Is this for real?
She asked herself. She felt like she was on fire and the places where his lips had touched was burning furiously. She could feel his lips inching closer towards hers. She didn't dare to breath.
Is this a dream?
He had been so cold toward her and was barley ever looked her way. She had to rush after him, cling onto him like an annoying brat to get the little attention he wasn't willing to give. She thought he hated her, yet this seemed… the opposite.
Is this really happening?
She wasn't sure if this was a dream. A dream came true in this case.
She knew it was wrong to fancy her own brother. She thought maybe he had found out about her feelings and that was why he had kept his distance from her. She had known for a long time that she loved him in a way that a woman loved a man.
But she kept that to herself knowing he would never feel the same way. He was her stuck up brother who weigh his pride over anything. He would never do anything that would disgrace his name.
She knew it was wrong! So wrong yet she could not help but loved him. People thought she had brother complex, but she knew better. When she thought of being intimate with anyone, only Sesshomaru's face came to her. She was strongly rejected the idea at first. It was wrong she told herself. Disturbing even. But slowly she gave in after so many years, with the knowledge that she could never get rid of these feelings for him.
If it could not be him then she would rather be alone, she always felt that way.
A mystery of how their parents named her brother such an out of the world name.
Sesshomaru, 'killing perfection'.
"I don't know. When he was born, 'Sesshomaru' came into my mind as well as Rin, and before I knew it, we gave him that name," explained their mother.
It didn't matter. To Rin, that was the perfect name and she won't have it any other way.
Sesshomaru's lips was only inched away from hers, she held her breath. It stayed there, fighting the urge from getting any closer.
"This is wrong," she heard him whispered. His eyes closed, fighting hard to have his self-control back.
It was a complex feeling. It felt so wrong yet so right. As if they had done this millions of times.
Who would have thought that he would stay with her in the living room when their parents went out into town. They were having a little family summer vacation. She thought he would shut the door behind him and left her all to herself, but to her surprised, he came out and watched the television with her.
He had moved out of the house four years ago as soon, as he turned sixteen, and almost never home since. He tried his best to avoid her, yet this time he was there in the same living room with her. After the movie was over, they were continuing with her small talks. It was so peaceful and felt so right as if this was how it had always been and should be.
Once she put on some music and continued on talking, saying the song was nice, he held a hand to her asking for a dance. She was dumfounded, but happy. That was where it led to this very moment.
"I know," she whispered back.
"We should stop this," he said softy.
'We' he said. So it wasn't just her who had been burying these feelings.
"We should," she agreed. He paused for a long seconds fighting with everything he had before slowly, painfully, puling himself away from the temptation. The beautiful temptation that he would willingly gave up his life to have.
"I'm going to bed," he said casually, but she noticed that his voice was softer and was not as cold as it usually was.
She found herself alone standing inside the empty living room. She felt as if he had taken a part of her heart with him.
She wanted to cry!
Before, she was okay with it, knowing that it was a one sided love and was okay knowing he would never returned her feelings. It wasn't possible. It could never happen.
She thought someday these feelings would die and she would see him as a brother he was, but now… Now that she knew he loved her too, she wanted to cry more than ever.
Because no matter how much they loved each other, they could never be together.
It could never be.
Why did he have to be her brother?
A tear slowly dripped down her check, than another, and another, and another.
This was too cruel.
She stood frozen wrapping with painful suffocating truth.
It would be sad to fight a fight she could not win.
But in her case, it a fight she would win without a doubt, but forbidden to take.
Yet... she loved him.
Her heart was going to break.
She loved him.
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Merry Marry: How could you! Lol, you don't have to apologize for not supporting it. I don't support incent in real life ether, but since this is a challenge, I have no plan to back out. :)
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