CHAPTER 7 (Rhydian's point of view)
Her eyes, her eyes, look at her face. Why does she have to be so beautiful ? It is so unfair. I feel like I cannot make a whole sentence without being caught by her neck or by the curves of her chest, of her hips, of her waist. Losing myself again.
"I wanted to talk to you about Jana and her pack.", I chutter.
Oh. I can see her face getting dark. That was maybe not the good time.
"What about them ?", she hisses.
"They offered to me to join them. Since I could not stay with you and you could not come with me, I thought that it might not be such a bad idea", I whisper.
That is the truth. I would not stand high school without her. I would not stand tamed life without her. At least, in my wolf body, human pains were attenuated. Even if it would still be hell.
"You're... You're leaving me ?", she splutters, her voice broken.
"No, that's not..."
"You damned jerk ! Why did you come ? To torment me ? Are you enjoying it, right now?", she yells. God, her hands are shaking way too much for our physical integrity.
"Hush Maddy, you're going to wake up your parents. Calm down, of course I did not", I chutter.
"I hate you", she says. Just before a torrent of tears flood her face.
"Hey Maddy, Maddy, love, I'm sorry, hush", I murmur, hugging her.
Clearly, that was not the right time. Actually maybe the whole thing was a bad idea. But how can she say I want to hurt her ?
"Hurting you is the last thing I want to do on Earth, my love, how can you say such a thing ?", I chutter.
"Stop calling me like this. I'm not your love. Let me go. Join your pack and your beloved Jana. And do not ever come back", she whispers, her tears still flowing.
Of course, I do not let go of her. When her legs cannot stand her pain anymore, I lie her on her bed and I lie next to her. Still holding her.