Wednesday, September 9th 1:31am
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I can't stop thinking about him, my twin. I love you Hikaru, I hope you're reading this. Seeing as it the only thing you'll have left of me. Cause the second I finish writing I'm gonna die. You, Hiakru, don't seem to notice though. How I'm starving myself to get thinner, how I'm cutting more than once a day. How everyday it's getting harder and harder to get up in the morning and pretend everything ok. Nothing's fine, I'm torn, Hikaru. I've loved you longer. I've known you since birth. You know, the only person that doesn't seem to notice I love you it well... You, Hikaru.
I'm sure you can see the dried tears on the page now that you flip through this, yes I'm crying. I can barely keep quiet.
The list, yeah, ok.
Hikaru love Haruhi.
Hikaru hates me.
When was it that he started flat out ignoring me even though I pestered him. When was it that he started to distance himself from me.
When did this begin?
That's a simple question, Haruhi was the beginning of the end. The cup of mild had already been filled before Haruhi showed up. She was the one that spilt it though. Except, you're not supposed to cry over spilt milk. Your supposed to mop it up.
But Hikaru never noticed the milk, me, being spilt. He hasn't and won't come to clean up the mess. Others have tried to clean, but to no avail. Maybe I'll just start from the beginning and make this journal into a story. It's all true. I think I'll have this done by the end of the month. It's only the ninth. The pills aren't gonna be here until the twentieth. I don't know if I'll be done by then. But I can't sleep anyway. Maybe I'll overdose as my death. I'll start from the beginning tomorrow night though, I have to get 'ready' for school.
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