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Ever since the death of her younger brother Seth, Leah felt as if she had become some sort of drone. All she did was go through the motions each day and even when she did those, she felt nothing. Emotionally she was as dead as her brother and the she-wolf could care less because she felt she no longer had anything or anyone to live for. Her mother hated her and blamed her for Seth dying, she had pushed all her friends away after Sam broke her heart, Emily had betrayed her with Sam so in Leah's book she ceased to exist, her pack brothers had made it clear plenty of times they felt as if they would be better off without her, and the Cullen family were not people, well monsters, she would want to spend her time with and with all those names crossed off the list, she truly had nobody left in her life who needed or wanted her around.

Then Jacob started acting odd by following her around, checking in on her every single day, calling her in the middle of the night after she would wake up from another nightmare screaming because she had failed her brother again, and her alpha had started taking her on random errands; well she had thought they were random errands at first, but quickly realized it was his way of getting her out and back in to the world of the living. Jake hoped that by getting her out and about, it may help her find a reason to keep on living.

At first Leah wasn't bothered by his actions because she was numb emotionally and so she could tolerate his presence since she honestly did not feel anything, but as time wore on, the more Jacob kept up his mission to bring her back to reality, the more the female shape shifter started to feel again and she hated. The reason she had went catatonic with her emotions in the first place was so she wouldn't have to deal with her pain and the loss of her brother. Of course closing off her emotions meant losing the good ones as well, but in her opinion it had been worth it. Now with Jake bringing emotions back in to play, the pain was coming back twice as much as it had been before and the Quilette female knew she couldn't take it; she didn't want to deal with it and had even said as much to Jacob.

"Leah, please don't take this the wrong way, but right now I could give a rats ass about what you want or don't want because you are grieving and so you are unable to make rational choices, well that's what my dad says anyways and I have to agree with him; you are in no frame of mind to be deciding on anything." That had been his reply to her and if she hadn't been so angry then maybe she would have been understanding, yet she was angry and considering it had been Jake who wanted her to feel again, he would be her shape shifter verbal punching bag.

"It should have been you!" She screamed as her hands balled in to fists at her side. "It was supposed to be you! My brother was just a kid and because of you he is dead and nothing you or anyone else does will bring him back. You stand there and you tell me that you are here for me, but what you fail to realize is the fact I don't want your help! There is nothing you can do to make this better! At first I wanted you to die, but that would do no good; Seth would still be gone and you'd be off the hook. It's better this way, better you suffer and live with knowing my brother is dead and it is on you. If you think that by 'saving me' or whatever it is you're trying to do, will give you redemption then you are dead wrong. I hope the death of my brother haunts you for years to come and the guilt slowly eats away at your heart. I hope you feel the pain I do, the pain you and the Cullen clan created. I hope you suffer forever Jacob Black!"

After she had finished her rant, the alpha male crossed his arms over his chest as he gazed at her with his dark eyes. "Did that help? Do you feel better having taken some of your anger out on me? Do you want to scream at me some more or will you advance to punching? If it makes you feel better Leah then I say go for it. Do whatever you must in order to let out some of your emotions. It's not healthy for you to keep them bottled up so if beating on me verbally and physically helps you just do it. I told you before and I will say it again; I am here for you Leah whether you want me to be or not and I am not going anywhere so take your best shot."

For a moment he wondered if she would hit him because her fist was raised, but she let it drop back to her side as her eyes filled with tears and her bottom lip started trembling. when she spoke her words were so soft he barely heard them even with his super hearing due to being a shifter. "I want my brother back Jake. All I want is to close my eyes and then when I open them again Seth will be there standing in front of me with that smile he always wore and laughter in his eyes. What I want is to know my brother is sleeping in the next room when I get home from patrol, or waiting for me at the breakfast table so we can eat together, I want to watch him graduate high school then college, and I want to be at his wedding, but none of that is possible and it's not your fault Jake, it's mine. It should have been me, I wish it had been me, not Seth, it never should've been Seth."

TBC...

AN: So a few of you wanted to see this continued and I figured why not. I am not sure what the plot will be, but I'll come up with something I always do. Thanks to everyone who kept my stepfather in their thoughts and prayers, he is doing much better and is home now.

Please R&R like always!