Tobias.

The first hour into the car ride was fine, but soon enough I start to drift off. I look at Tris; her sleeping head leaning against the window with her hair sprawled all over. I can't help but feel so lucky. I haven't exactly taken time to emotionally grasp what is really happening. But I do now. Everything in the past few days has been so crazy with nonstop drama but the past five years have been a boring blur. All I did was wake up go to work and go to sleep and on occasion go out with Christina and some other friends. I wasn't living much of a life, but I didn't want to. Not without Tris in it.

I squeeze her hand. It feels warm and alive and everything it wasn't when I held it the last time. I no longer have to stop myself from thinking wild thoughts like having children, or being married. I used to scold myself for thinking things like that because I always felt like I was betraying her. Every time I looked at another girl I felt like I was betraying her. But I don't have to do that anymore.

My eyelids droop more and more, as if she is pulling me to sleep with her. What am I so tired from? It wouldn't be too harmful to close my eyes. Just for a second…

"Ahh!" Tris smacks my face and I shake my head. I just swerved off the road. Shit. I've always been a horrible driver.

I'm definitely awake now.

"What the hell? Did you just fall asleep? You could've gotten us killed!" she screams. I feel guilty. I just got her back and one stupid mistake could make me lose her again.

"I'm sorry Tris, I just, I'm sorry."

"Hey, it's okay. I'll takeover and you should get some rest. We have a while to go."

"You want to drive? But you're-"

I don't really know what I was going to say. Sixteen? She's 21.

"21, Experienced, better than you, Living in a big city, and owning a Rolls Royce." She finishes.

"Let me drive, okay?"

"Okay."

"Okay."

"Stop flirting with me."

"Okay." She smiles and we get out of the car to swap sides. She pulls out of the ditch and drives back onto the highway. I'm already asleep.

I wake up to the feel of Tris shaking me on the shoulder.

"Yes?" I ask in a muffled voice.

"I didn't want to wake you up, but you've been sleeping for five hours and I don't know which exit to take."

I shoot upright.

"I was asleep for five hours?"

"When was the last time you had a good night's sleep?"

I think about that. And I don't remember. No wonder I was so tired.

"Take exit 105. It should be coming up soon." I should be taking over the wheel but after what I did today, I won't take any chances. Besides she was right, she is a better driver than me.

I give her instructions to my apartment and she pulls into the parking garage. It's now that I remember Caleb and his family are probably in there waiting. I hope she is happy to see them considering she sacrificed her life for him. She might think he's too young to be having kids. We all did. It wasn't a planned pregnancy. Susan and Caleb were just dating when she fell pregnant with the twins. Of course they were shocked at first but they love their kids more than anything. Even if they are both only twenty two.

I run to the driver's side and open the door for Tris. I hold her hand as we make our way to the room. I open with the door expecting to see the family right in front of the door. But they aren't.

"So this is where you live, huh. Nice place."

I grin at her despite my confusion.

"Don't be all high and mighty just because you have all the money in the world." I say sarcastically.

"I wasn't. This place is actually really nice. It's super cozy. And I know exactly what I want to do with you in it…" She wraps her arms around me and pulls me in for a kiss.

I forget absolutely everything as I melt into her. It is at this moment that we hear it.

"SURPRISE!"

We quicker than instantly jump around and flush bright as the lights turn on. There stands Caleb, Susan, the kids, Christina, Zeke and a bunch of people from here that I have yet to introduce to her.

I look at Tris with a grin and it drops as I see tears down her face.

Shit. This must be too overwhelming for her. I only invited her family.

"Are you okay?" I whisper in her ear.

"I will be." She replies and then steps away from me to hug everyone.

She gets to Caleb last. Everyone else is somewhere else minding their own business. Except me, of course.

They just stare at each other at first with the unmistakable look of love on their faces. Tears roll down both their cheeks and they hug, tightly like they haven't seen each other in five years and the whole time he believed she was dead. They don't speak. They don't have much to say.

Tris hugs each kid. They look at their aunt with curiosity. I can imagine Christmas next year. They won't be looking at her like a total stranger.

The rest of the party, Tris doesn't talk much. I figure she's just tired. After everyone leaves, I hold her to me as we watch a movie on the couch.

"Are you okay?" I whisper again.

"You've asked me that five times tonight."

"It's because I'm worried about you."

"Yes I'm fine it's just." She sighs, "I was away from everyone for five years. Christina is a lesbian and grew her hair out, Zeke looks forty, Caleb has a family, I have boobs." I snort. "Everything is so much different. And it's a little overwhelming and a little scary and I just feel like I'm so drifted and so disconnected. I know you keep saying that in time everything will go back to normal, but I don't know what normal is. I can never fit in again. I'm not normal anymore. What if they don't want me?" Her voice is higher, her nose is red and she's crying for the third time tonight.

"That is so not true, Tris. I love you, Caleb and his family love you, Zeke loves you, Christina loves you, and all of those other people who don't even know you, love you. We all love you no matter what. You have no idea how hard we all took it when you died. But now we have you back. And we're never going to let you go."

She kisses me.

Im back! My vacation was super fun and Disneyland is epic but sadly I didn't meet any famous people. And btw, Hollywood is the most ratchet place basically everywhere. I feared for my life. But I did see Kate Winslet's star so that was cool. Anyway, how was your spring break? If you had one yet. I just want to finish school so badly. Summer is such a tease.

Thanks so so so much for the reviews! I got to 100 which is wayyy more than I expected. So keep them coming. And thanks for dealing with my boy drama rants. It was rllly interesting seeing people I don't know have input on this. Definetly helped. However, I (tried at least) ended things. Because somehow he ended up texting a huge rant about how he likes the ex girlfriend chick and she keeps playing him. And then a few conversations later he called me pretty…4 times. Im rlly confused.

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