubbing his eyes "what's so funny", "nothing we thought you were a sleep" Caroline spoke softly.
"I was until Kate woke me up, talking about babies" he watched Kate and his mum exchange a glance "you too are having a baby?".
"How would you feel if we were?" Caroline asked delicately. He looked shocked almost as if he was still dreaming and had woken up in an alien world "really you too" they nodded. Lawrence smiled "whatever makes you happy" Caroline rushed from the sofa pulling into a hug, "do you mean it, you'd be ok with it. Having a brother or sister" "yes I'd be happy for you both and well it be cool to have a little brother or sister". Kate walked over and hugged him "it's only an idea at this stage it might be difficult but that you support me and your mum means the world". "Yeah no problem, I'm going to go to bed now" he smiled at them both and left them to it.
They had sat for hours trawling through the paper work of the donors choosing what attributes ideally they would like and how easy it was to start the process.
They had finally gone to bed at 2am utterly excited and exhausted "best get used to late nights and early mornings then" Kate laughed as Caroline grumpily rolled out of bed at half 6 .
"I'll get back into the swing of it, and you won't be working so you can do the nights" she smirked as Kate glided her hands around her naked waist. "Are you still sure?" "Completely" she smiled back as they fell back onto the bed once more. "I'm going to be late for work".. Kate smirked "best get used to that too", "good point" she laughed as she lounged further into Kate's embrace enjoying the sensation of her skin on hers.