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Don't ever say goodbye
See my head aches from all this thinkin'
Feels like a ship God, God knows I'm sinkin'
Wonder what you do and where it is you stay
These questions like a whirlwind, they carry me away
Who will bring me flowers when it's over
And who will give me comfort when it's cold
Who will I belong to when the day just won't give in
And who will tell me how it ends and how it all begins
Oh, no
Oh no
Don't ever say goodbye
I'm only human
I said I'm only human
I'm only human
I said I'm only human
I'm only human
I said I'm only human
I'm human I'm human I'm human
Yeah Oh,
Yeah, Oh- Flowers Of A Ghost by Thriving Ivory
Leah stood high above the roaring waters of First beach on the highest part of the bluffs where local kids liked to cliff dive, but today only the female shifter stood on the bluffs as her hair whipped around her face from the harsh winds and stinging rain. Nobody else would risk catching a cold, but that wasn't something Leah had to worry about even though she could care less if she got sick or not. A part of her wished she could catch a cold and let it turn in to something more life threatening. She craved the taste of death since it was the only hope she had of ever seeing her little brother again, but fate wouldn't let her die yet, no she had to suffer a fate worth than death; Leah had to live without Seth.
The only she-wolf ever to exist wondered if the death of her brother was punishment for some sin she had committed in another life. Wouldn't it have made for sense for her to die instead of him? Seth had never done anything wrong his entire life. Leah used to tease him all the time about being a goody goody and now she wished for those days back. She would do anything to have him back, even make up with Emily and forgive Sam. Nothing was as important to her as her brother, he was her whole world and she had taken it upon herself to look after him when their father passed on. What would Harry think of his daughter now? Would he, like Sue, hate her for not protecting the younger Clearwater male? it didn't really matter since nobody could hate her more than she hated herself, not even her mother.
The sound of heavy steps came from behind her over the sound of the rain and crashing waves below. Leah did not need to turn around to know who was standing there; it was the same person each time lately. "Seth used to love it up here you know. When we were kids and I brought him here for the first time he was scared beyond belief. I had dared him to jump from the highest bluff and he was all set to do it until he saw how high it actually happened to be. Being the kind of sister I am, pushed him over the edge in order to make him face his fear and then I dove in after him. By the time we pulled ourselves out the freezing water he was laughing. He wasn't even angry with me and the little nerd even asked if I would push him off again. We had some great times up here, but all that is over with now. If I were to jump in to the water now Seth wouldn't be waiting for me at the bottom."
Jake frowned before taking a few steps towards her. "You still have those memories Leah. Seth will always be with you one way or another. You have him in your memories and your heart and that is better than not having anything of him at all."
Leah spun around as she shot a glare at her alpha. "How about you try it and then we can compare if it's better because in my mind having these memories, seeing his pictures all over the house, his room exactly the way he left it, it doesn't make his loss better, it makes it worse in my opinion. Everywhere I look I see reminders of him. Do you have any idea what that is like Jacob? I know you lost your mother when you were born, but she had a pretty long life, can you say the same for Seth? He barely had a life Jacob and it was snuffed out before he could even live. You don't remember your mother and I used to think it better that way, but now I envy you. I wish I could wipe every memory of Seth from my mind and heart because maybe then it wouldn't hurt as much. I understand you want to help me Jake, but the only way you can do that is by giving me a lobotomy and I doubt you would do that for me am I right?"
The alpha male shrugged his big shoulders as he came to stand directly in front of her and taking her smaller hands in his larger ones. "I could attempt it, but I would rather not because in forgetting Seth, you would forget everyone else as well and it took us years to become friends so I would rather not go through all of that for a second time. You know I would take away your pain if I could, but I can't. What I can do Leah is try to share your pain. You don't have to go through all of this alone to prove you're strong. From now on it's going to be you and me alright? If you jump then I jump as well got it?"
For a moment Leah was quiet as she thought about what he said. After a mental debate with herself, she grabbed his hand and and squeezed before turning back towards the cliffs and dragging him behind her as they flew off the edge and in to the freezing water below. Perhaps he could be exactly what she needed and besides that, it was nice to have someone to lean on and she trusted Jake more than anybody else.
As soon as they broke the surface of the water and gulped up some much needed air, Leah nodded once. "If you jump then I'll jump too."
TBC...
AN: Hey guys, I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I have an idea where I want to take this story now which is good. Oh, someone nominated my older story 'Eye Of The Vampire' at the Twisted Pretzel awards and I want to thank whoever it was and if you wanna vote for me then go here: . and its in the wolf section under odd couple. If you vote then thank you, I am honored at having been nominated at all it just makes writing for you guys all the more worth it when I realize how much you like my stories, you guys are the best!
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