Give me lots and lots of reviews! Yes I am whining and throwing tantrums. I have been very cranky with writing lately and barely find inspirations to write (though I keep on writing). Anyway, there is one more chapter left. I want to get it over with, but I don't know when I will be able to write. Reviews please.

SesshyRin3 and Sotam, thank you so much for always reviews my stories. I know this one is a little weird, well maybe more than I a little, but I am trying my best. :) I hope it is enjoyably.

She needed to move on.

They both had to move on.

It was their silence agreement the moment Sesshomaru shut the door behind him and left her crying alone in the living room.

It had been four months since. Anytime they looked at each other, all they saw was painful truth. Yet they couldn't help but yearned for each other.

Sesshomaru went back to his apartment and was barely see her. He avoided her in College and they were rarely met even at the same school.

There was no word exchanged between them, but their eyes said everything they wanted to convey and to hide. Their love for one another was so strong that they suffer a great struggle and could barely heed to reasons.

If they were ever in such close proximity alone again, they would lose themselves completely.

Rin had decided to move on. She knew Sesshomaru had been trying, too.

But she wasn't sure if she could. She might never be able to.

She never loved anyone so much to the point that she did not want to care about anything. Even if the world were to collided, she wouldn't care if she could be with him.

But reality wasn't that simple.

She could not be that selfish and forgot about their parents who had raised them so well all these years.

Kin, a close friend she had known since her first year of high school finally confessed his love to her. She told him she was in love with someone else.

"Do you plan to confess to him?" Kin asked.

How could she?

She couldn't even let anyone know that it was Sesshomaru who had had a hold of her heart, left alone have a love relationship with him.

"It's fine even if you don't love me yet. Give it some thoughts and think about it. Just give me a chance. 1 pm Wednesday, I will be waiting for you at the train station where we first met. If you don't show up then I will give up on you and stay as your friend. But if you show up, even if you don't love me, I will not give up until I have given it my all."

Kin said with confidence. He knew he could made her happy. So confidence that for a moment she wanted to believe it too.

But it wasn't right to go out with a person half-hearty, she told him. She did not want to destroy the friendships they had built all those years. It could abolish their relationship completely. But he said he was willing to take the chance. He was fine even if it was only pity. No matter how slim the chance may be, he wanted to be with her.

Even if he ended up with a broken heart, he would rather try than wondered what it could have been like.

She wasn't sure what she should do. She knew she did not love him that way.

It wasn't right to use him. Especially a dear friend like him.

She did care for him as a friend. A brother.

Funny! How could she say such word when she couldn't look at her actual brother that way? Why was it so heard to love or unloved someone?

But she needed to move on.

Rin put on a jeans jacket. It was now autumn.

If it were Kin, it might work. Even if she could never grow infatuated toward him, she could live with him and be happy.

She knew he was a good guy. She always thought that the woman who would marry him was a lucky woman because he would love and cherish her.

A faithful guy.

She knew reality wasn't as simple as in a novel. He might not be content with what she could give him. He might want more than just a family love and someday they might have to go separate ways. But right now she needed a distraction. Anything to keep herself from running into her brother's arms. Because she knew she was at the breaking point where she would soon go crazy. Her control was at its limit.

How often did she want to show up at his apartment and throw herself inside his embraced? Forgot all the reasons, the world, forgot everything and shut the door of reality behind them so they could be drowning in each other with only the fact that they were in love.

Such dangerous thought.

She was heading toward the train station. It only took ten minutes by train, two stops, from there to reach the train station Kin was waiting. She was on her way out of the university.

What would Kin think if he ever find out the ugly truth that she was in love with Sesshomaru, her own brother? Would he be disgusted? Or would he accept her?

She didn't know.

She didn't' want to think about such things right now.

12:32 pm, her cellphone said. She put her cellphone back into her purse.

She was wearing a pair of torn jeans and a simple black shirt, cover with a jeans jacket. Her black hair was freely flow down her back.

There would be no turning back. She had decided. She would go to Kin. The gentle friend that had always been by her side, supported and protected her. She would find comfort in his arms. Even if it would be painful when she would secretly wished it were Sesshomaru's instead, but she would be fine with Kin.

You will only hurt him, a voice contradicted.

A woman voice announced through the speaker that the train had arrived and would soon depart. She took a deep breath before decided that she would try it out. She took one step after another and another and another, but it felt so heavy. Even so, she was now standing in front of the train's door.

It felt so dreadful as if she were about to walk into death door.

'This isn't fair to Kin.'

Her body moved as if it was in an auto pilot mode and stepped a foot inside the train.

There is no turning back, she thought. But before she could completely step inside, a hand firmly grasped onto her right arm, pulling her and swung her body away from the train. She was dumfounded to find herself tightly wrapped inside a pair of strong arms. Her ear connected to his racing thumping heart. His shirt was soaked with sweat and his body heat was burning indicated that he had been running.

"Don't go," his deep voice echoed inside her ears as if it was a spell. It bounded her to him and she lost all the strength she had.

One word from him and she would even willing to give up her life.

She didn't care anymore. Reasons, whatever.

Her arms gently snaked around his back before tightening it with everything she had.

It didn't matter anymore as long as she could be with him.

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Feb 24, 2013