Told by Mamoru
Being an ABDL, I have often had conflicting emotions over my desire to be a baby & act & dress like one.
Having been married & having gone thru several relationships since getting divorced; I have had varying results with the amount of acceptance of my ABDL desires, by the women whom I have had relationships with.
Finally, I got up the courage to go to a professional therapist, and discuss my ABDL desires.
Fortunately, I was able to find one who is very open-minded & liberal; & nonjudgmental.
I felt that I could never discuss this with a male, thus I chose a female therapist.
I also look at her as being a "mommy".
After going over my personal history; I explained my ABDL desires, and asked if "regression therapy" could help me to come to terms with my desires.
My therapist has been eager to learn about my emotions & reasoning for being an ABDL; thus has had me going thru the "regression therapy" for several sessions.
This started with our entering detailed discussions about my ABDL feelings; followed by her telling me to act as if I'm going back into my "babyhood", & acting like a baby.
Each session starts with describing some of my actual childhood experiences.
I was a chronic bedwetter into my teens; & my mother gave me no choice but to wear a cloth diaper & plastic pants every night.
This was in the 1950's & 1960's; before disposables became available.
She punished me, to shame me into stopping my bedwetting, by changing me, & making me go out to the backyard clothesline & hang up my diapers & plastic pants.