So here is chapter 2. So far this is where my mind has stopped its ramblings about the finale. BUT I will most definitely be seeing what the morning brings to see if I can figure out where I want to take this story. No worries, there WILL be at least one chapter because, as you will find, this story isn't nearly over.
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Chapter Two
"Robin?"
"Hey."
Robin looked at Henry, who was giving a very defensive look. "Henry, do you mind if I talk to your mother, alone? I also believe Emma was looking for you."
Henry looked at Regina who shook her head giving the go ahead to show she could handle it. "Henry, go. If I need you I'll send out the bat signal." She gave him a small smile with a wink. Henry smiled too and then gave Robin a warning glare before he walked away.
Robin sat down next to Regina and turned to look into her eyes, although hers weren't really in the mood to meet with his. "Regina, I'm sorry about how I reacted in there. I didn't mean to make you feel like I just casted you aside. But imagine if it were Daniel? My mind wasn't fully there. I was in disbelief. I needed to know it wasn't a dream."
Regina was just listening to him. Although she didn't want to admit it she probably would have done the same thing if it were Daniel. But that's not what she was upset about. Her thoughts were interrupted by a hand laying a top hers.
"I just want to let yo-" Regina finally gathered up the courage to speak. She placed a finger over his lips and finally looked into his marvelous blue eyes.
"Stop. Before you say anything else I want to admit something to you." She couldn't keep her feelings for him locked in. She felt the need to tell him everything on her mind ever since her confession of the only true lie she held from him, the story of his lion tattoo.
"I, first, want to say I understand your reaction, I'm not so senseless that I wouldn't expect you to revert back to how you felt with your first love. I want to tell you…" Tears start to escape her eyes. She couldn't meet his. "It was my fault she died," in almost a whisper bowing her head further down, "Marian." She took a deep breath and raised her eyes ever so slightly and continued, "I was so dark and she got in the path of my war with Snow White. If I would have known her…or who she was to you…god..." She was trying to catch her breath, finding it hard to speak. Robin lifted her chin so he could encourage her to continue, "Just the thought that I could have caused you so much pain." She placed a hand on his chest over his heart. "I never want to hurt this, and to find out I already have, it kills me. I broke you. I broke up your family. And I took away Roland's mother. He should have never been without her. I'm so sorry, so, so sorry." Tears were falling down her cheeks at her admittance. She never wanted to cause him pain. She loved him after all.
Regina wiped her tears and started to calm down. She was searching for his eyes to see what he was thinking but Robin just sat there, staring ahead, trying to let the information sink in.
Regina continued not knowing what else to do without him speaking, "I should have been brave enough to go after you the first time. Then, none of this would have happened." She was talking to Robin yet also herself at the same time almost like she was imaging what their life would be now if she wasn't so afraid to find love.
Feeling the tears escape her eyes she said, "I just have to come to the realization that I am not destined to be in love. I have Henry and my family, but my happy ending is just not going to happen. I will just be alone an– "
Somewhere in her babbling Robin had come to a realization on his own. He needed her to stop talking however; instead of a finger to her lips he kissed her. Not for long but it was one of understanding and love and it almost did the trick.
Regina touched her lips in shock and amazement, "What was -"
Robin cut her off, "I need to speak now m'lady, so if you don't mind."
Regina opened her mouth then shut it again wiping away some of the tears that were making their way down her cheeks.
"Regina, I know this is an unusual situation, but I can't help the feelings I have for you. I know I should be ecstatic. 'My wife is back, my family is together again' and I am, but I have changed since I last saw Marian. I don't know how we will even be when are together."
"She's your first love. You will find a way." Regina said shaking her head, knowing there's no way he would choose her. She had done so much to hurt him. She thought, Henry was right. Revenge does not fill the void. She also had to make a mental note about apologizing to Emma and Snow because her decisions came back to bite her in the ass just like theirs did.
Robin entwined their fingers together and brought it to his chest over his heart, lifted her chin with his free hand, and looked right into her eyes, into her soul, and said, "First love isn't always your true love, m'lady."
Regina didn't know what to do, what to say. She just sat there staring into his eyes. Did she really just hear him correctly?
Before she knew it the hand on her cheek had moved into her hair and he was leaning her back on the bench. He kissed her, passionately and she took no time to respond to his kiss. Of course, she melted whenever he even looked at her. His hand came out of hers and he ran it up the side of her body coming to rest on her lower back. It was like they were the only two people in the world.
So many thoughts were going through her head. He was her destiny, this should be happening, they are the future. However there was one thing that stood out, that was a great impasse. He was married. And although she loved him with all her heart and wanted to be with him, she knew that he needed to choose. She was a queen after all and she refused to be anyone's second best. It took everything in her to take her hand, which was still placed over his rapidly beating heart, and push him away.
He looked down at her with a quizzical expression. She could see the questioning in his eye. Why are you stopping this?
"I'm sorry Robin I can't do this." He brought them both back to a sitting position. "Robin, although I hate stopping that we cannot do this. You have a wife now, she's no longer dead and now you have to choose." Robin's expression changed rapidly and his hands pulled off of her like she had some sort of virus.
"Regina I'm sorry. I got carried away. I just have all these feelings for you, strong feelings, and I just don't want this to end. But you are right I need to see what this new life with Marion is like." He saw her disappointment. He entwined his finger with hers. He took his other hand lifted her chin and tucked her hair behind her ear. "Regina, I never wanted to hurt you. It was never my intention. I know there are so many things that could have happened differently in our life, our decisions, but this is where our life has brought us. Who cares about the choices in the past, we are here now."
Regina's eyes widen at his words. "Robin, I don't understand."
"I'm saying that I'm going to have to decide. You deserve to be number one to someone. Yesterday I would have said that you were mine and that could still be true now, but I can't say that for sure. I never want to lie to you so I refuse to give you false hope. All I can say is that I'm not giving up on us, not until I know what this thing is with Marian."
Regina sighed and then looked down at their hands. She knew what he was saying was true. She just didn't want him to go. She still thought, in the back of her mind, that if she let him go he would choose her, Marian.
"I should go back. Will you be ok?"
She was staring at their hands almost like it was the only thing world, like she was trying to remember every detail of how they felt. She said, "For now. I don't think I will be fully until we are together." She didn't know why she said it. It was a slip of the tongue. Was it because she wanted him to know she wasn't giving up on them? No. She knew that she would be devastated if he chose Marian.
Robin got up to stand, but Regina held on to his hand. Looking into his eyes, "Please just sit with me for a little longer?"
Robin sat back down and just watched Regina with a look of wonder and admiration. If he had to decide at this moment very moment, he thought to himself. He would most certainly choose this remarkable woman.
But she was giving him time to figure it out. She didn't want any doubts in his mind. He knew it was eating her inside to even give him the option but he understood. It had to be done.
