Goddammit! He was supposed to fix this! She wasn't supposed to be helping her 19 year old son get ready to testify in federal court. She can't help but think about why Peter won her loyalties in the end. Apparently banging a hooker 18 times wasn't enough to convince her that the marriage was over and for a while she'd tried letting it go after she'd found out about him and Kalinda. Somehow though he just kept pulling her in, something with his face of an angel that he used when he needed to charm someone or wanted something out of someone. She thinks back to their fight the night Peter broke his house arrest to follow her to the taxi. She remembers the words she said
"There is nothing to talk about! It's all words, change, starting over, apology!"
Someday she'll trust herself when it comes to Peter, the way she trusted herself to start her own law firm and the way she trusts herself when she makes decisions for her children. This time she feels like it's enough. She finally wants to burn bridges and she hopes that love can build a new bridge.
It's just another scandal, but people forget that there are very real people behind the faces they see on the TV screen. They don't see the wife that stood by her husband while he took his time dragging her through the mud. They don't see the wife that just wants to go to work and win cases and make her new law firm work. But he sees it, he knows that woman that's hiding on her way into the courtroom. He secretly admires the way the Cary tries to shield her from the cameras. When he sees her walking through the courthouse he sees the strain written on her face the strain that only the people closest to her can see. He knows that on the outside she looks like she's doing great it's all just rolling off her like water rolls off a ducks back, but he also knows that she hates all this, he knows she didn't want all of this, she just wants to feel like her own person again and she wants to protect her kids and he knows she's losing her grip on it.
He can't help but feel a little responsible for it, he was the one who knew about the video, he was the one who chose not to show it to Alicia and showed it to Peter instead. He told himself he was protecting her that he didn't want to hurt her, but in the end he knows he made it worse.
He knows she's going to break and while on the outside and in his anger he hates her; he wonders who will be there to catch her when she falls and breaks. A little part of him, the part he is hiding with hate and covers with blind ambition, that little part hopes it will be him.